People saying "I want to hear both sides" no. you want to support your friends in fucking over everyone who's actually ever given any time or effort to them and their company. When ex staff, crew and volunteers have receipts of being fucked over. But sure, you go believe your friends bs lies.

Time to start packing for the short trip away. I'm not already panicking (I kinda am 😅) especially as Siri needed some last minute vet visits this weekend and has some antibiotics and pain relief for the rest of the week.

Apparently my body didn't want to give up my blood today. So danged painful took 4 attempts for like a vial worth between two vials 🫠 may not have even been enough. 🥺

Starting to get both excited and nervous for DinoCon. Can't believe how close it is. Sorting out medical stuff just now. At the vampire department today 😂, and have ordered my meds early to be sorted with plenty of time hopefully.

I haven't exactly been able or willing to do much lately as my body keeps throwing up issues, mostly pain. Yey not. But today I pushed through for a bit and tried making this base, no idea wtf it is or why but hey it exists 😂

Muscle spasms within the tmj hurt like a bitch. Prolonged 24hr+...oh holy fuck this is not what I wanted from the week..nothing is helping so far. Trying to make it to 8am to call GP surgery with the desperate plea for help. Fuck whatever is causing this.

Got up for breakfast and meds and called pharmacy expecting to be told ready for pick up. To be told "yes we have it, it'll be ready after 5 tonight". Me looking at the bed, followed by crawling in saying to myself "don't mind if I do, let me scooch right in there" 😂 happy days 😴

As long as I don't do anything other than lay down, or lay reclined on the couch I'm fine I don't need pain relief. As soon as I sit up for any length of time, oh holy fuck. Should I take low doses through the day to reduce this, maybe, am I going to, unlikely. 😅

Tramadol normally will help me sleep and manage the pain a little. Over night not so much. Was taking it every 6hours with paracetamol. Requested if I could double to dosage from GP. Yup max dose is 2 tablets every 4hours. Taken the first double dose. Now I feel calmer if nothing else.

Having a good few days since upping to 300mg of Carbamazapine. I've been able to do more things in the past 3days than what I've been severely struggling with for the past 6months. Not a cure but the difference managed pain has on my life, is immense.

I may have spent most of the last 6months in agonising pain. But we've finally found a medication that has started to make a difference on reducing said pain, and allowing me to get full night sleeps again! Merry pain managed new year to me (hopefully) 😂

It's a bitty frosty out there today. Winter has arrived in Scotland, at least for today.

Right who is shoving cotton wool under my skin when I'm sleeping. Cause damn can you not. That doesn't mean sneaking more in while I'm not paying attention. MS I'm looking at you. 🧐

Our Xmas tree is up, and I even got a picture of the d20 @qualtector.bsky.social printed for last year 😆 why yes I did use his phone also. It has a better camera so why wouldn't I 😂

I put the tree up yesterday. Just the tree took me an hour. Tonight qual and I then added the lights, which involved me mostly sweating beyond belief. I'm now just sitting on the couch with a neck fan on, watching qual trying to figure out the tinsel situation.

It's that time of year where there's stuff to do but the heated blanket even when switched off, is so nice and cosy I don't want to move 😂

Worked my ass off for 3days with a lot of help from the volunteers at the DCA. But I finished up on Thursday with 3 final prints. They're going to be on display with the other art works created at these classes, next weekend. And then hopefully I'll get them home to frame and display at home.

Day 1 is done. We all have our first etchings done. It's hard to see but it is there.

Aquatint etching course started today (it's 3days). So far I'm 2/3 of the way through etching the metal plate. It's a messy sketch but yknow what the fact I'm doing it at all is what matters. :)

Serenity is having a deep snooze on the bed tonight. So I guess I'll be sleeping on a diagonal 😆

Day one of 4 where I've got something to do social wise. I'm already struggling..I've just finished doing my weekly med boxes, I need a shower now and I have ran out of steam, I also do not want the pain it's going to ramp up. But on a good note I got compliments on my pumpkin :)

Gotta love when two electric wheelchair users trying to get on the last bus home tonight. Chose to be the one left behind, because tbh I felt like giving what for to some taxi companies. Also I have almost an entirely full battery so could get home in a pinch. Luckily a company found a taxi.

Had a lovely time away in Berlin, sadly got sick while there. My wee heart has decided palpitations are its favourite past time since. So now I'm gonna have to call my GP to see wtf to do with it if anything, and if I'm safe to have my vaccines on Friday or not. Such fun.

Excuse me body wtf was with the 4am wake up call of agonising pain. And why won't you take them medications I've put in and yknow use it on said pain...lying on the bed with a heat pack rammed into my mid back is not how I want to spend my day. But I guess that's where we're at.

Requested 5 medications from the GP, in preparation for going on holiday, as well as to cover me while I wait to see said GP on the 30th. They've processed 4 out of 5 medications which ain't bad going. But the last med I dared to order over 10days early. 😅 Almost like I'm going away or something.

You've heard of a three day weekend. But have you heard of a three day migraine/headache. Cause now you have and I can say they fucking suck balls.

Nothing like being unable to move, so your husband spoon feeds you mash potatoes while you both laugh and he's trying not to cough his lungs out. What a world we live in. not how I'd planned to spend life but atleast we can laugh

Two handles or none. No in-between 😂 Genuinely don't think I can go back to one handled cups. This is just so much more stable for me.

We made the bus everyone's safe from us to sleep another night 😂

Taking bets on if we catch our train and then bus home at fuck o'clock tonight. In the meantime time were gonna enjoy concert time. @camashred.bsky.social @nightpaws.furry.energy be ready for invaders at fuck o'clock if we fail 😂 /jk

Went to a&e/minor injuries this morning. Back x-ray came back clear. So I've at least not done bone damage. The tramadol the gp gave me is helping without major blerg vibes which is nice. But was told will need long term pain relief sorted out by my neuro/GP.Lucky i have appointment for neuro on Mon

Last night my knees said fuck off were not holding you up and I dropped like a sack of spuds onto them. Naturally my pelvis is now on fucking agony and I'm basically unable to do anything but lay here high on pain meds. Thank fuck I have Qual (husband). I'd be fucked without him.

Disability costs money, broke a bit of my wheelchair. Technically my fault, I fell out the wheelchair. The part costs £36 ish give or take a few pence. The company wants to charge me £80 call out fee + £25 service charge. So that makes this part, which is one knee level break handle. Cost £141!

Holter monitor -24hr ECG came back normal. But I've to use beta blockers to treat symptoms. I am confused. The symptoms being heart palpitations and a racing heart...(Like 150+ beats per minute from doing anything including just sitting up). That's not my normal, I want to fix it not just manage it.

I'm fucking exhausted with medical stuff.

Phlebotomy at local hospital don't have an appointment for over two weeks...I need urgent bloods so have to somehow get to Dundee for bloods cause apparently they have a drop in clinic. Wtaf is this life.

Working on this bad boi. Struggling with what my next steps are though. Bright contrasts/alcohol inks are required me thinks.

Spent the past two Sunday evenings making this bad boi! I've been so nervous all week that it wouldn't turn out. But the result is pretty spot on to my original idea of ocean/waves.

Random woman squashing past me in my electric wheelchair, towards the bus door, she leans over and says "sorry I'm jumping in front of you" and continues onto the bus. Wtf? Why even say anything.

I'm fucking exhausted... Fatigue is a bitch and it's annoying me. I want so much to do some painting or building of a miniature. But I know it'd take more energy than I have to set up to do those.

How in the fuck are you supposed to actually get a good sleep itg the heart monitor on? Especially when you gotta write down when you feel something😅 Managed a few hours then had to take a trip to the living room to note down stuff. My heart is a bitch. I mean keep pumping but maybe not so fast?

Hooked up to the portable heart monitor for the day. Let's hopefully get to the bottom of this heart rate bs!

Coming off propanolol for a heart rhythm test next week. My wee heart doesn't know if it's coming or going, final dose was this morning. heart goes x2 speed when I do anything that isn't sitting at rest. Let's see how fast I can catch it going over the next few days 😅

Welp finally saw a GP today. Seems I have most of the boxes ticked for Post Concussion syndrome. Fml. Let's see how long all these issues last more than my baseline issues. The headaches are the worst...

With my Left arm has checked out. everything is taking a little bit more effort. Qual isn't letting me take the easy way out. Instead helping me be independent despite it. Helps boost mood and confidence in still being able to do things even if I need to adapt or a bit of help

Woke up with a basically useless left arm today. Lucky me my legs are working enough I can scoot round the house in my wheelchair arms free 😂 could I move to the electric wheelchair yes. Will I. Probably not. 😅

Some fucker gave me a concussion. Some fucker = the floor. I'm meant to reduce screen time and rest. Boo. On a good note I managed a shower though.

Had a phone call this afternoon from the receptionist. I've to have a holter monitor/24 portable ECG done. I've to be on the look out for a letter to go and get it. They're not fucking around, which is nice but also slightly worrying at the same time.