the humming and choir background vocals in mitski's bug like an angel will never not be therapeutic

just found out oomf accidentally chose sea mail instead of air mail so that explains it

i also need a croissant and coffee soon from a cafe that is one bus ride and one train ride away. it's so hard to find plain croissants i like here

i want a wardrobe update

my bank account today...

learning how to do neck stretches. i can hear my neck crack out here 😭😭😭😭

zara larsson has gotten to me open.spotify.com/track/2yASo8...

also incorporating light exercise into my life daily. sometimes you reach a point where you do things willingly (in your thirties)

drinking warm/hot water almost exclusively these days is really changing my life

declined a freelance project bc this client had two weeks to seal the deal but only rushed to send me a contract on their deadline day 🙄 i feel rly powerful for saying no btw

Fucker Bowl

been on tcm side of tiktok to try to cure my cold and battle a fever

you know what if i've permanently ruined a good relationship this time, i would like a definitive ending. unforch i know not many people deserve that, and maybe i am one of those people

i honestly think it takes a million months for me to be able to receive a postcard/letter. sliiiightly concerned (unless oomf didn't end up sending me anything which can happen!!!)

it is undeniably uncomfortable to see how entitled some people (non-poc) are to their own pain

i didn't buy any more blush or liptints and instead bought two (2) makeup items i didn't previously have. good job me

sometimes i think that talk therapy should stop soon bc i feel like i can handle myself. and then i get reminded of reasons why i am sad on a crushing random morning and be like 'oh thank god i have an appt next week'

back at the area i used to go to uni to. nothing as weird as walking past the exact starbucks you were forced to sober up in after happy hours

attempting to read qiu miaojin's notes of a crocodile the second time round bc i fell off the first time and i feel like i'm reading it in a new light. sometimes u rly just need to give up the first time and try again years later

riding past lots of padi fields during the sunset really did make me feel okay again for a bit. the world is amazing

please, please, please let me get what i want by the smiths came on in this café......STOP THIS.

FINISHED THE IDIOT. i am so sad it's ended. i wrote my longest review app.thestorygraph.com/reviews/d548...

five days of being in [redacted] city and it's driving me crazy and SO sullen. i haven't been alone for more than an hour here. i just have to hold out until tomorrow

falling into an unhealthy dynamic and realizing it much much later when you finally wake tf up is really embarrassing in a way post-mortem. like how did i let that happen etc. what happened to my independence

need to reach page 300 of the idiot (elif batuman) by tonight before the flight tomorrow bc i'm somehow afraid that if i stop for five days i'll fall off reading altogether

received a self-help book on managing clinical mental illness from my mother, who bought it specifically for me. i was speechless but she isn't wrong to do so.... it was thoughtful, in fact.

h*dson williams being more fascinating to me than the character he plays. he is annoying a bit but i think that adds the extra point to being fascinating... someone take him apart please.

people wearing their sweaters and jackets at the airport and here i am in a tank top. it's a tropical country even with aircon

felt myself getting sick with an oncoming hot cold and chose to cancel plans and stay home.... the sense of premature accomplishment after making a responsible decision is unreal

amazing news: i learned how to give a pill to my cat. without needing assistance!!!! 🥹🥹🥹

learned that the first vet might have wrongly diagnosed his condition and it could just simply be GI problems. this new vet i went to REALLY listened to what was going on, i know in my heart i can trust her

my cat diagnosed with ibd (basically having really sensitive gut issues) had a flareup and is not eating. have to wait until tmrw to take him to the vet and it might be a stressful first week of 2026

it is so scary how 'mainstream' fandom has become that i fear locking fics on ao3 isn't enough to keep from getting unwanted attention. we all need to make use of dreamwidth again religiously.

ooooouuu when the coffee makes you go to the bathroom.. i cannot be going through this while still feeling very tired

two years of being robbed of any agency sure does have its consequences

this reminds me of a friend who thought he was middle class so he donated his car to a charity that helps poor people and a month later, he saw his car at his neighbor's house

i have decided not to be present when the handymen come into the house and my BEDROOM to assemble my wardrobe tomorrow morning

this is my one Flyers meme. I made it over a year ago and it’s still relevant about two times a week.

Why is the writing progression always like: 0-30% done: wow this is terrible I’ve fallen off 30-80% done: I am a creature of perfect design. My words glow and I cannot be killed 80-100% done: nvm it sucks again (real this time)

life is alright

b&bw's strawberry pound cake body mist smells delicious

guess who is rewatching (skimming) dream academy

i would like to thank my mother for actively reminding me that there is no man in the world i should listen to <3

manifesting that i can get another part-time job or client before the year ends. PLEASE

magnesium glycinate supplements would probably do me some good honestly but the supplement brand pushing their ads a little too hard is just selling it at a ridiculous price. let's calm down here ✋

tossing and turning trying to go back to sleep at 4 am. i check the humidity level and it's at 88% tonight 🙄

bad day today. i need to block off the bad vibes i feel

i think it's a good time to be nmixx enjoyer

wide awake at 5am and reading fic.