Reaching 6 Months of HRT soon, but I'm stuck in a heavy frustration. I'm not satisfied with myself... at all.

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Looks like the city approved my two chosen names <3. I can legally change my name and gender entry in October. I was worried that my 2nd Name (yeah in Germany when you have two names, you also need to change both and choose a 2nd) would cause problems, bit I guess "Ryu" is okay for them :D

My weekend project :3 #Warhammer40k #SpaceWolves

I put up some ✨shnazzy✨ glasses on Jinxxy to buy for the Winterpaw Feline base avatar! 🏞️ Refractive and Reflective (Wow!) ⚙️ Optimized for PC and Quest users 🫳 Very much grabbable 🎵 Audio Link and LTCGI Support 🎨 Comes with an in-game adjustable colorized lens version 🛒 jinxxy.com/Riggedy/Glas...

I'm getting the hang of using my airbrush. I used mostly contrast paints with it, really wanted to give that murder chicken some really bright colors. :) #Warhammer40k #daemonprinceoftzeentch

Tank Commander Blu

The more clothes I try, the more I realize that transitioning takes time and that my impatience is making my life harder. I'm only 4,5 months in and I'm expecting waaaay too much. I should be happy about how far I've come, but that's not going to happen until I look in the mirror and say "That's me"

I'm "a little overwhelmed" with how much more difficult it is to find women's clothes that fit me. The size charts are so confusing...

I'm sad that I can't watch another episode of Dorohedoro today :( I love this show soooo much!

4 months HRT progress: - more direct dysphoria than ever before ...I'm impatient :( - Estradiol was too low (47...pf 100-200), I'm now getting 3x Gel pumps a day and in a few weeks 4. - Boobies are forming nicely (much quicker than expected) Impatience's my biggest enemy.

My excitement is over the moon 8D Pleeeease give us a Cadian Guard Armor and a Lasgun! #Helldivers I'm pretty sure there'll be an Astartes themed heavy armor and a Bolter :3

I get gender euphoria from people staring at me:3

For those who come after 🌹

- 5? Months vs 3 Months HRT

3 Months on HRT 🏳️‍⚧️! - Mental Health increased - I tear up a little quicker - My skin got better and cleaner - My chest got firmer - Walking downstairs quickly hurts a liiiiittle because the chest is bouncing :D All other adult life problems aside, I feel so much happier!

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#Warhammer #WH40K My hyper focused project of the last 3 weeks:

I've lost almost 7kg since the beginning of the year and I can't remember the last time my life and mind felt this "peaceful". I'm pretty confident that HRT will change my life for the better.

Official Trailer for "Dorohedoro" Season 2. >> www.youtube.com/watch?v=oQSz...

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My chest is already very mildly burning... wtf? On day 3?

So...let's fucking go! HRT Day 1 - Janury 20th <3

Finished Expedition 33... ._.

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"Myyyy sweater was made by using the wool of gay sheep..."

Right now I'm just "existing" until my endo appointment for HRT in exactly 7 days. At this point I'm pretty sure that I'll be horribly disappointed because the clinic seems to be known for pushing some unnecessary bureaucracy which will take up to 5+weeks + time until the next appointment...

This is evil in it's purest form

2026 goals: - Loose 20kg - Chestpain - Smoother skin - Fat redistribution on hips - Name change

New Illustration: "We Beat 'Em Before..." Taken from a British WW2 poster, the original features a WW1 German soldier at the top. I just swapped it for the Nazi soldier it had at the bottom.

"The flying Fox" found a new place to work on his vehicles and develop new, even more volatile explosive devices...and sleep.

I'm really looking forward to WoW Housing, but I realized that all the items I want are locked behind the new housing currency system which will release in March next year... This sucks sooooo much!

- The endocrinologist sent me to the health insurance company so I could clarify coverage. - The health insurance company said on the phone that a face-to-face meeting would be better. - I went to the meeting. - A meeting wasn't necessary; it could have been clarified over the phone.

I'm holding a raffle to hand out 10 free keys for my new avatar base, the Legato! 🔹You can enter the raffle by reposting and following!🔹 Winners will be announced on release day, November 21st. #VRChat #Furry

I absolutely love the new Winterpaw kitty by @juliawinterpaw.bsky.social ! And I'm confident that I've found my 2nd Fursona :3

Random thoughts: Feeling sorry for the Darth Vader cosplayer at EF who was left confused after beeing yelled at by a WH40k cosplayer in character who told them that "their Emperor was better" >_> *eternal guilt*

I've recently started taking pictures of my Warhammer collection and I'll share them here. The pics will probably be posted on a weekly basis because I need time for the project :) I often use 3D printed and 3rd party parts on my minis.

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Jesus Houdini Christ, this is great.

Follow up: My psychotherapist told me she has good experience with the "not so good" endo and that she recommends going there and if things really not make me happy, I should just switch. Sooo... I guess January it is then :3

My mental health is declining again because of all the Doomscrolling, so I'll start purging my follower list from people who regularly repost political stuff. Sorry <3

Finally another comic! I really wanna do more of these again. :D Poor old capybara, I totally feel the same. XD

Getting HRT consultation earlier at a clinic with a not so good reputation VS Getting HRT consultation two months later at a university clinic with a good reputation. The decision should be easy, but....*sigh*

I actually like Alien: Earth. The Spaceship Episode was 10/10.

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That stuff isn't going to vanish on it's own in the morning. There are actual people collecting that stuff like really early in the morning. I feel ashamed for all of us. It's not rocket science to clean up after yourselves. Please don't paint that picture of us especially in public.