Gender is a performance and mine is like the one where M.E.S played that Fall gig at Glastonbury 2015 with fully pissed pants

Yeah it's fun actually

Wow mad anxiety dream firing me awake Wild swimming in a cold pond with someone who hates me but I was forced to interact with the other week and also some angry strangers shouting at me in a shop, clearly anxiety about the public facing work I did last night Love being ambushed by my own brain.

Listened to a podcast with two well known trans people on it talking about the supreme court and it struck me that often the same people who seek to flatten and homogenise our community are also the same ones who think increasing our legibility to the systems that oppress us is the solution.

Literally the fun police tonight

Oh shit I'm gonna be getting vocal surgery one month today 😬😬😬 If anyone feels able you can contribute to my fundraiser to help me over the line paying for the procedure Please donate or share if you can 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 chuffed.org/project/131234

Need to keep remembering I did mandy on Thursday so I can accurately file all the ennui and dysphoria that's hitting me and disregard it for a few days

Listened to a podcast with two well known trans people on it talking about the supreme court and it struck me that often the same people who seek to flatten and homogenise our community are also the same ones who think increasing our legibility to the systems that oppress us is the solution.

'scuse me, you dropped your poppy

Marching around the fetish club screaming "WHERE'S YOUR FUCKING POPPY???!!"

So, well, now then. Doing MDMA and going to the noise/doom show was the CORRECT idea

Going out: YESSSSSSS Needing to once again select clothes to put on a body I fucking loathe and that disappoints me every time I see a photo of myself: BOOOOOOOOOO

Anyone know any good dyke bars in Manchester?

If you aren't seeing skeets from some of your fave people, they might have been labeled "Rude" by bsky mods. Idk what they are thinking, I don't need a mommy to tell me who to be buddies with. Anyway, go into Settings > moderation > bluesky moderation (advanced) and turn Rude off.

Turns out the amazing @superdonkeypiss.bsky.social and me are off to watch some fucking big doomy business in Manchester tomorrow night 🙏🏻🙏🏻🖤🖤🖤🙏🏻🙏🏻

Really really really want to go see Divide and Dissolve in Manchester but this stupid country makes a relatively short journey cost approx 1million quid and that's just transphobic tbh

So today I've had a nap, hung some washing out, played doomy riffs on my guitar and bought some incense sticks and a black balaclava on eBay. I think I wasted my money on the ADHD diagnosis tbh

GF has lent me this so good luck to anyone who needs anything from me today lol

A little electoralism as a treat, is it lxds?

God damn I'm like a latex mask and a cigarette away from being sexy Dale Gribble next halloween (I own an orange baseball cap)

A little electoralism as a treat, is it lxds?

Dear lord, I see what you have done for others, please lord, take my dick next

Girl who fell asleep on the sofa at 9pm and so is up doing laundry at 5:45am 😭😭

This is so incredible! Please share, I got the invoice from the surgeon this morning which is about to blow a huge crater in my dwindling finances 8th of December is coming fast and I need to be able to pay the surgeon, anaesthetist and the hospital fees before then 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

Ok girls, the sacrifice has been made, the dick harvest has begun

Guess I need to keep reminding myself that people matter more to me than I matter to people and that is probably always going to hurt quite a bit.

My friend is going home today and I'm gonna miss him so much 😖 Also "real life" has to assert itself for a week or two until more fun can happen and that is incredibly unfair. I don't want to make difficult choices

Awake. Fuck.

Went to Wet Withens stone circle today and given it was shot day it seemed only right to do my HRT in the circle.

Trough Day Blues

thanks to the incredible generosity of good people some years ago, I managed to crowdfund over £21k. there's a good chance I wouldn't be here if that hadn't happened so I'm duty bound to pay it back for the rest of my life. We're only £43 off the original target & I know it's payday for some people🙏

Assisting my friend at a tattoo show, in my home town. Literally the real-world version of those anxiety dreams when you're paralysed and everyone you don't like is there and you can't escape. Just an astonishing number of rubes, dickheads, nightmares and at least one person who I was best man for

Up early trying on outfits cos if I can make it out tonight I want to look fucking amazing 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

Confidence has deserted me, don't think I'll go out this weekend. Remarkable collapse considering how positive I felt last night. Living in a small town is shit I just want to hide in my house

So my toilet seat has slowly been turning purple, which Google informs me means I'm pregnant. My GF will be over the moon. (It's got bleach spray on it in this photo, not piss)

Drunk as hell, freehand with a biro, handpoke. Minninglow

Hangxiety begins

Drunk tattooing on friends is so much fun

Lit the stove in the shelter earlier and watched the moon pass across the sky. Drinking with one of the best ones tonight.

Waking up and reading an absolutely ridiculous authoritarian ML post on Instagram and deciding not to comment so I don't participate in those fucking word-police numbskull dweebs' evangelist crusade against meaningful real-world action

reposting this because i know some people get paid today. we're already at £1,115 since it launched, so thank you 🙏 mad.

Went to the retail park for some Gregg's spooky buns and some candle for the pumpkin carving, 3 and a half hours later we escape after a gridlock traffic nightmare that trapped us. Now I don't have time for pumpkin carving before the kids have to go to their grandparents. Thanks capitalism

And driving over all the old British men crying an entire lifetime's worth of tears as they look upon a red flower they have imbued with an emotional significance that they are otherwise culturally forbidden to express will really wreck your car's tyres after a mile or so

Imagine loving your community, and being loved so much by them, that in death they would carefully prepare your body, excarnate or cremate you, and inter your remains in a communal place, knowing they would one day join you. Imagine that love being visible, with the right eyes, 6000 years later.

Kinda might just spend the hundred quid on a gram of mandy, some slaggy underwear and a new dildo just to spite my folks tbh

Today I wore magical folklore pyjamas and participated in a women's rushcart procession for a film. It was fun and I felt cute, The End

just ran 20 miles in the british damp. it nearly sloughed my nipples clean off and i feel very sorry for myself so please give generously 🥺

Managed to shave a minute off my last 5k time, so that's nice, need to shave another few mins off but that's pretty unlikely at my age and probably not worth fixating on... 👀👀👀

My mum gave me a hundred quid towards my surgery, for various reasons and peculiarities of my parents' relationship I am 99% certain that she has snuck this money to avoid my dad finding out which is beautiful and terrible at the same time.

My safety and future happiness are in the electoral hands of people who go to the shops and forget what they went for then drive home and realise they left the front door unlocked and sit down and think, something isn't right, and then decide that people like me existing is the real problem