I know better than to think I can get people in my fandoms to read or think, but at the very least I can make them wonder what they just saw for 1 second before they go

I'm not officially declaring it because I suck at un committing as much as I suck at committing, but I'm about ready to just shelve all that VTuber business. I'm tired of huge spaces that are constantly on fire and full of garbage. It wasn't a waste but. Eugh.

Miss me with that Nietzsche wannabe shit based on your incoming trauma dump lol. If you get shocked when edgy humor gets slapped down the problem might be you

man I don't even know about social media anymore. Twitter is literally 75% bots that aren't even decently disguised anymore (same White Person Names with Two Emojis on the Sides). Bsky is less noisy but it feels like the Greater Sprawl all has an agenda. Tumblr...???????

We love you! repost to send a treat: live.dashducks.tv

Finally feeling alive enough to do something today, but WHAT is the question

Where's my breakfast? 🪶

Oh, you know. One of those days. Wish I could be beautiful, powerful, wish I could be anything at all.

I'm kind of done with the greater internet sphere. No one thinks anymore. Tired of cooking up great ideas that I don't have energy to manifest. Tired of sloshing through the ignorant masses and the crap spewing out of them. Tired of being nice to stupid people.

www.twitch.tv/sylardens Sleepwalking through the Divergent Universe on Twitch because I AM.

IT'S HAPPENING. PLAYING HATOFUL BOYFRIEND. RETURNING TO THE BEGINNING OF THE BIRD-LOVING HOURS. COME ON OVER FOR BIRBDAY CELEBRATION. www.twitch.tv/sylardens

It's MY BIRTHDAY (jumps out of own cake)

www.twitch.tv/sylardens SURPRISE!!! short stream, playing Mushroom Musume, or: MUSHROOM DAUGHTERS.

ah, we gotta seize the day by the balls today? ALL RIGHT GET BRACED-

Good morning! 🪶

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tfw you can't talk about your favorite thing because nearly every other person in your fandom is brainless and/or delusional. I give up. I can't even enjoy streams from the people working on the game because that means being with THE PEOPLE.

I think the looming deaths of empathy, literacy, and open-minded are my sleep paralysis demons. No it's not normal that it keeps me up at night but please, if any part of me was reasonable I'd be in such a different place

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I really don't want to have to drop ANOTHER thing I love because people keep ruining it for me to the point that I can't look at the stuff without thinking of all the bullshit. I'd make my own stuff to replace it but the full experience would be EXPENSIVE at best and energy-sucking at worst.

When you're so tired that your brain is convinced you have to become pibbin jebus

Thank you again Hanzo!!

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We're clearly living in the end times, so it's even more important to create and behold experiences that encapsulate what's important. Simple joys hold equal weight on the scale next to musings on humanity's potential as reminders of possibility.

Ok so what kind of owl is this

as the song goes: I DON'T GIVE A DAMN ABOUT MY REPUTATION

I WAS A DIRTY BIRDIE and. yes. I wrote a fic for @problematicbigbang.bsky.social . And Naranja did lovely lovely art for it. It was a very fun project! Go look but it's a bit saucy so like, user discretion advised. archiveofourown.org/works/66470833

I made these two pieces for the fic written by Syl for @problematicbigbang.bsky.social ! Please go check the fic out if you enjoy danstelle 😊 It was fun to work on this! archiveofourown.org/works/66470833 #naraart

Slowly pruning away the part of the "thin world" of this internet that make me feel like I'm another clump of noise instead of human.

How many of these people who don't understand and refuse to understand am I going to have to stand my ground against? (Infinity, probably)

ardent-isles.vercel.app Put up my "digital garden" site. It's essentially an interactive collection of scribbles, vignettes, and character conversations that I liked too much to leave unpublished. Will be updated here and there.

I'm considered an awful person for not compromising on my principles, and I've come to accept that. If you can't handle my sticking points, then you probably can't handle my moments of brilliance either.

I resurge from the depths to be myself, unfettered. Fools recoil and are shattered. Mercy is granted to the deserving or unaffiliated. Heads roll, but in the end it dissolves into noise, for that's all it every was- unusually coherent, but still noise.

At some point I just decided that I will just face everything as myself, and that means everyone else will face me as myself too, good and "bad." If people cannot accept me due to one "bad" fragment, then that is their problem. I refuse to compromise on myself, truth, or justice anymore.

People recoil when they're confronted with an honest assessment of their foolishness, but at this point, I think telling people what's wrong with them is better than passive aggressive faffing around. "Polite society" has ruined communication. I might be an awful person but my shots fly true.

Trying to do a thing and half the info is gatekept by arrogant 18-year-old boys that can't document shit, and the other half is infinitely more complex than it needs to be and held by arcane masters that are too busy to help anyone... you think that'd stop me but I don't stop till I win

I'mma be real, I don't really have anything nice to say about 95% of the internet anymore but common decency demands that I pretend to.

No, I still haven't done anything interesting other than look for trouble.

KO-FI DOODLE #2: Starry Birbsona Doodle of @sylardens.bsky.social' birbsona, may the wuewuewue be with the birb 🐦

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we are looking for snacks repost to send a treat to live.dashducks.tv

I still hate my stupid whiny fandoms. Cerces safeguard my smoko today.

They love dirt.

Merry Foolsmas. Go be a Little weird.

I did not expect to begin my internet villain/cancellation arc this way but HERE WE ARE. (it's a joke/non-issue now but at the time it was hilarious)

My new pet peeve is people who don't even try to cope. If you just wail every time the anxiety wins, and then wail some more when someone calls you out on consistently letting it win, you're a sad situation.

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I got one taste of delicious validation on some work and I got all tangled up in nonsense because of it. It's hard to go back to creating BY yourself FOR yourself when you've gotten that taste. No wonder people freak out about not getting comments; they're a helluva drug.

Still love it over here too! Thanks again.