attempting to read qiu miaojin's notes of a crocodile the second time round bc i fell off the first time and i feel like i'm reading it in a new light. sometimes u rly just need to give up the first time and try again years later

riding past lots of padi fields during the sunset really did make me feel okay again for a bit. the world is amazing

please, please, please let me get what i want by the smiths came on in this café......STOP THIS.

FINISHED THE IDIOT. i am so sad it's ended. i wrote my longest review app.thestorygraph.com/reviews/d548...

five days of being in [redacted] city and it's driving me crazy and SO sullen. i haven't been alone for more than an hour here. i just have to hold out until tomorrow

falling into an unhealthy dynamic and realizing it much much later when you finally wake tf up is really embarrassing in a way post-mortem. like how did i let that happen etc. what happened to my independence

need to reach page 300 of the idiot (elif batuman) by tonight before the flight tomorrow bc i'm somehow afraid that if i stop for five days i'll fall off reading altogether

received a self-help book on managing clinical mental illness from my mother, who bought it specifically for me. i was speechless but she isn't wrong to do so.... it was thoughtful, in fact.

h*dson williams being more fascinating to me than the character he plays. he is annoying a bit but i think that adds the extra point to being fascinating... someone take him apart please.

people wearing their sweaters and jackets at the airport and here i am in a tank top. it's a tropical country even with aircon

felt myself getting sick with an oncoming hot cold and chose to cancel plans and stay home.... the sense of premature accomplishment after making a responsible decision is unreal

amazing news: i learned how to give a pill to my cat. without needing assistance!!!! 🥹🥹🥹

learned that the first vet might have wrongly diagnosed his condition and it could just simply be GI problems. this new vet i went to REALLY listened to what was going on, i know in my heart i can trust her

my cat diagnosed with ibd (basically having really sensitive gut issues) had a flareup and is not eating. have to wait until tmrw to take him to the vet and it might be a stressful first week of 2026

it is so scary how 'mainstream' fandom has become that i fear locking fics on ao3 isn't enough to keep from getting unwanted attention. we all need to make use of dreamwidth again religiously.

ooooouuu when the coffee makes you go to the bathroom.. i cannot be going through this while still feeling very tired

two years of being robbed of any agency sure does have its consequences

this reminds me of a friend who thought he was middle class so he donated his car to a charity that helps poor people and a month later, he saw his car at his neighbor's house

i have decided not to be present when the handymen come into the house and my BEDROOM to assemble my wardrobe tomorrow morning

this is my one Flyers meme. I made it over a year ago and it’s still relevant about two times a week.

Why is the writing progression always like: 0-30% done: wow this is terrible I’ve fallen off 30-80% done: I am a creature of perfect design. My words glow and I cannot be killed 80-100% done: nvm it sucks again (real this time)

life is alright

b&bw's strawberry pound cake body mist smells delicious

guess who is rewatching (skimming) dream academy

i would like to thank my mother for actively reminding me that there is no man in the world i should listen to <3

manifesting that i can get another part-time job or client before the year ends. PLEASE

magnesium glycinate supplements would probably do me some good honestly but the supplement brand pushing their ads a little too hard is just selling it at a ridiculous price. let's calm down here ✋

tossing and turning trying to go back to sleep at 4 am. i check the humidity level and it's at 88% tonight 🙄

bad day today. i need to block off the bad vibes i feel

i think it's a good time to be nmixx enjoyer

wide awake at 5am and reading fic.

moving houses at the end of the month 😃😃😃😃 it's time to declutter...

my cat has one stressful event in a day and he then takes one full business day to recover from it

i dreamt about katseye. two of straight line left me to get eaten alive in a vampire attack. it was terrifying.

i desperately just need one good night of sleep

⚠️ In the last two years, the United States has supplied $21.7 billion in military aid to Israel. $21.7 BILLION. responsiblestatecraft.org/us-aid-israe...

#40: you're hungry, but i'm starving → Aespa, Kim Minjeong | Winter/Yu Jimin | Karina, Rated Not Rated, 2.9k words (for fractalkiss) archiveofourown.org/works/70512426

!!! HELLO. i still can't believe i received a remix.. of my beloved jennifer's body au for winrina

this was my ficmix hehe

Here's what I think of the UK recognizing palestine www.worldpoliticsreview.com/palestine-st...

BREAKING: Israel has ordered shut the Allenby Crossing, the only gateway for three million Palestinians in the West Bank to the outside world, “until further notice,” in what appears to be a response to the wave of recognition of Palestine by UN member states including key European allies.

nervous for tomorrow.

getting into hockey as a casual interest seems less overwhelming now when only two teams are of interest here and a friend can vouch that the lb tag is drama-free

ok i did not write about grief, my feelings r tooooo complex right now 🙄

beautiful girl next to me on the train today was dozing off. i hope someone, preferably a woman, compliments her on her day out (i alighted too quickly)

finally booked an appointment with a psychologist again after four years

wow it's the perfect time to write about grief

every morning that i'm hungry and don't know what to eat i mourn the little cafe with good bagels that sadie and i went to every morning when i was in korea

do you think if i watched more documentaries on jayson tatum and the celtics i would finally start following their games