I like how whenever I feel even a sliver unwell my appetite consists of anything with a flavor profile so vast it beats the shit out of me. Please- I want to feel the fury of a thousand suns or the kick of a donkey.

Not 100% sure I will stream tonight after all, I’m starting to feel all nasally again :c So we’ll see

Maybe I stream tonight... It's the brainworms. Chat, I may be so back. The passionate brainworms are back and I found the spark I've been looking for! It'll be a long project but I got things to do as breaks.

I told myself I'd never make a Full TT-RPG... And now I'm filled with brainworms just because of watching friends play Kingdom Hearts 2 and now I need something so similar to Organization 13 made into an Alternate setting, splitting the class dichotomy between Weapon & Element(s).

My body is fucking crying~ I woke up early for my yearly blood work and I’ve finally crashed so hard I’m barely staying awake at work. Twice this week that an energy drink is my lifeline 💀 I need to enter a coma, on god

Blood work done- I will now consume an entire pizza like Apophis devours the sun.

Chomping on my arm, I can stop fasting in 30 minutes after my bloodwork, I haven't eaten in like... 24 hours. 😭

Only thing keeping me awake is a monster energy & obligation- and I just know when my ass gets back home my body won’t want to sleep as a sick joke.

You’re allowed to mourn the softness you lost by hardening your heart to protect it from the world

Feeling frustrated tonight and idk about what, I just know that “Cut Through” & “Numb” from Warframe 1999 OST makes me want to mix & sip on a Rusty Nail while lounging in some grunge garage or bar.

I keep making passionate character and writing essays in my head out of anger (mostly WoW related with how many character assassinations and flawed writing it has) But I'd like to actually talk about how to MAKE them better rather than rag on them. Think this would be a future endeavor to try?

Me & @memorkees.bsky.social are going LIVE with Terraria!~ I have not played this is 5eva twitch.tv/varaeli_bleu

Wizard101 still busting out bangers is so funny The game actually got so interesting in my absence from childhood to adulthood and now after a 2-3 year break it’s even more intricate with Class-Weaving. And they’re making a Visual Novel-like game that’s a prequel with Dahlia as the protag? Epic.

Hmmm… really want to play Pokémon again… itching to do a Steel-Type only playthrough ngl. (Steel Type is my favorite type)

When your Lancer Homebrew makes you end up making an entire Lancer campaign just so you can field test everything. So far for my Lancer Project, I’ve only completed the Kidd (I’m giving a new unlock per license to all official licenses) Just started, but feels nice to accomplish.

Yearly transition check-up done…. Ughhhhhh I’m going back to bed💀

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Streaming again! Playing Wizard101 as I continue on my Balance Wizard I started a few odd years ago (Level 54) twitch.tv/varaeli_bleu

actually hold that thought- I have an appointment on Thursday, so If I go to bed early today, then when I wake up I can do a stream in the morning and then i'll have a proper sleep schedule come Thursday and I can use that as momentum to get used to morning/noon streams, its perfect.

No clue what I’m streaming tonight yet but it might be Wizard 101- that’s what I’m currently thinkin’ Subject to change

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Masc enough to get he’d by wearing a flannel in the chilly winter, femme enough to when I turn around everyone is so apologetically calling me “Ma’am”

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Think tomorrow I’m going to go ahead and try to stream- see how it goes. No idea what I’ll do but I’ll do something.

Reinstalled Wizard101 because watching a friend play Kingdom Hearts 1 made me go "I really new some element matching in my life right now, I think I should reinstall Wizard101." SO I guess that's back on the menu?

I ended up being able to finish up a wip of my oc Circe in some renfaire garb! Man I wanna go to one again v.v #furry #ocart #digitalart

Thinking about that one time my friends needed a different place to play D&D for once due to circumstances so I asked my mother for the keys to the church. What a great session that was.

⚫ you neglected what you planted in me but at least the warm rot feels like love

Think I’ve decided on my first tattoo being the Clan Ravnos insignia (V5) Don’t know when I’ll get it, maybe next year. Just feels simple enough to start there. Thinking shoulder area is where I’ll put it.

I know I haven’t streamed much in the past month, I probably won’t until at least next Saturday, which is sad because October is one of my favorite months. I’ll be back, I always come back, my stubbornness be damned.

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Just started playing Meiko in Fellowship (Think the flavor Pathfinder's Kineticist with the playstyle of a WoW Windwalker / FF14 Monk that so happens to be a tank instead) And I have to say... Despite being the hardest character mechanically in the game currently, she just feels so right to me.

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With how much Homebrew I have either written in notes or wriggling around in my brain, I really oughtta just sit down write all this shit out. Path/Starfinder stuff, Lancer, and a few VtM stuff primarily... Just gotta pick on what to start with :/

Might be changing my streaming schedule going forward, maybe just slightly see what happens. Might start streams at Midnight CST during the week. Might end up making day streams more of a thing? We’ll see. Got an extra money opportunity for little work, if I just line up my times.

I’ll be honest, Hades 2 Epilogue was peak and it blows my mind people didn’t like it. Maybe my mythos love and extreme amount of complex time lore experience has like… eased my brain into making it sound simple by comparison. But I super duper loved it and the foreshadowing was so good & fun.

Think burnout is hitting me hard- it’s just difficult to have that “oomph” right now for video games at least

Indoctrinating my far-superior & artistically inclined mother into my resin hobby so I’ll feel a larger push to pursue it and because I know she’ll love it. She also just loves doing things with me now, so I’ll take it.

Might skip stream tonight, I can barely keep my eyes open :c At least that’s a sign my sleep schedule is readjusted so… we’ll do fellowship tomorrow instead of Megabonk

Going Live w/ Kingdom Hearts 1 as we *try* to finish the game on Proud mode! I WILL PERSERVE (probably) twitch.tv/varaeli_bleu

Sleep schedule and body are sorting out- So Stream schedules are back! Sunday- KH1 / Fellowship 6pm CST Monday - N/A Tuesday - Fellowship 10:30pm CST Wednesday - Megabonk 10:30pm CST Thursday - N/A Friday - Maybe… Saturday - Wildcard Day! 2/3/4pm CST

I got the haircut I’ve been growing my hair forever for now… I feel like I’ve evolved. I’ve become Midwest incarnate.

In true release day fashion, Fellowship going through the growing pains of on-launch servers... So maybe Kingdom Hearts is still on the menu tonight after all depending on how this holds. Anyways... if any oomfs have their eyes set on Fellowship, I wouldn't mind playing! (I play Rime & Mara mostly)

I forgot... Fellowship releases today. In an hour. 👀

Reinstalled KH and I think I might be pretty close to finishing my Proud mode playthrough for KH1 … might stream finishing it tomorrow? Or trying to at least.

Sweater Weather ❤️

Early work day over, Rain & Petrichor in the air, Breakcore to bop to and wings ordered. Day good.

Hades 2 was such a good game that honestly I think I see a Hades 3 in the future as the final installment. 3 Fates 3 Furies 3 Reported Children of Hades (Zagreus, Melinoe, & Macaria) 3 Games No, I’m not obsessed, but one day I’ll be going “I knew it,” like Prometheus.

Fresh air is important, nay- VITAL! Get it. We're not build to be pent up in buildings 24/7. Don't have to go anywhere, just open a window or sit outside for a bit, enjoy it before winter comes in and its hella cold. Hell, I just sat outside listening to music for 30 minutes and I feel refreshed.