demand avoidance makes it hard to manage my needs which makes symptoms worse which causes demand avoidance that makes it hard to manage my needs which makes my symptoms worse which causes demand avoidance that makes it hard to manage my needs which makes symptoms worse which causes demand avoidance

today is Solstice Reflect on the dark that has been. Await the dawn that is coming. Every day from here will get brighter. think of the earth, and the sky, and the connection between you and they look through the thin veil while the world is at its darkest, if that's your thing

Rather than wait for the next elevator, an old white man who wanted to get on the full elevator I was in -- that was ALREADY GOING UP -- pressed the stop button. We all missed the train.

I don't believe in Christ or capitalism. I don't have a family; my chosen family isn't quite found yet. Christmas just feels like pretending. I'm done. Solstice is real, it's tomorrow, I'm not expected to buy anything to deserve love, and every day after gets a little brighter. I pick Solstice.

always plan time for a safety meeting before going in

I'm so fucking angry at our healthcare system. My partner is in withdrawal because she ran out of her meds. She's out because her psychiatrist just stopped responding to her and her pharmacy. She has little choice but to use them because of her insurance. SHE HAS INSURANCE and is going through this.

the trade federation has placed an illegal blockade around Naboo.

I bring weed to the function

help a trans folk, manifest this shit, stop and ask the universe this person deserves it so much🙏

hi. WIND. I can hear it actually whistling around buildings etc. stuff is banging around. I'm supposed to go food shopping but I don't wanna walk around in this, I'm soft bodied :(

really wish people would stop reposting every hateful and cruel ai-slop from over there, over here. it's still hateful slop even if it's rage posted and we don't want constant exposure. about to start ruthlessly blocking screen-shotters.

tooth pain is one of many incredibly shitty facts of life for most working poor that just... isn't talked about food hurts

being visibly queer after dark outside these days is... an experience. Going to have a lot to process after work tonight.

hot take: your sobriety is your responsibility. I try to remember not to offer/pass to people who have disclosed their journey but demanding other people change a behavior, or holding them responsible for your decision about your body, will never vibe with me. if you can't say no, then don't go.

i tried to reach out to an old friend on another platform. they accepted my add, but didn't respond to a message. a few days later, they quietly moved me to restricted status. rather than chase ghosts, I just removed myself. I hope they're well, and that I didn't disturb their peace.

me and whoomfst

morning hi how are ya I'm crashing out over something dumb again because I'm poor, autistic and largely unsupported wish y'all a good day 🙏❤️

came across an injured, black, appeared to be houseless man, alone, being yelled at by 3 cops and 2 transit cops. I stopped a short distance away, pulled out my phone, and hit record. One transit cop tried stopping me and I told them no, I had a legal right, I was going to film. 🧵

fishing for #creative #autistic #queer #sapphic #transinclusive folks 🎣

I had such a moment of overwhelming gratitude for being in the time and place, doing what I love, that I got chills and teared up.

this post is to clear whatever negative juju infected my discover feed for it to be once again showing me naked m*n when I SPECIFICALLY WANT EVERYTHING BUT. I like naked I like WOMEN I like thems I like femmes I like butch I'm. Not. Into. Men. (they can be a side character but not the main/only)

this is gonna sound stupid to NTs but I'm trans and autistic and low key crashing out with Netflix buying WB. I've had Netflix so long that a lot of my comfort shows, a valid accommodation/tool, are exclusive. I've cancelled everything that has touched the HP franchise without hesitation before.

if Netflix buys Warner I'll have to cancel bc I'm not giving money to jk rowling

transition update: I have a lil tuft of fuzz between my t!ts and it looks SO CUTE 🥰

what a nice day I'm having, why don't I just check the Internet real qu- OH GOD WHY DID I DO THAT this is why I consume at least a half oz a week lately

sometimes I replyguy without realizing but I usually do realize eventually and I apologize can we re normalize fucking up socially sometimes

everyone talks about the hard to keep jobs kind of 'tism, but we should also talk about the other, I'll do everything PERFECT and I won't quit no matter how bad it gets because I don't know how to recognize toxic situations, kind

morning I'm bringing vendor discourse over here because it's my venting space I've only been doing this since July and I've already had it with small businesses (bars, restaurants etc) who have discovered taking advantage of artists as a way to survive the current state of affairs.

oh I didn't take my meds today whoops so much has been explained with this fact

a place playing "a lap dance is better when the stripper is crying" does not feel like a safe place

please stop bringing children to bars please stop bringing children to bars please stop bringing children to bars

just saw someone carry a toddler right past a 'No Minors' sign sir

morning, vend all weekend, head to insta (sorry) for locations reminder: they want violence because it gives them an excuse to enact oppression they. WANT. violence.

skipped thanksgiving entirely. spent time doing my favorite thing with my favorite person. didn't cook a goddamn thing. ate too much chow mein. now it's on to a bowl, some pie, and bed. honestly? best way to spend the day I've found yet, 12/10.

I FINALLY got my payout for my work injury in January and it isn't a life changer but it means if I keep working hard even during slow season I should be able to make it through the winter without closing my business! yay! 😁

my dysfunction is so executive it has its own penthouse suite today

it is morning, time to enjoy my <5 hours of daylight yeah I COULD get up earlier but I'm just not built that way

who else is just sorta skipping thanksgiving? i don't feel like cooking or thinking about estranged family or celebrating a false narrative about colonization I'm making and selling art all weekend. shop a lot but shop SMALL art from small businesses is a more meaningful gift than slop

some days I feel like I can accomplish anything some days I crash out over choosing bags for my customers

I used to LOVE big fantastical badass movies, but it's really hard for me to see films in that category from the last 15-20 years as anything but propaganda pieces.

hi yes morning can we talk about the crazy spike in prices on home cleaning products? it's depressing

hi. ECONOMIC BLACKOUT DOESN'T INCLUDE SMALL BUSINESS and if you insist it does, you're performative af. please support us and buy stuff from artists 💕 also f colonization and f the capitalism cash cow

chaotic good is the person that reply all-ed to the mass vendor email with a heart emoji

someone is playing some anti trans propaganda on the speaker of their phone on a loop on the bus cool, I feel safe

I saw something on another app that was makeshiftart and I had to put a ton of effort into not reading makeshitfart

art take of the day: 'prestige' art supplies only exist to keep the gates shut on 'fine' art also true for the term 'fine art'

morning I cannot wait to begin healing from these ugly feelings. waiting for a man to d-- is not my nature. The Everything + c-ptsd is making soup out of my moral compass. I think I got my head on right one minute, the next I'm swimming in darkness thinking about all the people that want me gone.

cis ppl meeting: hi, I'm Dave, how's this rain treating you, sports huh? trans people meeting: let's share extremely personal and potentially traumatic experiences with each other immediately because it's finally safe to tell SOMEONE

this post is fishing for #queer #Seattle #artists who want to be friends

'Don't take it so personal,' said the reseller to the artrepreneur, organizing the stack of cash they were raking in. "Bad sales days happen."