i was feeling a bit better but now i'm just crashing out i feel like i can feel the depression settle in like why am i so suicidal

hungry asf rn i could eat a british man

spent my last € on weed before going on a break and i do not regret it the combo of hash mixed with weed be way too good

how could i even speak about some old men & ladies that i don't even know and never saw genuinely, they lied straight up so now i'm probably gonna get into troubles 🤡👍🏻

long story short for today : at the birthday's party my mom was talking about her job (she's a nurse in a retirement house) and said that some old man and old lady are being mistreated (the boss don't care, mom and the others working there keep complaining about three workers that acts rough, they

no because i might end up doing one but the french accent man ew 💔💔💔💔

No fucking way can we go live on here ?? I saw tweets about it

I am chopped asf damn who letting me walk around like that

i keep binging because of how stressed i am this is just to comfort me like stop omg i'm trying to get back in track

i want to fucking kill myself why can't i just get over it, why do i have to think about my rape, i'm just spiralling everything was my fault i just want to end it all

i feel sad tho sometimes because no one ever took my rape seriously, when i told my mom she was just so casual about it meanwhile my whole world just crashed in seconds

i was friend with my ex girlfriend from highschool and two years ago we almost dated again but we didn't because i got r*ped by a 47 years old man while i was fully out of it because of heroin then she went on twt saying i cheated on her mf can we be deadass 😭 and a little bit before that, she let

I LOVE LIFE ! I LOVE WAKING UP WITH A PIT IN MY STOMACH !🤣 I LOVE BEING MISERABLE EVERYDAY 🤣🤣🤣🤣 I LOVE FEELING LIKE A GHOST 🤣🤣🤣 I LOVE FEELING OUT OF PLACE WITH EVERYONE AND EVERYWHERE I GO 🤣🤣 THANKS YOU FOR THIS LIFE 🙏🏻🤣

it's noon i've been running since 7 in the morning but i'm done now so i smoked a j and now i'm fried in bed watching trailer park boys animated, this is peak life

7g of hash oh i'm about to be sn00p dog this week

everything they did to me was just deserved for me at this point, the humiliation, the neglect, the bruises, just everything. how can i let my abusers into my life and complain about them, this is just fucking audacity at this point, i was the problem and always will be that's just it

went to the birthday, it was great and my mom was here so i felt safe enough to not go insane about having my abusers sitting right in front of me lmao, i feel so awful though because even though my dad did let the abuse happen and was part in it, i just can't let him go because he's the only thing

best friend bought me 2g of hash for the weekend because i was in crisis and needed a relief, love her so grateful for her

dyed my hair dark red who wanna see

i feel like a ghost that wants to be seen

Please please please let me get what I want 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 A fuck ass gun

This month taking me out I can't I feel so lonely

On my life someone put a gun right into my mouth and pull the trigger I cant do this anymore

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today is so boring but i went on a walk this morning n it was really pretty

i've been working out like crazy and so starved today i allowed myself to eat a meal for lunch now i feel fucking gross

i hate having so many mental & physical issues i just feel like i'm wasting my youth, my dreams, everything. can't even work, i'm broke as hell, living back at my mom's place, i asked for disability and i'm still on waiting list it's been months

sometimes i highkey want to dm my moots because y'all cool as fuck but i would feel like a weirdo hitting people up or smth lmao

worked out for one hour i'm exhausted on god i better be 67kg by next week, i need to get out of that overweight bmi fuck ass range (let me be delusional)

I LOST MUAHAHAHAHA 76.5, still fat as hell but with the work out my body is starting to slowly get a bit toned, -4.5kg so far

weighing myself tomorrow and even tho i was good this week, yesterday i over-ate so i'm lowkey scared </3

only worked out 30 minutes today </3

i fucking hate it here, they dragged me to my brother's birthday, the one i never talk with because he's a zionist, racist, homophobe and i could keep going i hate it i just want to fucking leave

why my bladder not functionning

lost almost 4kg so far, was probably water weight retention but yeah

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i need someone to talk me through it (starvation)

I am starving on God I would give everything I have to eat a whole meal but I cant 💔

i'm losing weight oh i'm so locked in

if i ever relapse one day into heroin, i will write a note to not narcan me in case i OD, let me get my high 🤨

for the first time since i was 14, i enjoy being sober from hard drugs

vlada so beautiful

Fuck ass seroquel and no discipline I fucking gained so much weight I am disgusting I never want to go out again

drinking water with lemon and cucumber makes me feel like i'm like bella hadid or smth

i'm at my hw rn and it makes me want to €nd it all i feel like i can feel all the fat in my body it's driving me insane bruh

everytime i gain weight, an angel lose its wings

i can't stop crying this is awful i just want relief i just want to be gone i just can't do this anymore i can't i'm too weak i tried and tried and tried to get better but nothing works death is the only thing i have left now

i'll probably end it all by the end of the week it will be such a relief but i can't stop crying because the thought of my cat not seeing me anymore is so painful