I‘m being so good and disciplined with my calorie deficit again for the past few days 🥲 and it SUCKS. It feels so hard. I just wanna snack when stressed. It‘s so hard to resist and not give into the coping strategy of snacking, that I‘ve used all my life.

What is it with my Poecilotheria and using the front glass as a toilet. every month I‘m scrubbing the glass… 😭

Taking one for the team and reading all those weird smut book they recommend on tiktok. I‘ll update you. 🫡

Big walkies with @hanfuuff.bsky.social and @nicodeer.bsky.social 👞👞

I'm pretty sure cats have some ancient game where they get points for stepping on boobs.

Riding gear GOT. Paid less than expected! I‘m happy ❤️

The day I tweet about waiting for feedback, I get 2 offers for test-horseriding in december. Luckily Right before black friday, I hope I can snatch a good offer for Helmet and Boots. ✨

It seems to be a still very sought after hobby. I‘ve written to 8 stables, am now on 2 waitlists and waiting for feedback from 5 other ones. Fingies crossed I can take my first lessons within the next half year. 🤞

I’ve been loving dark earthy tones. 🤎💚

i bought RDR2 aka sexy cowboy simulator

very white bread this week

The painful life of an indoor cat

She didn‘t even move overnight, she just went to town on that roach 😭😂 enough, go molt gorl, that’s a phat abdomen.

My P irminia picks up her food from my tongs at the front screen and then slowly retreats, like the good little predator I raised her to be. 💞

So at 31 I finally decided to get my ass up and start learning how to ride a horse, now that I have horse-riding money and weigh under a specific number. Still waiting for feedback from schools and teachers but at least there's a lot of options really close to us! fingies crossed.

I believe in fenchel-anis-kümmel supremacy

So I ordered 16 kilos of Soda today. to be fair it's a soda Han and I really love so I don't think its unhinged. 👉👈

currently can‘t handle coffee and energy drinks :( am sad. But my brain acts up, even if i drink it early in the day and just a few sips. MEH at least matcha is still fine.

Me: I‘ve been so frugal with money this month! i can save another good amount! The car inspection and TÜV bill waiting for my ass:

Time to use my beautiful icon by @caylethdraws.bsky.social again ❤️

Pray for me, yesterdays sourdough loaf felt overproofed and too hydrated with the new recipe. 😭

please tell me someone else remembers maling these in their childhood for christmas decor! ❤️✨

Havanna coloured nails ✨

Rotund

My Phormictopus dominican purple just tried to slap/bite my nose. I'm glad I expected that move. Little shithead.

“But I want to be remembered as someone who tried at least.” “She was a non-active member of the Order of the Eternal Flame and did not fight.”

gorls I came so prepared to not have a shitty mood and depression this winter but outside getting dark so fast again is already fucking with me. 🥲

Forgot to post, it’s bread.

Of course life had to add the cherry on top and a tooth filling came out this evening. had a lil paniccy attaccy and tomorrow I‘ll see the dentist. I‘m so done. 🫠

Work has been just... nasty. After being sick I got back into it and am now just as stressed out as before. I don't know how long this shitty phase will keep going. I like the job and the pay is too good to just go after a few months of stress.. I wanna see how we can fix the issues first. :c

Baking with sourdough again after probably 1-2 months of not baking bread. I'm letting the flour and water autolyse without the starter this time, because I read it can lead to better texture/elasticity. We'll see! also i get to try out my new dutch oven 👉👈

First Wedding anniversary CHECK time goes by so fast 😭💕

Bought Buckshot Roulette Won on my first try 🤌

goofy #tarantula

I just feel very lost today.

I‘ve been so tired today… but also happy, because this amount if fatigue usually means the schizophrenia symptoms are going down again. 🤞🤞🤞

#alchemised omg there’s artwork of Lila (and everyone else is there too ig)

Kaine Ferron walked so Taylor Swift could run

🐁

You will suffer the curse of caw! Share if you care to spread the curse even further!  #fishcrow #art

did I need new watercolour paper? no. did I buy new watercolour paper? fuck yeah.

„don’t care didn’t ask plus your jester’s hat does not jingle with a merry tone that so pleases the king as mine does“

That heated blanket really does it for her

Some Serotonin for you on this cold monday #leopardgecko

Very in love with this photo of Itsy (Theraposa blondi), she's got puppy eyes! ❤️ #tarantula

they unfortunately didn't last mre than a week and I now have short nails again, back to wlw size. 😩 I just want maniko to bring back their spiderweb design. I never got to order it, it's always been out of stock. :C

This months biggest butt award goes to: Itsy! ✨

So glad I only bought a small hahnemühle Britannia watercolour pad, I hate this paper with a passion. Watercolour behaves on it like it's got a waxy cover, it's so annyoing.

Went to the doc, picked up my meds, had a nice 1h walk to get that done and now I'm pooped out for the day. Gonna nap until Han comes home and we go grocery shopping. I'm written sick til the end of the week and for the first time in 2 months or so I feel.. truly relaxed. Like I can get better now.