Feeling sad tonight, so I decided to stop working, put on new clothes, and see a horror movie. The only decision that remains is whether or not I’ll get popcorn.

I feel like I’m in the “just work really hard and don’t get fired” phase of my retail leadership career. It’s a phase that involves 12+ hour days and extra planning at night from home. I’m tired, but I also feel like my hard work is starting to matter, which is gratifying.

I am truly out of control when it comes to buying clothes. I consider myself a person with a lot of self-awareness, but this one stumps me. There is something at the heart of this obsession that I’m missing.

Kill List (2011) 🎥 Directed by Ben Wheatley Jay, a former soldier, turns into a hitman after leaving the military. However, things begin to take a bad turn where fear and paranoia take over Jay's life. #FilmSky

If you need me, I’ll be feasting while watching a Christmas movie with my friend Jeannie and her dog Pina. Honey garlic chicken with charred carrots and Mexican street corn from firebirds.

Getting ready to meet a friend for dinner, so I decided to post my #ootd. The sweater and slippers are from Victoria’s Secret, jeans are from Torrid, and necklace is “Wearable Art.” (I won’t be wearing slippers to dinner, however).

Quote post this with your own dramatic black and white selfie. (In my defense I’m not wearing makeup, I haven’t showered yet today, and I suck at not smiling in pictures. On the bright side, my lips are so chapped that they look thicker!)

My #LetterboxdFriday #Lastfourwatched. It is perhaps (?) a bit embarrassing that two of these date back to Halloween. I need to start watching movies more frequently again.

I couldn’t sleep last night, so I might as well go into work early. It’s PINK Friendsgiving at VS! I set all the promos last night and am genuinely excited to provide an amazing customer experience with my team. If I sound like a contrived LinkedIn post, rest assured the passion is real.

I’ve had little-to-no vraylar in my system this week. Let the loose-lipped, admittedly awkward but completely unapologetic oversharing begin. When I’m hypomanic my verbal filter is equivalent to that of a feisty senior citizen who stopped giving a fuck two decades ago.

Since my pharmacy has taken an exceedingly long time to fill my vraylar prescription, I slept not a minute last night and I have to be to work soon. My cramps are also relentless. The fact that I’m still somewhat excited for my day is truly a testament to how much I love my job.

This was definitely true for me.

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Just wrote the acknowledgements page for my dissertation and now feeling kind of weepy, sentimental, and grateful for the people in my life. I got deep.

Michael described Osgood Perkins’ new movie “Keeper” as “high-risk, high-reward.” This assessment seems about right to me.

Found out a day before my next injection that I need a new prior authorization for my zepbound—which likely won’t be ready by Thursday when I need to take it. I hate the thought of living with all that food noise again, so I might bite the bullet and put it on my credit card. Desperate times.

#NW BASKIN (2015) 📽 dir. Can Evrenol 'A squad of unsuspecting cops go through a trapdoor to Hell when they stumble upon a Black Mass in an abandoned building'

Wishing a very happy “Circulatory System Walking Through The Kitchen Day” to all who celebrate! 🖤

You know how people watch horror in October? I’ve decided I’m eating turkey dinners throughout November and comparing them from one restaurant to the next. Perkins’ holiday turkey dinner tastes a little “instant” but I love it no less for that. Solid 7.5/10 rating. Didn’t think to snap a photo.

#NW THESIS (1996) 📽 dir. Alejandro Amenábar 'While doing a thesis about violence, Ángela finds a snuff video where a girl is tortured to death. Soon she discovers that the girl was a former student in her faculty…'

It’s almost like I got to see “Springsteen: Deliver Me from Nowhere” with the boss himself. @mycomicrelief.bsky.social dressed for the occasion.

Another no-weight loss week. I’d like to drop another 40-50 pounds, but my body appears stubbornly stuck at this weight. Sigh. I suppose it’s time to appreciate the progress I’ve made and to work harder for what I want.

Really want to watch the new TV show Pluribus. I find its premise intriguing & have heard great things about it. Adding it to the large list of unwatched television that I hope to conquer some day—but maybe prioritizing it over other titles.

Boldly sported a tight shirt with horizontal stripes a couple days ago. The shirt is by Universal Standard, one of my favorite clothing brands (size 00-40). I have to buy from them sparingly because they’re pricy, but the quality of their clothing is top notch. #ootd

Woke up in a funk. Going to bed happy, grateful, and generally satisfied with my life. Ten or so years ago my depressive phases used to be long, nagging, and painful. They are now minuscule in comparison. Meds, therapy, and AA have worked wonders for me, but it definitely took time and effort.

Thought Bluesky’s algorithm had undergone a major transformation then realized I was scrolling under the “mutuals” tab. Note to self.

This line of thinking is why I take issue with the movie Garden State (despite also loving it) and the “Sociology of Madness” class I took as a college sophomore. This kind of discourse influenced me as a late teen/early 20-something. I *might have* gotten help earlier without it.

We celebrated my doctorate at Friday night dinner tonight. I was particularly excited that my name fit on the cake!

Time to see “Die My Love” with @mycomicrelief.bsky.social. Friday night is a great night to watch depictions of female madness!

Just a little burlesque dancing on my Thursday night.

Oscar Isaac and Guillermo del Toro joke that they laughed when they first saw Jacob Elordi in full makeup for ‘FRANKENSTEIN’ “I just started laughing… ‘Idiot, what a fool! He should’ve asked for more money!’”

Ahhh….the beautiful feeling that accompanies popping a 4.5 mg tablet of vraylar after accidentally skipping a couple doses…it’s like my whole body just sighed with relief…

I had a fantastic day at work today. Glad I didn’t jump ship when it got tough. I’ve started focusing on different things than I used to, and it seems to make a difference.

Admittedly, yes.

“Stop scrolling mindlessly and eat dinner” I tell myself at 9 o’clock at night, as I continue to postpone eating in favor of scrolling mindlessly. I will eat dinner. I don’t believe in self-starvation. But my obsessive thoughts about eating are just…gone. What a fucking relief. #zepbound

In February I’m going on a cruise with my parents. Because I frequently buy clothes I don’t need to get a dopamine hit instead of saving my money, it will be my first cruise ever. My parents are lively for their age. I predict that this will be a blast.

Saturday at Italian Dance we learned how to dance “the belle” to “I saw mommy kissing Santa Claus” instead of the song we usually use. The beat was so hard to match with the steps that one dancer eventually stormed out of practice. I love my Italian Dance family. Such a fiery group!

Dear media: you normalize Trump when you interview him. Don’t give him another platform for his lies.

they all write/talk like this now and it feels like a new genre: hate smut; manic, agitated vitriol that reads like it was written while feverishly masturbating to revenge fantasies

I just frantically submitted my dissertation & paperwork to the correct email after realizing that I’d been sending things to the wrong email yesterday. I’m not an inherent dumpster fire; I’m a recovering alcoholic/addict with adhd who can’t take stimulants because they’re addictive. But fuck.

Geez. I turned Titane off for a moment and am unconvinced that I want to turn it back on. I’m so interested in the subject matter, but it’s a visceral, brutal watch—at least, for this horror fan. I don’t like to let a movie beat me, but this one might. #horror

Time to fall back! Using my extra hour to watch the movie Titane, flanked by two episodes of Doctor Who (with Peter Capaldi as the Doctor). @mycomicrelief.bsky.social and I compromised.

I wrote a blog post! For the first time in a long time! I'm hoping to do this more often now that I'm finished with my dissertation. The Long Walk: When Horror Dares to De-centralize the Horrific justdreadfull.wordpress.com/2025/11/01/t...

Every Halloween I think of me, circa 2002, dressed as Sherlock Holmes dropping my candy bag in the middle of an busy intersection. I panicked only to hear a very gay, "OH MY GOD" before a man burst out of the florists and started scooping my candy back into the bag SO FAST Thank you, mystery gay man

OK, regardless of source, credit where due: That's a great headline.

F. Scott Fitzgerald: In my book I invented Gatsby lifestyle as a cautionary tale The president: At long last, we have created the Gatsby lifestyle from the classic novel The Great Gatsby

Cold fall day. Day off. Spent all morning at Italian dance practicing for our performance at Festival of the Trees. Now sitting down to read, write, and/or watch for pleasure. What a wonderful day. I love this time of year.

Just finished It Follows. Moving on to another. #Nowwatching #horror #halloween

Apparently Annabelle and I both had trouble looking at the camera. Happy Halloween!

Sometimes, for me, there’s a fine line between acknowledging the way adhd makes my life more difficult and limiting myself unnecessarily for that reason. Yes, I have an executive function disorder. My life sometimes looks like chaos. But yes, also, I’m a badass and can do hard things. #adhd