She said she loves me. We’ll see how much.

scorsese is famous for films like goodfellas, the last temptation of christ, the departed, and for prolonging the age of fire by linking the first flame

Dr. Pepper Sausage

These are some of the best photos I’ve ever seen. If you make things, the commercial license is incredible

I’m living for babes and boys, man.

This is the kind of thing I’m going to make from now on. Everything else, prior to this felt so phony.

Friends send me a sex doll for my birthday. Got a text with this photo. My place doesn’t have a welcome mat.

Yeah

Today’s encounter. A younger me would probably, like so many young men, be stuck in the “self-improvement” circle but thankfully I (personally) missed that bit of almost-cultism. It’s only “do what you love and figure it out” from here on. And it’s been really good for my crumbling psyche.

New steam name

tinfoil hat Part of me says that “content creation“ was fermented to get people to become absolutely fucking insane so they’d be softened up for the failure of society

i hate my job. I wish “handyman” was a still a gig

there is a potential I’m deployed/gone until late 2027

I was born too late to do weird programming on public access TV and the modern internet structure smoothed out all the edges, only to rapidly approach faux reality

Incredible shirts arrived

this has been an incredible read

Live now. Playing more Requiem! twitch.tv/tankbearclaw The Bearclaw RIP event is still ongoing.

“It’s because you guys can’t communicate well enough to express any sort of sexual feelings. It comes down to communication and understanding yourself, man.” Me at work, I fucking hate my job why am I raising other people’s kids.

my steam name is Groucho Sparxxx and I’m gonna get yelled at during the weekly helldive

The big arch had me arching my back and wailing like a banshee. It was like guts draino. My intestines were sieged by Ronald.

I’m not dead, I’m back to baldish, working a lot and still wanting to do this streaming shit. Stop motion is hard to learn.

I think I’ll get a tramp stamp

Live now. twitch.tv/tankbearclaw Birthday pants-shitting stream.

Today’s encounter. It’s okay to feel a lack of motivation. Motivation isn’t fuel, it’s the spark. You can say discipline or willpower or whatever, and that’s nice but it’s just establishing a routine and it becomes part of you. That’s what keeps you going.

I don't think the solution to anything is just, "make retro websites as a pastiche to live a slower, simpler time because the current rat race you're actively a part of sucks." That's just continuing the problems of the modern landscape but you shoved it in a different skin.

3/1. I'm streaming on my birthday. It's going to be the death and rebirth.

The Art of Seduction

Getting booty shorts that say "MEAT MONOLITH" on them.

I think the fact that the internet can make "everyone a critic" is a detriment to art and expression. A critic first and foremost has to love the thing they're critiquing. Their criticisms must serve to propel the medium forward. An opinion isn't criticism. Opinions don't have impact.

I want to do a charity baseball video game tournament but I think they might get upset if I name my team "Big Naturals"

Diver

Really thinking I won't be using discord or anything like that anymore - gonna workshop it with users in my own discord, I think my time for "able to be contacted" is waning. I'll do the streaming stuff, and public posting but keep privacy as much as I can.

Friday off, not doing shit, weekend busy.

This is a ”birria bomb” the guy said “take birria, okay, then pupusas, then make it a ball, and shove it in your face like a horny animal” And I got it immediately

VA making changes to make the lives of veterans worse because it’s cheaper to have a dead vet than help them out.

Waking up and seeing the news

If all goes well this weekend. 3/1 return

@bonnicula.bsky.social What have I missed

I earned it

Today’s encounter. Streaming is on the back burner. Friend and guy I live with had a workplace accident so I may not have a place to live in a few months, the government fucked up my pay and I may owe a bunch, and I lit my workbench on fire and shorted an outlet.

I'm so tired, man.

Today’s encounter. I may be gone for work for a year or so, things went south pretty bad overall. Like most things, it is just one step at a time, there’s no reason to worry about things too far in the future. I’m not walking the fastest nowadays anyway.

I ain’t dead yet

direct traffic but make it sexy lacesafetyvest.com

Streams are gonna be even longer to start up again. Life is hard out here

Today’s encounter. I think a lot about how things have changed over the years and my own inability to keep up. It usually ends on, “why do I even need to keep up?” All roads lead to “fuck it, it’s not real, the points are made up.” Maybe that’s enlightenment

This is quickly becoming my favorite drink brand

Who is going to step up to the stall?

For fuck sake they put me on a watchteam with the "I don't think all races are the same because God made them different and trans people are the snake that gave Eve the apple" guy.

I don't think a lot of people have "values" and "principles" anymore.