why did everyone watch gqux when they could’ve instead watched cucuruz doan’s island (2022)

the compliments i get from straight men started to make a lot more sense when i found out it’s like. a life-changing and difficult and sometimes extended process for them to buy and wear a cool jacket

feeling torturously indecisive about getting an ipad to make drawing more accessible because every time i think of it im like… i could use that same money to get a nice electric guitar…

pattern making for horse bit belt 😋

getting an ebike/moped instead of a power chair bc i can deal with discrimination for being a road annoyance but i can’t deal with discrimination for being disabled

i live in fear of upsetting my degrading lower spine much like waking a beast

life is better if you stretch for 40+ min every day

when an artist is a kind and wonderful person it makes their art even better.. because all art is imbued with aura.. and the opposite is true as well

i need to receive a weekly crate of fresh seasonal fruit of all sorts

me playing totk: i’m supposed to deepen my bond with a sage kam: by what, fucking them???! me: presumably…

love my giant lower back tattoo wish i could see it

if amuro ever did succeed in killing char i think he could be haunted for life but survive it but if char succeeded in killing amuro i think he would NOT survive it. he’d last like one day or less

“go ahead, suck my dick” <- things to say when someone is starting to compliment you a little but holding back

made vegan “caviar” with chia seeds and nori and soy sauce etc. it was actually soooo delicious and very caviar-like

tell me why new beta blocker is already losing efficacy (try not to crash out challenge)

how do i get into umamusume as fast as possible…. i want a favorite horse girl…

imagining fa being used to calling kamille mimi from pre-transition days and she still slips up sometimes and it makes him freak out

there’s a gallery exhibit i’ve been desperate to see for months and it closes in april and im like……. racing the clock to see if ill have a burst of energy to go see it or not lol

my instagram explore page is 100% rabbit videos and videos that are like “this is your sign to get a horse”

tired but exists

craving turkey sausage egg and cheese sandwich

i got too excited about my project and now i’m tired… but yay (i actually did pace myself and work slowly over many days)

mortician who ran a funeral home. [my surname] funeral home still exists, just owned by someone else. the business will be 100 years old in two years

there are studies that find that wearing nicotine patches is an effective way to treat ME/long covid and i’m like okay yeah ill try anything at this point

i’m obsessed with eating fiber

this is the power music should have over you

being with someone who freely shares any personal information as someone who is cagey and mysterious is like a perpetual gauntlet of phobias. like it raises my BP just to imagine sharing the kind of things my husband does

cardiologist said the beta blocker i was on was doing less than nothing (and lowkey chiding the doctor that prescribed it) and put me on a better beta blocker 😆

omg yes i’m going nuts because i want to work with my hands and my body but i can’t

if i had a belt sander and a bandsaw everything would be different

i met a saddler a bit ago and i missed my chance to shoot my shot to become an apprentice 💔 that would be my dream maybe. born to make horse tack forced to make fetish and goth gear

dismantling the horse bit jewelry i made a few years ago and turning it into harnesses/belts … personal project… idk if i have it in me to make custom harnesses but maybe one day

cutting bridle leather scraps into straps

ignoring my roots which i know are absolutely ridiculous how do i make the rest of my hair stay curly like the front does relevant info: i thrash around in my sleep every night, flattening the back of my head hair

when i saw these in person for the first time (50 etchings/drypoints in the Der Krieg series) it was haunting, arresting and overwhelming. art that makes you think no war ever..

argama moments

me: are we going to be like… 30 year old men going to see cute anime girl movie kam, before i finished my sentence: yes

the love interest for the protagonist of my comic is a spoiler. even his name is a spoiler. it makes me laugh hysterically every time i think of that concept. yeah i draw him sometimes but you can’t see…

wearing three different devices that are monitoring my heart

once i threw a 25¢ bouncy ball off the roof of the wh*tney museum and later when i was walking around outside i found it again…

our baby spruce tree is growing new sprigs like crazy 😳 anyone with a house want to allow us to plant our tree in your yard…

omg umamusume movie … should i get tix

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turkey baster baby …

my mom met me after my cardiology appt and gave me this

i feel like.. what if i get attached to my heart monitor. i like being partially robotic

how come nobody told me they freaking sand your skin first when they put a heart monitor on you

it’s actually been enlightening to go from the fastest walker in the city to the slowest

lalah, lalah

i was just about to apply to animenyc and i realized its the weekend of my little bro's wedding so... NEVERMIND