haven't looked at my stats on ao3 for a while because it caused me grief to think about writing, but I was happy to see quite the catch has 2k kudos. that's amazing. also I wanna answer comments soon

https://archiveofourown.org/works/72344151/chapters/188365781 last week i thought about giving up on writing but then i didn’t turning this into a multichapter because it'll probably be long #tgcf #HuaLian

y'all i wrote 1500 words this morning, that's more than i've written in over a month

[nsfw, hualian] Xie Lian wearing a silver belly chain with plenty of charms and bells on it so he jingles with Hua Cheng's every thrust.

alright i'm starting again with this wip. but at least i'm writing?

no thoughts i just want hualian to smooch mwah mwah

went to the tattoo shop today to discuss my hualian backpiece

i really do think watching the first episode of dandadan literally right after finishing frieren was a mistake. my brain could not handle that shift at. all.

[tgcf fandom gripe] if i got a dollar for every time i see someone flippantly call hc a stalker... i would still be fucking annoyed but at least i'd have money

https://archiveofourown.org/works/70525616 i am still around and i wrote something #tgcf #HuaLian

having a bad chronic pain night. so obviously my mind goes to hualian

[depression] to be honest. i feel like all i'm really good at is lose everything. over and over again. i feel like a quietly destructive force.

not frieren making me cry. again.

if anyone is waiting for me to update or post a fic... i'm still here, but apparently starting with a new career really costs a lot of energy (who knew) and i've been experiencing some creative block as a result. i think it's normal. things will settle down eventually. i'm still here, i still […]

[menstrual cycle] i am definitely pms'ing hard.

[fandom wank] "i don't understand how people can see past all the shit xl did" are you sure you understand the point and message of tgcf. are you absolutely sure.

[writer being dramatic] i feel like i'll never be able to write again

Xie Lian calling Hua Cheng on the phone but he’s naked and doesn’t realized he pressed video call 😔 #hualian

[genderbend, nsfw, hualesbians] xie lian clipping a chain between san niangs nipple piercings and tugging her forward with it send post

Damen's left dimple. When he smiles

auguste getting cuteness aggression towards laurent but like. way into both their adulthood. laurent's like 25 and auguste still has to squish his cheeks and give him noogies

[author's half-joking self reflection] someone pointed out (not in a bad way) that my smut has been very focused on 'play' lately and that has got me thinking. is it too apparent that i don't take sex very seriously

it would be funny to do a paid in blood extra fic one day with some specific parts from hc's pov

ok i finally remembered to make paid in blood part of the paid in blood series lmao

[palace of fangs spoiler] why put quickshot hc in the fic once if you can do it twice

over 12k of slightly silly vampire kink club outing, followed by experimentation between paid in blood hualian https://archiveofourown.org/works/69050326 #tgcf #HuaLian

Please imagine Xie Lian falling asleep in the garden in the late afternoon and only barely waking when Hua Cheng picks him up and carries him in to their bed. The sleepy noises, hiding his face from the light by turning deeper into Hua Cheng's chest, catching Hua Cheng's hand and pulling it […]

i'm experiencing tag related anxiety again hhhh

stoatlian curled up in a little circle sleeping on leant back hua chengs chest in the gamblers den every so often hc tips his head down and presses a lil kiss to xls head when he kicks a leggy out while dreaming

XL doesn't drink but HC does frequently, especially after a shit day at work, and XL definitely takes that opportunity to let HC fall asleep on him whenever he can

“Only after having met you did I discover that it’s such a simple thing to be happy.” ▫️ #xielian #tgcf #hualian

Hua Cheng wakes up to cold bedding next to him and a thumping sound down the hall. He investigates and finds Xie Lian running on the treadmill at 4 am because he tried a sip of energy drink and couldn't settle down before bed. Knowing another way to tire him out, #hualianfuckaboutit

Someone stop me (or add your own doodles, that would be cool too)

[nsfw, Xie Lian's canon creampie kink, implied exhibitionism] Hua Cheng makes a bunch of clones and sends them out to hide around the city. Xie Lian's job is to find them all. He gets a reward for each one 😇 One of them, who he's desperate to find, even has a butt plug to help him keep all his […]

[work stress] it's so fucked that the prospect of seeing my boss again after three weeks is sending me into an anxiety spiral

paid in blood extra coming out this monday

[anxiety] the idea that many people are mad at me is too much for me

art has not been arting recently, so i was trying to focus more on writing, but here's a lil wee san lang sketch :3 #tgcf #huacheng #sanlang

i dont have any words for what i just made tbh #.debdoot #mothualian

other brief brainworm of about the cave of 10,000 gods but they were all already sentient and moving even before the novel extra but all they did when coming to life was hold hua cheng gently, like xie lian did with hong-er, while he was down there preparing for the kiln all alone

yay palace of fangs is officially 10k words

i won't be surprised if this paid in blood extra gets to 10k words

is the muzzle actually more of an endurance test for hc or for fairylian who can't get his vampire kissies?

[intrusive thoughts] am i even a decent writer anymore

hhhhhh i wanna write heart of the sea and palace of fangs at the same time!!!!!!!!!

oop 🙈🙈🙈 archiveofourown.org/works/68468291 6️⃣9️⃣ 🔞 pwp! ♥️ post-canon #hualian 📖 3,7k words

[vent] i feel like i ruin everything

somethin somethin midcanon au where hua cheng and xie lian are just enjoying time together at puqi shrine and the god briefly loses his voice to illness (or his throats very sore and its noticeable) and realizes just how much he's grown accustomed to talking to (and being listened to by) hua cheng

i will always side with sex workers and smut creators and you should too. kill the puritanical pearl-clutching brainworm raising a stink about respectability and optics. it is a backdoor fascists will use to sneak their way into your sympathies. porn is good, sex is normal, kink is human. grow up.