So, yes. I feel kind of wrecked. There was a bullet list of things wrecking me, but it got long and blurry and now it’s like a huge body of water that’s swallowed me up, and is just…wrecking me. *I put “kind of” in front of “wrecked” because I thought it would be less dramatic, but fuck it. Drama.

I just saw something that's making me laugh so hard I have tears streaming down my face. I'm the only person awake, so I'm trying to be quiet, but while I'm managing to suppress out-loud-laughing, the slightly more covert snort-laughs are out of control, and my whole body is quaking.

Happy New Year everyone. I’ve been pretty quiet the last six months, but I posted this message on LinkedIn late yesterday just to give everyone an update. I’ll put it here just to make sure it gets around

Yup. Me.

For a short time, a long while ago, I reviewed otomes. I’ve been trying to sort out the name of one I played that had a character design I really loved. I can’t remember the name of the damn game and it’s driving me nuts, but at least it’s distracting me from [gesturing all around herself] all this.

A song played that made me think of a piece of fan fiction I wrote twenty years ago this year. I decided to brave the cringe and reread it. I found seven other pieces I wrote that same year. What the hell happened to me? Since then, I mean. Because I already know what was wrong with me in 2006.

spirit = suitably crushed

What I wish I was right now.

We had a good run

Dot and Sea Serpent are the stars of Monster Mender, which comes out May 5th in case you’re interested. 😁

Listen, if you’re posting ai-generated art, I’m unfollowing you. If you’re liking it or sharing it, I’m unfollowing you. I know, I know - “THIS ISN’T AN AIRPORT YOU DON’T NEED TO ANNOUNCE YOUR DEPARTURE” Whatever you say. I’m done.

Dot for @englidottir.bsky.social 💚 Love how this one turned out! #eso #elderscrolls #elderscrollsonline #tes #teso

“Time to start paying attention, Canada.” Um, yeah. We’ve been paying attention for quite a long while now. To be honest, it feels like we’ve been paying far closer attention than you have.

Murderers.

This week he brought Elsweyr Chimes, Long String!

@englidottir.bsky.social I hope you had a really nice day! 💜🫂

Influencers make me hate fingernails.

Instead of what people are going to do this year, I want to hear more about what people aren’t going to do. 🧐 Personally speaking, I feel like a list of new year to-not-do’s is more doable, if that makes sense.

As a socially anxious, introverted little freak, one good thing about a New Year’s Day birthday is that it’s always 🤫. Everyone’s tired from the night before, or using the day for quiet contemplation…or bunch. Or both! So I don’t have to spend my birthday masking, or clenching my jaw, et cetera.

#ESO #TES #Divayth_Fyr #Sotha_Sil #Vivec

Ageing: the condition of becoming less serious about all you were once far too serious about and more serious about all that you once undervalued.

One of my resolutions for 2026 is to swiftly shut down anything that normally results in me making this face.

Birthday in four hours and thirteen minutes. Do not like. Do not like.

Nothing urgent. Just Julian-freaking-Devorak.

"AI" image generation is not primarily used to make cats dance ballet or whatever, it's mostly used to non-consensually undress real women and pose them in sexual situations against their will. "AI" is being leveraged by men to control, humiliate, and shame women in real life.

I keep seeing people using AI to create political memes, or to generate pictures of their favourite characters kissing, and it’s driving me a little nuts. Like, I know they know better. I KNOW they know better. That they don’t care is…really, really gross.

Multiplay with Alex continues. Dot wants to go back to trancing, but she’s stuck in this conversation with the Dream Visitor until Alex gets back from the bathroom.

Art.

Dots.

Major Arox energy, @fenderlove.bsky.social. #esofam #eso

“It is financially devastating but morally exhilarating” goes so hard.

Late-night BG3 multiplay with Alex. Friction between his Dragonborn and Astarion continues to rise.

We’re just innocent men

I’m getting tired of these video recommendations. They make me anxious as fuck. Like, are they trying to get us killed up here with these title cards, or what?

I’m debating whether or not I want to smother my timeline in OC nonsense come 2026. I think I have to start caring less about how I come across to people. Like, I’m sure I already come across as a fruit loop, but trust me when I say it could be a lot worse. Lots of masking happens. LOTS. 🧐

Michael Caine. 👑

QRP to reintroduce yourself! ✨ Hii, I'm Ilona. Illustrator and concept artist. Also Illustrator for Monster Mender (releasing 2026) I love working with abstract shapes and flat colors. Creating both (cinematic) landscapes and characters. 💚 Pleasure to meet you! 😄

I’ve already lost and am losing so many relatives to Alzheimer’s. I’d be lying if I said that doesn’t keep me terrified on a near-daily basis that it could happen to me, my parents, or my siblings. My heart hurts in the best way right now.

Reminder: If we’re having a conversation - any kind conversation, but especially one about fictional shit - and YOU bring MY trauma into it, I’ll emotionally check out so hard and fast, you’ll think you’re a magician with the power to make people disappear. I guarantee things will never be the same.

With this years calendar from the @calendarkrewe.bsky.social being out now, I'm happy to share the piece I've done. I was responsible for the cover this year and I went with my boy Kiró and the Enchanted Mounts Skins ✨ Sponsored by ArenaNet #guildwars2 #gw2 #guildwars

#artvsartist to finish this year up Not going to lie,2025 was a lot and it was hard. Didn't do nearly as much as I wanted in terms of personal projects, but I'm not going to beat myself over it. hopefully, I'll find more time and mental capacity in 2026 to dedicate to my stuff 😅

As an indie author, it’s already VERY difficult getting reviews, especially when we don’t ask for them ourselves. And when an asshole leaves this kind of a bullshit review, Amazon makes it nearly impossible to get rid of it. So for 10 years I’ve had to moderate the damn thing myself and I’m tired.

Suicidal ideation or no, I NEED to be put back on my ADHD meds. As it turns out, being able to read might be more important than pretty much *anything else*. For me (emphasis on “ME” here), it’s worth the risk. You may have noticed how little I interact with posts. It’s because I can’t fucking read.

i am going to fling balmora into space

This week he brought Mushroom, Giant Tanglestalk!

She can't play. Like, at all. #esofam #eso

Last year's Surprising Snowglobe. #esofam #eso

Truly a life-changing year. Thank you for being a part of it 🧡

So @fenderlove.bsky.social's Dandy is already freaking cute as a button, but then you add seasons greetings to the mix and she's boss-level adorable. And it's apparently infectious, because what-in-the-adora-dot?! Art by the incredible @aprilovebird.bsky.social. 💗🎄#bg3 #eso #esofam