I have a little under $400 to my name until next Friday. Not including my CC, which I don't count as "my money." Oh, by next Friday is mortgage, and half of my check will go to that. On top of that, to do my taxes this year, it cost me $118, and im getting a whopping $209 back...

Did my taxes yesterday. Im getting a whopping $209 back this year, but it cost my $118 to do my taxes. What crock of absolute shit. That felt like bank rolling villains. I really really could have used a good return this year.

I dread going into work due to the intense amount of anxiety and pressure it causes me. Even with my meds, it spikes the moment I walk in the door.

Many of you have asked me when we are going to do another “Guillotine Builder Union” T-shirt or hoodie run. Well it is time Monday April 13th we are doing pre-orders for Hoodies. All proceeds will be used to order more stickers and fight our local insurrectionist school board members.

1/2 Hey all I got some pretty, not so okay news the last couple day's healthwise. Ummmm... I need to activily find a less stressful job that will be okay with the numerous amount of Dr's appointments I need going forward. I have no more PTO or sick days to cover these appointments I have to go to.

Admittedly it’s not right now, but I’ve got my first big solo game coming out in Pocketopia in May that comes as a PDF. You’re an overnight radio presenter in the small town of Jubilation. If some of the local monsters happen to wear human skin, you don’t want to know whose. tinyurl.com/mpbkmppz

Can anyone out there in the infinite nerdum recommend some like noir, cyberpunk, or like welcome to Night Vale @nightvaleradio.bsky.social vibe small town weird Solo TTRPGs I can play like right now with no printing thing? #Solottrpg

So let me put this thought out there. What if I really were just a DJ on a pirate weather channel location nowhere.

So you Google how to find grants to help you heal properly without worrying about not being able to and not a god damn link I click was really help. Why is it this hard to get the funds you need to become healthy again? It should not be this difficult. #mentalhealth #chronicallyill #wtf

It took my last career 15 years to get me to full burnout. It took less than 2 to turn me to dust here. I know I talk about this a lot, but it's me literally yelling into the void. So if you're not a fan of mental health talk unfollow me because it's gonna be most of what I post moving forward.

Yeah, it's official. I know I can't do this anymore. I was surrounded by thousands of people this weekend, and I actively have more anxiety and hopelessness coming in here to work. You'd say that's bad, right?

Madame Zuzu’s ya'll!

Goodbye @c2e2.bsky.social, you were amazing! On the way to visit and have breakfast at @smashingpumpkins.bsky.social Billy Corgan and Wife Chole's tea shop, Madame Zuzu’s. #c2e22026 #thesmashingpumpkins #breakfast #teahouse

Pancakes on the second day of the con! 🥞

Behold pizza! 🍕 First dinner of the con.

Tell me how I can never really find folx outside my very amazing campaign parties on any of my socials, but get to the comic con and get hit up on Grindr to DM a game. But the moment I mentioned my rates...crickets. If I'm gonna work on my off time, I'm gonna get paid.

Here's the thing what I've been doing for the last 20+ years has decimated my everything. I would love to quit my 9-5 try doing what I love, but I fear doing that will kill my love for it. I don't want to ask or rely on others, but I'm so done killing myself everyday. Those with ko-fi etc experience

Accurate scene today...

I need a job where I don't answer phones or deal with anyone in person as far as clients go. I'm 100% tapped out. That's got to be a record. 1+ and fired. Do I get a trophy? 🏆🔥

Yeah this feels right... "Getting ready in the mirror Putting on my mirage I got my red lipstick I put on my blush Is anybody gonna like me? Anybody gonna like me? Is anybody gonna love me? Is anybody gonna need me? Cocaine, Cindy Lauper Yeah, my life has begun." open.spotify.com/track/6nmK3N...

I wish I had a partner who was into the same things I was. I'd love to explain to them all my stories. I don't even have anyone I could gush about without feeling like I'm being overwhelming. I want the feeling of someone being so happy I'm happy. I mean, what is happiness? w/e.

Well, there goee 4 hrs of campign prep down the tube. Remind me why I do this again? Because I'm starting to lose sight of why I do anything at all in this hobby anymore.

@jamesgunn.bsky.social please for everything holy and unholy please higher me to curate your movies soundtracks. Believe me when I say I can do better then who ever you have right now. If that's you...

I want to be transparent and open about everything im going through, but the hits just keep coming. Test results came back high levels in both my thyroid and live (fyi been sober for over a year, not a drop of alcohol). Not sure what to do with this or how to feel. I'll just throw it on the pile.

Either people are truly connecting to my burnout out post, or that's a lot of bots. I've never had so many people "liking" something. Guess it resonated with folks. So anyone got like $33k I can "barrow"?

Visit Purpee. It's normal here 😈

How do you ask for help when every single person you know is in the same boat and scooping rising water in the boat with buckets? Why should everyday folks who are struggling as well have to help others who should have the resources to feel secure enough to::checks paper:: live.

Went to my doctor's appointments today. The consensus is I need a prolonged time to heal my burnout. I retorted with: "I checked with my bank account, and he says that's impossible."

@matthewmercer.bsky.social @samriegel.bsky.social @brennanleemulligan.bsky.social @criticalrole.bsky.social But what if Scanlan's far far far future descendant was the medical examiner for the walled mega city of Emon in 2185? #criticalrole open.spotify.com/playlist/6LE...

45 mins into my shift and already having a mild anxiety attack. This has got to be a sign that this is so incredibly bad for me and I've hit critical mass with my mental condition.

How my family convinces me I really should go on vacation this year and go spend time with them in the mountains.....

Did a thing last night and not mad about it.

Maybe I should campaign to raise enough to properly heal. Anyone have an extra 33k I can borrow? #burnout #mentalheath #exhausted

I'm trying to get through my work day, but it's rough ya'll. The brain chemicals are not doing the thing, and my meds aren't helping either. If I can get through this today. There 99% chance I won't become in tomorrow. I can't afford to miss a day, but nothing feels good anymore.

New campaign location playlist: open.spotify.com/playlist/2hO...

Going to put out the call again. Looking for 2 more players for 2 ongoing online campaigns. One is a modern setting (atm they're in space), the other is a far future post-apocalyptic Tal'Dorei think fallout, CR lore, and a battle for power between the gods of Exandria and their kids. #criticalrole

If my second campaign had a musical vibe, it would squarely fall into a sort of Miyazaki's "Lupin the 3rd: Castle of Cagliostro".

Doing more research on my celiacs tonight and fun times found, idk 15 years of emotional abuse at the hands of my job might do it plus all the other terrible shit I've been through.

They say the devil's in the details. Getting my ass back on the path sucks but let's do this. @printinkling.bsky.social from under my scrubs to working out. It's one of my favorite tees.

I may or may not have said to one of my players who is in both games I run: "But what if one of the two games you're in is just a dream, and the PCs just haven't realized it yet?"

@matthewmercer.bsky.social @criticalrole.bsky.social I've been making soundtracks for my players for every Megacity still left in a post-burn campaign set in a futuristic post post-apocalyptic Tal'Dorei set in 2185. #criticalrole open.spotify.com/playlist/4U3...

Robin Fucking Scherbatsky! On my new favorite shows atm "Shrinking"

How does one ask for help when you don't need it for any specific reason but to feel secure just in case an emergency or surprise bill shows up? I've never asked for it at all ever in my 30 years of working. I never thought id be at this point. So much I want to do, but I'm just treading water.

Ya'll, I just got paid Friday, and after bills and mortgage, I have about maybe $300 bucks to my name. No savings, nothing....😥

Well, ya'll the hits keep coming. Hurt my back over the weekend. Took an additional day today to rest up. Currently getting food with bestie with a side copious amounts of medication flowing through me. This middle-aged thing is for the birds...

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Now live from my brain...

Bulking season is over. Back to work, back to work. Oh, wait you're asking about my tee? Ya know I had someone else ask me this very same question on my run today. It's just my nifty "Guillotine Builders Union" tee by my friends over at @printinkling.bsky.social Character member baby!

Drop an album that was important to you when you were nineteen.