Siiiiigh.

I'm walking the same path I did that last time I tried to kill myself. Don't worry, I'm depressed as shit but there's no intent to finish it this time that I can sense. I'm just hoping I'll find answers on the sidewalk. Something kept me here before. Why?

I've had this little gal working with me for the last hour. Screw pirates and their pirates. It's all about a Blue Collar Tech and his bee.

There has to be a better wa-- Nah, dude's onto something.

Great video is great.

Joe Rogan is the new Marshall Applewhite. Fight me IRL you won't.

Daaamn. Marc Maron showing up with the steel chair outta nowhere.

twitch.tv/haus_of_dreams Episode 1 of a new show.

I want them to bring back Celebrity Deathmatch for one episode so that Frank the Bunny can murder the hell outta Labubu in glorious stop-motion clay. The episode writes itself. It's a handicap match with multiple Labubus nearly winning before a plane engine drops on all of them.

Just walked past this at the grocery store. Muwahaha. Yes. Yeeeeessss. It has begun! Let the spooky season consume all!

It's so foggy that I saw at least three Pyramid Heads on my way to work this morning.

I have a voice inside my head that sounds like me but isn't. It's the voice of my bipolar disease and it takes a ton of energy (and medication) to fight. For the last few months it's been winning and despite KNOWING what's going on, I can't take my own mind back. It sucks being this way. I suck.

I saw my first Labubu in the wild at GenCon and mistook it for Frank the Bunny before being aggressively corrected by the 12-year-old who had it dangling from their backpack.

Nerfed on in the game, never in our hearts. #PurpleSunWontYouCome

Indianapolis, I am in you.

Saw @danhausen.bsky.social wrestle for a local indie promotion today and it was glorious. He could take his talent anywhere but still has the humility to give to the community. That's how you know he's a real one. #VeryNiceVeryEvil

This week has been cursed so I'm going to do what any grown ass man would do after a hellish week... I'm going to blast NIN, drink a couple of Coronas, and make miso rubbed salmon over sushi rice with a dragon fruit garnish and a bar of various quick pickled vegetable toppings for my family.

It's been a week. On Monday, I revised my resume. The rest of the week has been spent updating my writer's portfolio. Each day, I've torn my creative self open and placed my heart—my talent—under a microscope, hoping to discover those 3, 4, or even 30 pieces that will resonate with a recruiter.

One good thing has come of Twitch telling me to delete over a decade's worth of content (900+ hours in VODs)... It finally gave me the motivation I needed to make a Moonbeam account. I'm live on there now playing RE6. You should stop in and give me a follow. www.moonbeam.stream/user/Mephisto

One good thing has come of Twitch telling me to delete over a decade's worth of content (900+ hours in VODs)... It finally gave me the motivation I needed to make a moonbeam account. I'm live on there now playing RE6. You should stop in and give me a follow. www.moonbeam.stream/user/Mephisto

Twitch is making me delete over a decade's worth of content. I'm often brutally self-critical but this retrospective lens is nice. I keep thinking, "this dude's content is great" before remembering it's my own channel. Who knew deleting 900+ hours of VODs could be so curative?

Gay Warhammer art? Go on...

Live with RE6. Jake's story. Then it's time for the REAL main characters - Leon and Ada! I've been saving them for last. www.twitch.tv/mr_mephisto

My son plays Minecraft. I don't. Every time he makes a chicken jockey joke all I hear is "chicken chaser" in a cockney accent ala Fable. It's yet one more reminder that I'm simply a different generation of gamer.

Live with RE6 as this Resident Evil Marathon moves on. www.twitch.tv/mr_mephisto

Last Day of streaming Resident Evil 5 (probably) then it's onto RE6 for a few hours before this evening's Vampire the Masquerade session where I'll try to kill the coterie's Tremere with alternate reality versions of himself! I love Thursdays. www.twitch.tv/mr_mephisto

It's almost time for complete global saturation as I near the end of the RE5 portion of this Halfway to Halloween marathon. RE6 up next. Or more RE4 Remake... I already miss it. www.twitch.tv/mr_mephisto

Streaming the Resident Evil I'm CONTRACTUALLY obligated to play. I was going to skip RE5 and go straight to 6 but Chat Gang paid me to suffer. The good news is I'm suffering for your live entertainment! www.twitch.tv/mr_mephisto

Just when I didn't think I could like Pedro Pascal any more than I already do he goes and broadcasts such objective, scientific truth.

So I hear the new Bleach fighter is garbage but my son REALLY wants it. I feel like this is a life lesson moment. "Son, sit down. I need to prepare you. Most of the time tie-in games are trash and there's nothing you can do about it except play more Guilty Gear."

From the bird website. My HIGHLY scientific response in the reply.

I finally watched X-men '97. It was a Perfect Show™. Each episode progressively increased the psychic damage inflicted and it hurt so good. Hurt me more, Snake. I need another season.

Really bad brain day today and I don't know how to escape it.

Probably my final stream of RE4 for this month's marathon before switching to RE5. Gonna play Ada Wong's DLC one more time on a NG+ run. www.twitch.tv/mr_mephisto

This isn't even my final form

We're live with Endless Elegy S2E18 "Keepsake." There will be violence tonight. Come see why we deserve a CRIT Award Nomination.

The stream is live! Just when I thought I couldn't have any more of a blast playing RE4 I unlocked the infinite rocket launcher. www.twitch.tv/mr_mephisto

Had internet issues all day today so my attempts to stream in the afternoon didn't pan out. It seems to be fine now though so it's time for more Resident Evil and Rants. www.twitch.tv/mr_mephisto

A clip of me teaching a Regenerador in Resident Evil 4 Remake that the "S" in Leon S Kennedy stands for "Stabby." The OG RE4 is a Perfect Game™ and an all-time favorite. The remake has done the impossible and improved on perfection. www.twitch.tv/mr_mephisto/...

Putting on a pot o' coffee then jumping back into RE4 Remake. I am loving this game. I almost don't want it to end... 'cause then I have to play RE5. www.twitch.tv/mr_mephisto

RE4 Remake time! www.twitch.tv/mr_mephisto

RE4 Remake time? RE4 Remake time! www.twitch.tv/mr_mephisto

Updating my Graphics Drivers. Wish me luck. Then it's time to stream more RE4 Remake!

"My life is a cup of sugar I've borrowed before time began and forgot to return."

That's just math.

"I can't wait to stream the Resident Evil 4 remake after I take my daughter to the dentist and pick up my prescriptions." That's a real and actual thought I just had. It somehow perfectly encapsulates my life as an aging nerd.

Beat RE2 on Friday and started RE3 yesterday. Bet I can beat it today! www.twitch.tv/mr_mephisto

My stream of RE2 (remake) is still going strong. I think I'll be able to beat Leon's campaign tonight. Then it's either Claire or RE3. Still have time to decide. www.twitch.tv/mr_mephisto

8 Days Until My Birthday! That means this mini-spooky game marathon has to kick it up a notch. It's Resident Evil 2 (2019) time! www.twitch.tv/mr_mephisto