I'm so awkward when it comes to crowds lmao... I just try to find a nice corner where I'm not in anyone's way too much 😅

Listening to The Fray's latest album that they put out EARLIER THIS YEAR WTF I didn't know of this!!! And it's like, surprisingly pretty good so far? Not what I typically listen to these days, but it's honestly quite refreshing to listen to something different for a change :)

How are we halfway through the year already? ...I feel like, too sober for this shit y'all lmao I just can't do this

Listening to The Fray's debut album while I gobble a packet of lightly salted potato chips when I probably should be sleeping but I just feel really lost rn and wanna continue to vibe in it

My gender is kinda "well yes but actually no" energy :P

And I have an appointment Monday morning lol I might be cooked

I've run out of gas money entirely and have no way to get to my doctors appointments this coming week. I have nothing left for my surgery care supplies. And my cane finally broke beyond use so now I have no choice but to get it fixed or replaced. I'm also almost out of cat food. Please help.

My sleep schedule is so fucking fucked at this point lmao

I really miss Minecraft rahhhh I need that SteamDeckkk x3

Next time I go to a gay bar... I'm actually gonna get drunk this time lmao I didn't even come close last time and OMG do I need it lately ugh lmao

Lonelyyyy but I don't feel like talking lmao make it make sense- x3

OOF three favs is hard lmao I listen to *a lot* of artists xD But if I had to pick 3 favs atm, it'd have to be BMTH, Sleep Token, and The Devil Wears Prada! :) But I've also been listening to Evanescence, Bad Omens, Coldplay, Polaris, Architects, Flume... and I'm currently listening to Radiohead 😂

Radiohead and Sleep Token both have more in common than you'd think. Both are "rock bands", both have experimentation and never doing the same album twice built into their identities, and both have very innovative electronic aspects in their music too! :) Oh and BMTH fits this too... and Bad Omens

Finished my second ever Celeste playthrough earlier today, first time returning to it since I first played it as an egg! It was honestly super enlightening! ^^💖

I've been thinking and no, I don't really want my hair longer rn. Like, I wouldn't've gotten it cut shorter like I did otherwise lmao 😅 Also I think it's really cute and I love it!! ^^💖

I noticed that I have a tendency to self-abandon when I feel like my emotional needs aren’t being met, which explains a lot of things, honestly 😅 But hey, acknowledging it is the first step towards improvement, so I’ll try my best! :)

Hi! How's everyone doing? :)💖

Omggggg the last single for Muse's new album just dropped and OMG YOU TEASES LMAO 😂😂😂 Go listen if you haven't already!!! It's soooo good and I don't wanna give away any more of it but gahhhh!!! wapojifapwfawf x3💖 youtu.be/NarN4CTJmrw?...

HELP GET MOODY SOME FOOD IN THEIR TUMMY. I'M NOT ASKING.

I need to learn to say "no" more often lmao 😅 This isn't directed at anyone btw, I'm just meaning in general! :)💖

“Djent ass shit” My djent loving ass just now~ :P💖

Morning, y’all! How is everyone? :)💖

Btw this means if you thought you were a straight guy, but you're attracted to me... you're likely not straight lmao 😅

I wanna be a streamerrrrr but I don't have the setup, not the space for it atm. Hopefully once I've moved though and gotten my PC back, though!! :)💖

Bigender doesn't have to be only inclusive of male and female btw... you can be just one of the binary genders + a non-binary one, or even 2 non-binary identities! All are valid! :)💖

If I had to describe my gender identity, I'd say it's bigender. What I've noticed so far is that I seem to have at least 2 gender identities; futch woman, and genderfuck/genderqueer. And it's all fluid! Sometimes one is dormant while the other isn't, or I feel them simultaneously in varying ways!

I've noticed I tend to like... absorb the traits of others like a sponge sometimes... it's something I'm working on avoiding because I don't want to be a chameleon anymore; never really having my own original sense of self... I've been stuck in that state for too long and now? I just wanna be myself

is there something like OrbStack but it uses the new macOS container framework bullshit

Hey y'all! How's everyone been? :)💖

Not what I was expecting... Also while this is somewhat accurate, I feel like this is a very tunnel-visioned depiction of who I am... it leaves a lot of me out 😅 Still though, this was quite interesting! :)💖

Shes closer now (and staring at her gf/soft spot ^v^) #flipnote #art #witchesbrewingart #charcoalinfurnaceartstuff

The more I go through this puberty and the changes it brings out in me, and the more I experience womanhood, the more I understand what the other women in my family have gone through and continue to go through. It's honestly very refreshing because it makes me feel more connected to them 1/2

I'm so used to suppressing my fucking feelings constantly on a daily basis, but now I just fucking can't anymore... And my needs change so rapidly now, and if I put any of them off for any reason, it can end up being blocked out of my mind and then I'm stuck in an episodic loop without knowing why

My emotions have been getting so much more intense today... I really need to prioritise seeing a psych asap because yeah I've lived long enough to know how much worse things could get if I leave these potential disorders un-medicated 😅

Random but how does Chino Moreno (lead singer of Deftones) have like the sexiest voice ever aidnwienekd

Also omg whenever things are going well for me in my life… I have this intense looming sense of impending doom coming my way to take it all away from me… this has been going on since I was as young as 3 years old… It might be an OCD thing honestly 😅

Come to think of it, my doctor already wrote in a letter to my appointed psych that my anxiety is already high enough to warrant an anxiety disorder diagnosis… AND he said that he’s worried I might have other dire mental health issues going on too on top of that lmao 😭 Wheeeee!!!~ 🙃

Could be my health anxiety... Omg what if it's the hormone changes? Like, that could be why my anxiety is getting so bad... I'll have to see a psych about it

I feel like I can taste blood in my mouth and my head feels a bit off and Idk why shit’s freaking me out

I'm so fucking anxious rn and I'm not sure why... just so much going on and I guess it's really getting to me

Got that alt metal music autism~ :3❤️

Really wish I was fucking drunk rn

Listening to some Deftones again and omg I think I really needed this x3

I've always been a daydreamer... I just have so much love to give, and so much passion, and a vivid and curious imagination... I've got to be creating things lmao... It's as important for my nervous system as eating, hydrating and sleeping at this point~ x3❤️

I've been singing softly to myself every now and then: 🎶VeeVi, don't botherrrr me-🎶 And it always makes me giggle omg x3❤️

This girl loves watching in-depth nerdy video essays btw~ :3❤️

I think I've been holding myself back from writing the romances I want to write because that means caring for this deep, unfulfilled desire that I've had for romantic connection since I was a pre-teen... it's so much to take in that I can just, write stories where my dreams could actually come true

The older I get... the more I realise how much purist culture has fucked with me so badly </3 Like, I'm a lot hornier and more allosexual than I thought But I've also been traumatised pretty badly when it comes to relationships... I just need someone who's willing to be patient and careful with me

What is a subgenre of music y’all are curious about trying more of? Me personally, I wanna try getting more into mathcore. First got into it with Architects and their stuff is so fucking good~ ^^❤️

I love music omg… ❤️