havent put bird seed out for a few days since its been so cold heard some strange noises on the porch today the squirrel is biting the tray i put seed on and shoving it around to get at stuff underneath it. i should put seed out.

bird watching thoughts black capped chickadees are the cutest little things woodpeckers look goofy sitting on a horizontal surface dark eyed junkos have a funny way of digging in the snow

gofund.me/bfb150e23 I just found out today that I was accepted into the 2026 Winter Institute at Plug In ICA, but given the time constraints it’s too short to apply for grants, I’m gonna try to crowdfund for it. This is such a rare and exciting opportunity, please help me spread the word! 💜💜💜

what if it was never seasonal depression, just recurring autistic burnout every year cuz too much is asked of me when im already low energy? anyway just vibing with the low energy days, knitting and eating toffee.

A needle felted Blue tit - a wee change from the dogs

i find humor in how browsing for sunglasses gives me a headache cuz theres never a dark mode for the websites.

you will have to pry the millennial “lol” from my cold dead hands. i don’t know how else to express minor despair. if i didn’t say “lol” after admitting i’m a husk inside, i’d have to develop emotional resilience, and i simply don’t have time for that

i had to set goals today and boy that was excruciating anyway the goals were meal planning, organization and communication

bout of hiccups and a sneezing fit today and its not even 9am.

I have flowering succulents for the first time ever

Milo has learned he can cuddle with me at night which is lovely until i start overheating cuz theres a 22lb cat sleeping on my chest.

ordered new screen protectors and got a box that had been used. like someone had tried and failed to apply all three protectors, got mad, shoved them back in the box and returned them.

im calling these low energy days.. weeks actually, a little hibernation. days are either too dark or too bright. i had the most appointments ever this month. i dont really know whats all happening but a lot is. many things going places. idk hi, happy last day of the year?

Just 98 followers from my GIF GIVEAWAY! I held off on a 1750 follower giveaway to gear up for a 2k GIF giveaway!!! ♥️

everyone on here is 38 years old and loves star trek deep space 9

I thought maybe it would be possible to make a pigment from one of my plants and i guess now I'm learning how to make lake pigments in my bathroom

As long as they keep coming by, I'll keep sneaking pictures.

First time I've seen them eating together

currently three stray cats on my porch. the opossum had just left.

i told my therapist about the porch opossum and she was happy im connecting with the world. also didnt believe it was cute until i showed her this picture. also theres more than one porch opossum. I saw two the other day.

fell asleep on the floor again.

sometimes the squiggles in my vision look like constellations and i think thats neat but also i might be having an ocular migraine.

porch opossum wasnt spotted for a few days but im happy to report it has returned.

fat squirrel has found the bird seed. today i peeked out the window and saw mourning doves, a red breasted woodpecker and a whole bunch of sparrows, all flew off when the squirrel showed up. the mourning doves hang around nearby waiting their turn.

my dental hygienist kept saying i was 'easy to please' cuz i wanted the unflavored polishing stuff and a kids toothbrush. but like, i asked her for alternatives to everything she offered, is that easy to please or just knowing what i like.

i hope theres a part on this form where i can say that i had to stop filling it out after two pages cuz my thumb hurts real bad

a little flash from a dream last night was that a bottle of fountain pen ink had spilled all over a printer. which is a very me thing to happen and i laughed about it.

managed to get myself to put my compression socks and ankle supports on today and now theres a single piece of litter between my toes on both feet. 🙃

Porch opossum. Cracked the porch door super slowly, stuck my phone through and snapped a few pictures.

watering my plants, watching the birds (and the opossum), cleaning my house, poking at my fabric. theres not a lot happening, the brain is brrring but the decision making isnt.

its not even 8 am i shouldnt be having revelations like of course i dont know who i am these days since i rely on external validation to know who i am and ive been self isolating for like 6 years? anyway hi good morning.

really stuck living in between doctors appointments. its hard to want to do anything fun, im too busy taking care of myself, keeping track of symptoms, remembering to eat. december has 9 appointments. wouldve had a colonoscopy in there also but I moved it to june.

maybe today i create a pattern from a purse i have thats crumbling apart.

Buggy D red nose pirate... had a very shiny nose... { #onepiece | #buggytheclown #buggydclown #buggy | #onepieceart | #opart }

first thing this morning, i got to watch a fat squirrel dig in the snow, frantically burring some foraged food, definitely having a little fun while doing it. and then the brightness of the night after a heavy snowfall. its just lovely.

Boones mom wanted me to repaint some things she got at yard sales this summer. I like how this one is turning out

More lights. Many plants I have a pair of sunglasses hung outside my closet cuz it is now painfully bright in there.

my pain doctor said i looked a lot more comfortable in my own skin today and im like thanks bud i realized i can ask for help

today a tension headache woke me up at 430, ended up puking at 630, passed out until 9, ate a snack, passed back out til noon. i feel relatively human now.

Since it didn't come in a box, i just put the trendy tree up. Decorated today. It's got a really nice twinkle setting.

having to install an uninstaller that is installing the programs i already uninstalled just to re-install the same program to fix something it broke.

Enjoy your Saturday, #StarTrek friends! Darmok and Jalad on the ocean.

go to sleep earlier wake up even earlier. up before the sun today. got to see it rise behind a row of cedar trees. very pretty.

im going back and forth between days moving like molasses and days going by in a flash and the whiplash isnt fun. today is a molasses day.

got my dslr out for the first time in a while but now im realizing i dont have a photo editing program on my pc. and i have no idea what to use these days. what was i even using before? photoshop?

6am and I'm lookin at my plants with Olivia. My cats are all very good about leaving my plants alone (unless it's a spider plant)

socialized too much and now my tummy hurts.

update i got the trendy tree. yesterday i asked if they would sell the floor model. they told me to come back today and ask for dave. didnt have to ask for dave, dave was the first person i saw near the christmas section and dave had just marked the display at half off.

pretty sure the chistmas tree i want is trending somewhere. thats disappointing in multiple ways.

only 4 hours of sleep last night, staying up late did make me sleep deeper but not longer. no worries though, at some point during the day i'll get a solid 2 hour nap in. 🙃