Yk it’s really funny how things go yk?

guys, I don't even go on bluesky. Why am I being blocked 😭

Inspired by their own struggle with mental illness, we have our head mod, @psychichurt.bsky.social . They are here to guide and organize the zine while reminding us to drink water. All members of the zine will be sharing their coping methods with you all. #bnha #mha

Obsessively checking my emails for jobs to get back to me Jesus it’s been weeks.

I graduate in a month and summer is coming up. I have so much more time on my hands. Exciting.

So I apparently am getting ocular migraines which still leaves me with many questions unanswered. Why the hell am I just collapsing daily?

I think I might do a little com/mission spree for my 30th I’m not sure.

I’ve been in a server almost 3 years now and I mod it and honestly I don’t think a single person there likes me. I get ignored all the time. I can’t even say positive stuff about my zines because I’m overshadowed by pickles or some bullshit.

It’s just an off night.

I feel like I need to put a sign on my profile: Sorry, has bpd, doesn’t take rejection well. Nice otherwise :)

I said this and now I’m considering applying to other projects. Jesus someone remind me of this moment when I’m rejected again 😭

Too good a writer to risk my sanity applying for 3-12 bkdkbk zine writer positions. I think I’m done for a while with zines. At least applying/ my hero academia ones. I’ll just stick with collecting. Not like I’ll ever be worth a damn anyways.

I applied for a non mha zine probably two months ago and they never sent results and didn’t answer my dm. I think it’s safe to assume I’m rejected 😭

Anyone know how to make money so I can pay off the county because my job apparently fucked up only my w2 and no one else’s :) Life is pain.

✨️CONTRIBUTOR SPOTLIGHT: Psychichurt✨️ DKBK Headcanon: Izuku is sunshine incarnate and Katsuki is hell-spawn and together they are the perfect pair.

No more Bluesky crash outs I’m turning over a new leaf.

Okay that’s it I’m officially introducing myself. I’m Bee or PsychicHurt and I have been writing fan fic since I was 10. I am a multishipper in the My Hero Universe but mainly go BKDKBK. I’m currently expanding my horizons and challenging my writing. More here: psychichurt.carrd.co

Bro I don’t think this is a flare up. I think this is just the way I am now. I need to process this. That’s a scary thought.

I let my wife read one of my fics for a zine and she ended up crying... I think that means it's good. Or she's too drunk. My number one fan til the end.

Dipping into insecure, “not enough” territory tonight. It’s getting more and more disheartening being a writer and sometimes I think I never should have posted any of it online. Sometimes I wonder if I should stop. 4 years in a fandom and I feel like I’ve made little progress.

Thought I was finally going to get answers last night. Instead, the only answer I got was low blood sugar (that fruit punch gel is atrocious). I've been searching for answers since October as to why I have these attacks where I suddenly start falling. I'm gonna be 30, I shouldn't be falling.

Bakugou and Deku go to Cat Island and get attached to every single cat they see. 🐈🛻 (Thanks to all my friends who offered their cat pictures! All these cats are based on real kitties!) #bkdk #mha #bnha #mhafanart

If anyone says your paragraphs are too long, just remind them about Faulkner and his 1200 word sentence.

I saw something I shouldn't have a while back and it's made me realize that if people read my shit it's out of pity. It came across my discord vents today. I'm not a strong or good writer and I'm inching closer and closer to just leaving the fandom once and for all.

I fell really badly today in the kitchen when I was home alone. I didn’t hurt myself but I would really appreciate if something could go right or my health could cooperate.

I want my dad. I wish he could be here right now. I really could use him.

I need to control my emotions better. I didn’t do all that dbt therapy for nothing. I’m fine now but I’m really sorry I freaked out earlier. Being AuDHD comes with some serious RSD and sometimes I can’t keep it in.

I’m never gonna be good enough.

archiveofourown.org/works/79332596 Wrote this fun little piece that matches up to Avro's epic art!

Massive flare up. Worst one in a while. Will be using voice to text for a while

One of my pieces for @bnhacrimebang.bsky.social that I worked with @avrochan.bsky.social on! Can't wait to share the rest with you!

I need one thing for me. A win. That’s all that matters.

Sorry I deactivated. Bee be a bit mentally ill but it’s cool bc I’m hot. (Idk if that’s how it works but I’m running with it.)

How hard is it to fucking communicate?

I mod a server and it’s been a week since I interacted in the server and for a place that assured me that I’m not excluded, they’re really making me feel excluded.

how do fan fic writers even cope with feeling discouraged from writing? mostly because of lack of reach and yeah I could promote better, but idk. I just feel like it was useless to share my exchange piece because no one was gonna read it anyways.

When you were looking forward to something all day and it finally happens and it ends up just ruining your day instead :)

My depression has been so bad lately. It’s like I met my new therapist and suddenly, it all bubbled over. Trying to convince myself to not revert to my high school angst phase.

This has been the worst weekend in a while.

I haven’t felt like writing these past few days and suddenly my pain from before my surgery came back two weeks before school. Bro I might actually need a cane if there’s nothing they can do for me.

Everyone, take your seats please! Midoriya-sensei has an important announcement: The interest check along with mod applications for School's In Session: A Digitial Zine focusing on Izuku Midoriya's life as a teacher and pro-hero is open! We're ready to hear your thoughts! #bnha #izuku #deku

Don’t know when it happened, but I slipped into depression so now I’m over analyzing everything. My writing. My kudos. My projects. No matter what I do it all comes back to this feeling. Of insignificance.

A dear friend, known in the community as Avro ( @avrochan.bsky.social here) has faced a devastating fire. While she is processing and recovering from shock, a GoFundMe has been set up to help with expenditures related to this incident. All funds are going directly to her. gofund.me/3e6be362

It is so so important to come together in times like this! For donations of $50 or more I am offering sfw commissions with a simple background. For $75 or more, I am offering NSFW commissions with a simple background! Simply dm me with proof of donation!! About a 4-5 week turnaround!

Got a little sense of vindication today.

archiveofourown.org/chapters/170... I've been working on a #dkbk mafia/organized crime piece. Also it's omegaverse. This is one of my favorite things I've written. Organized crime has got me in a CHOKEHOLD!!!

What does it even take to “make it” in this fandom? How do I get people to even take me seriously? I know I need to post more but idk maybe my long ass break was a bad idea, who would have thought? Idk it just feels like I’m a joke.

Sorry.

Almost end of school year, can Katsuki sub in the rest of the year? I’m tired.