hai guys! i'm in desperate need of money for medications for my C-PTSD. i've opened art commissions and only take paypal as payment. dm me if there's any interest and i'll haggle a price :') mostly just doing sketches/flat colors. i need $40 for a month supply ..

smoked a fat one happy birthday to mee

making pngtuber stuff for streaming :3

umm improvement :3 one on the right idk when was made

trauma is a bitch but we win these

sketch 😴

chibi jason :3

Ducks walking on Hydrangea petals.

i've been infected w the homestuck virus toyhou.se/30676224.sat...

iz ur head supoosd 2 feel liek it's bein stabbed w needles oor iz tat abnormal

horny system postin (it's jst suggestive art stuf LOLZ)

i've been havin nonstop flashbacks 4 liek 4 days nowe how iz evry1 </3 i also started vraylar last night i hope this bullshit actually helps lmfaoo also 'm Not an edbsky acc anymoar 'm recoverin on m own but i still support my mooties ofc ilya n i hope u all find happiness eventually 🫶🫶🫶 /gen

crying in the void

system shit <3

who cheered

i farted

ok well i am signing off of edbsky till i get my shit together, i am recovering snd i need to stay in recovery this time, because this will be the death of me kf i don't. i love food and i deserve to eat what iw ant, wen i want. i'm punishing myself for nothing

i genuinely, don't know why he thought leaving any nuance here was ok. i've been through so much trauma, sometimes my C-PTSD flashbacks feel "unfixable". so what the fuck AM I?

need some advice about approaching my fiancé about.. something. tw very heavy violence mentions. (1/6)

Does anyone have advice for bringing up your ED with a healthcare professional..? I really regret letting this disorder take over my life, I feel like i'm slowly dying everyday of my life. I want to recover so bad, and I am tired of relapsing. I'm not UW so I think i can heal with outpatient.. (1/3)

i feel like eating disorders should be classified as munchausen syndrome. i'm making myself so much fucking sicker than i should, just without the attention-seeking behavior. but this has to be SOME form of munchausen..

ok 'm gona recovr ii feel mself gettinf physical rlyy bad nd 'm p ssure m ed haas made me develop POTS...

ii wish food wusn't scaary....

upped m intake 4 2day but nowe it feels useless cuz 'm only 68cals ovr nd i barely feel hungry 😭

fuck i want to recover but i feel stuck again i hate this i hate this so fucking much please let me out of this hell

u know if these ppl stopped postin abt edtwt/bsky they wuldn't get r bullshit on their page?? also this attitude iz so disgustin "i trolled soo many mentally ill kids" where iz th brag??? 😭

am i hawt (u have 2 say yes /j)

tweakin cuz i'm tryna sing mcr nd my fiancé keeps singin w me ik 'm jst bein a bitch but FUUCK THIS IS MY MUSIC!!!

i totally forgot my brother follows me on my old edtwt acc turned normal acc nd my ass almost posted sum disordered bs b4 i saw him in my notifs 😭

how do u guys drink energy drinks on ann empty stomach. nd NOT TWEAK. i jst had a tsp of matcha nd i'm goin bonkers

I LOVE MY MATCHA SO MUCH!!! (don't mind the cat)

slowly finding it easier and easier to fight off the urges to recover. is that a weird reason to feel validation over?

ALMOST caved nd had pizza cause my FIL ordered sum BUUT... I STUCK THRUU!!! still overate 2 curb th cravins but i had less than 1k calories c:

u guys shuld try teething toys 2 curb food cravings works like gum 2 me (i also pet+ageregress lol)

I WANT HARD DRUGS

da kityy babyyy

22 MINUTES LET'S GOOO!!!

fiancé has wii fit and i'm using it to get myself to actually exercise daily. XP i only do like 8 minutes/day atm but i'm slowly working myself up!! and i'm actually about to do more than those 8 minutes now. :3

i can be at my ugw in 3 months if i just lock tf in

brekfaast :3

oughh should i get high..... the dxm is calling my name

the masculine urge to beat a sexual predator to death in public

does an eating disorder make pots symptoms worse /genq i genuinely think i have had itfor most my life because of my consistent heart palpitations and faintness (?) when standing too fast. i overexert myself and my chest pains have been getting worse and worse. i want to recover but i don't know how

i don't want to be here anymore

had an argument w my fiancé b usually things get diffused because it's just me misunderstanding, but i know i 100% did NOT say what he's telling me i said n he won't talk it out because according to him he ALSO knows 100% that that's WHAT I SAID! like mfer just admit you're wrong for once??? (1/5)

startin 2 liek cottage cheese texture :33 (srry 4 bad photo had 2 take quick)

OK SURPRISED THAT I MAINTAINED AFTER YESTERDAY.. but ohh i feel awesome.

i "binged" (ate @ maintinence) nd holy shit i hav ENERGY???

partner told me i'm handling my own system wrong, as if i haven't seen everything we've been through and know how to protect us. i'm genuinely annoyed because our two systems work completely differently from each other, so being told i'm handling it wrong is actually a bit insulting