Very tempted to just delete everything again. Throw it all down the drain. There’s no point trying to pretend I’ll ever be more than I am anyway. It’s never going to work. Nothing I do matters. I might as well stop exhausting myself with trying to make it happen.

Sometimes I really wish I was still young enough to move back home. I miss having someone to help support me or being so young I didn’t have to work so hard just to live. When I could’ve gotten a dumb retail job & been okay, instead of pushing through what feels like endless misery. But no.

I miss having people that wanted to hang out with me regularly. These days I’m just… constantly on my own but not in a by choice way. Just like people are no longer interested in being around me. I miss having friends.

BRB finding out who I have to fuck to pay my rent so I can leave my miserable ass horror show of a job and salvage the scraps of my mental health :)

Imagine being able to afford ANYTHING to take care of yourself on this backwards ass country. I hate it here.

something i've realized about myself lately is that MAN i really really hate being micromanaged or feeling like i'm being babysat. i'm way too independent these days to handle it LOL

This is literally so unacceptable. @marvel-rivals.bsky.social @netease.bsky.social Please stop disrespecting the people who work so hard to make your games the success they are. Decisions like this are what is ruining the gaming industry for everyone.

If you don't want to actually keep on a team of devs beyond a project's completion and pay them fairly for their work, then be upfront. Don't be shady. Make it a contract instead of letting them believe you care. This disgustingly corporate treatment of game devs HAS to stop.

This is the absolute worst thing I have seen today. They literally just released the season 1.5 updates like less than 3 hours ago. What the hell?? @marvel-rivals.bsky.social @netease.bsky.social These people deserve their jobs & some respect. THEY are the reason for your success. Stop this cycle.

WE ARE ALIVE ~ kinda lol Come visit meee and see all the things I've been cooking or will cook soon over on the Twitch! The 0.5 debut we've all been waiting for begins now! link below #vtuber #vtuberdebut #debut #vtuberEN

I have evaded the virus scan sooo your pc is safe again! Come see what all I can get up to tomorrow around 12:30 est on the twitch~ A 0.5 debut has arrived!! Gunna share some projects I've been working on and some future stuffs coming to a rin stream near you soon 💖✨️

Still boosting and hoping. I'm going to figure out tires this week if I can get a payment plan worked out. I was denied a debt relief loan, which sucks and I still don't know if I even have a job in 2 weeks. Any help is appreciated. #mutualaid #helpsky #trans #vtuber #ttrpg

small update: this will become my personal account, meaning things will get slightly more unhinged! (& probs unorganized lmao) for all things stream, please follow: @hextropyvt.bsky.social ! 💜💙

perhaps a cheeky little return to something else... twitch.tv/hextropyvt #vtuber #envtuber #indievtuber #ffxiv

teehee youtube.com/live/-0onM97...

We must never forget the lives lost to anti-transgender violence & discrimination. 🏳️‍⚧️ Share to support the #TransgenderDayofRemembrance! #NOH8 #TDOR

Going live in 15 minutes with our next adventure!!

"For mature audiences" not as in "legally allowed to see a boob" but "can see a fictional character do a bad thing and not immediately go on a crusade against the author"

Gotta be this one. #FFXIV #FF14

I woke up still thinking about this because I have (at least slightly) better tools to record with now, but idk what it would be about lol not like I’m a particular expert in anything. Hm….

Kinda thinking about doing a podcast again…

"A brother and sister doomed for eternal separation" #hsr #honkaistarrail

Thancred as The Hanged Man tarot card, drawn for a FFXIV tarot zine! Representing sacrifice in order to move forward, new perspectives, and indecision, all of which I think are important elements of Thancred's journey. ⭐️

😈 GOING LIVE! 🔴 Long time no see, Pixels~! It’s a casual Saturday stream in #HonkaiStarRail cleaning up some event tasks! Might do some XIV too~ Come hang out: twitch.tv/hextropy #ENVtuber #ENVtubers #VTuberEN #VTuberUprising #PatchworkVT #Hexlivexe

hmmm... little strim tomorrow mayhaps?

Clearly the universe doesn’t want me to stream again because now…. My mic is having issues! I have a temporary mic for using in discord but I just don’t wanna make you guys listen to it. I’m going to try to replace it when I can but not sure when that’ll be. T_T

I keep seeing people recommend Adblock Plus for an adblocker. Please don't use Adblock Plus. They've been running their own ad network to allow people to pay to bypass their ad blocking. It can be turned off but by default it is enabled. Please use uBlock Origin instead.

man i miss my gummies…. ive been able to sleep decently without them but some nights i could still use them & like ngl straight up it’s just fun to take them on a weekend and chill

scammers get better at scamming challenge (dont actually do this, i like being able to tell when you idiots try to approach me)

Inside you there are two wolves. Now more wolves. They're changing the behaviour of the deer. The willows are growing back among the river. The beavers are making dams. Inside you there are more beavers than you could have ever expected.

😈 GOING LIVE! 🔴 Long time no see, Pixels~! Let's hang out while I do some #GenshinImpact grinds, and maybe some #HonkaiStarRail too! Waiting room: twitch.tv/hextropy #ENVtuber #ENVtubers #VTuberEN #VTuberUprising #PatchworkVT #Hexlivexe

Alrighty I'm 90% sure I have everything set up SO finally actually for real we'll be doing a stream tonight~ I've got some stuff to do in both Genshin and HSR, so we'll see what we're feeling when the time coms. Roughly 10:30 EST!

If anyone has a spare capture card that’s switch compatible (doesn’t have to be elgato) hmu ToT I forgot I still haven’t gotten one to stream my switch with

Think I might do an HSR stream today. I want to start doing casual streams again…