just finished my research paper 🥳🥳🥳 aka one class done and one day closer to become a doctor 🥹 this one was lowkey wild lol I was supposed to spend the entire semester on this yet I basically did all of it in a few days 😅

lowkey just need someone to know that this is L & H's favorite albums in my fic 🥹🥹🥹 we're talking like literary fiction, established relationship, college/uni au, & my self-made genre: traumatic fluff™ 🫶

Happy chewsday everyone!! <3

omg why is everyone fighting over there 😭😭😭 like fr can't even go a few hours without some drama I was actually happy to find a very nice new fic author moot over there but the other people being mean scare me away 🥲

two things 1. it's crazy to me how at the height of it all I was so deep in the fanfic community like I became friends with fic authors, won a fic competition, & had 100+ people wanting me to make them fic covers & now it's weird cause no one really knows me as I've taken a step back from it 🤷‍♀️ +++

just went to dinner with my dad and I got lemonade to drink solely because of louis 😅🍋

Louis talking about his grief and how angry he was with the world after losing Liam.. 🥹🥹

logged into the 🐦 app just to see how things were going and like idk how to describe it but the vibes are not it 😭 like aside from the people I've been moots with for years, everyone seems really scary and mean 😭 like maybe it's just me but I like having a smaller community here in a lot of ways yk

don't mind me being IA for an eternity 😭 I come bearing gifts in the form of a fic rec tiktok 🥳 www.tiktok.com/@maniapassio...

today it's me and my (homemade) iced sugar cookie latte against the world 😌

“Now I'm daydreaming with your silhouette”

three things rn 1. in the mood to cry 2. daydreaming about my book 3. having a mental breakdown over yet another research project

in other news my teacher graded my rough draft of my research paper 😅 yk the one I had written after being awake 24 hours & it was the worst thing I think I've ever written in my life and she was just like it's good just make a few edits for the final draft and only took off one point 💀

THIS IS LIKE THE BEST NEWS EVER OMG I HAVE DREAMED OF THIS DAY 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

GUYS I AM FREAKING OUT IN THE BEST WAY OMG SOMEONE PRINTED MY FANFIC COVERS (bloodsport, golden, and popstar boyfriend) www.tiktok.com/@imcryingina...

on this day in history..🥹💞

y'all don't get how wild it is to be me rn omg

oh the urge to take a day trip to nashville 🤔

H you lucky bastard 😩

Holy 🤯

I'm in such a good mood today 🥳 wearing yellow for lemonade ofc 🍋💛🍹 and I surprisingly got the day off work since it was for a training class that I had already done 😊 now I've got the whole day to do my school assignments 🎓

if anyone needs a reminder 🫶 aka my inspiration and motivation 🥹 ugh I love him 💕

OHMYGOD??? this era is going to be everything

grad school as a biromantic asexual 21 year old means flirting with your 35 year old male classmate via email (I'm delusional lol)

THIS IS THE BEST NEWS I'VE GOTTEN ALL DAY (it's 3 days after my birthday)

AHH IT'S LITERALLY SO GOOD 🍋💛🍹🥳

every day is a new experience lol so I'm in grad school, GETTING A DOCTORATE mind you, & just had a fellow student who I'm in a group project with plagiarize me 🙄 luckily I have time stamps & screenshot proof & immediately told the teacher but come the fuck on you are 40 years old, grow up (I'm 21)

a new layout 🥹

I have been awake 19 hours and consumed roughly 600mg of caffeine 💀 but the rough draft of my research paper is done 🥳🥳🥳 I'm just kinda insane and procrastinate everything 😅 also note I had to read 100 pages of research articles before I could even begin writing and yes, I did ALL of that today 😭

currently thinking about all the fics I could be writing instead of my research paper that is due in 11 hours, that I haven't even started 💀😭

HEAR ME OUT yk how Harry has that calm "dream with me" bedtime story? well, I propose he makes a "run with me" where he shares his running playlist songs and occasionally talks and shares encouragement. maybe it's just me but I could probably run a marathon if he was talking me though it 🤔🤷‍♀️

omg guys I passed my first pathophysiology test 🥳 ngl it was very hard but one step closer to being a DNP 🥹

omg y'all I went to get coffee and was talking about school with the barista (he asked if I was going to a nearby college and I told him I was getting my doctorate in nursing practice) and he was like ohh you're smart 😉 and I was like ajghfiauehgohargoaihorgihOih.... I try 🥹😊

Where is his onlyfans??? He promised 🤭

lowkey started running again and like I'm surprised at how happy it makes me 🤔 I wanted to run a marathon but ofc with school and work have not managed to make that happen yet 😔 but even just a few miles a day (because I am still in school & working) is really nice at the moment 🥹

I'm kinda trying to stay off social media, just with everything going on yk but I will say changing jobs is lowkey such a relief like yeah it's a little bit of a pain in my ass to get set up for a new job but overall it's a phenomenal relief I don't have to work this weekend.

it's september, which is fall to me, meaning it's time to re-read my beloved baby of a halloween fic 🥹 featuring enemies to lovers, a historical mystery, and soulmates in every sense of the term 💕🎃 archiveofourown.org/works/42781566 and maybe an iconic playlist 🤭 open.spotify.com/playlist/7py...

all I can think about this morning is the playlist for my (yet to be written) childhood best friends to lovers AU larry fic 🥹🥹🥹 open.spotify.com/playlist/2cj...

it's the way yesterday was my last day at my old job aka a very bittersweet moment 🥹

Your english teacher and your gym teacher are getting married🧨

I figured out that grad school is literally like starting over at college. you have a bachelor's degree? forget it, that no longer exists. I was 16 starting undergrad, I'm now 21 starting grad - a lot has changed & even the simplest assignments make me feel like an idiot who has NEVER been to school

my problem being I'm math & english smart (as opposed to math & science or english & history) but I'm in a scientific career. like writing a research paper? I got it. calculations & statistics? I can figure it out. but this fucking pathophysiology class is trying to end me 💀 it's so intimidating 😭

ignore me complaining about school & work I swear I'm grateful for both but also I find it kinda shitty when I go to my manager & be like hey I would like to work part time not full time since grad school is starting & she's just like no 🙄 so I end up getting another job, like that's her loss tbh 🤷‍♀️

here's my new objective for next week (after I work this weekend): do as much work as possible in a day for each of my classes. because who doesn't love a "do an entire semester of college with me in 24 hours tiktok" 😅 not that I will complete everything or make a tiktok but I see it as a challenge.

my babies 🥹 if you need a fic to read 😊💕 archiveofourown.org/works/40704369 archiveofourown.org/works/42781566

I am like three days into grad school and honestly what kind of fuckery is this? Like my brain is not working, it's somehow both harder and easier than I expected, I have no sense of urgency but also am anxious about it cause getting anything less than an 83% means you failed 😭 idk

okay but I just had to text my current manager that I accepted another job I'm going to cry and scream and panic 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 I'm so scared but like ugh she can't stop me from changing jobs

okay but there's this guy who works in my hospital coffee shop and I see him every friday when I work and last week the espresso machine was broken and he was like "I'll make you a smoothie, I feel bad" and I am shy asf and asexual but I lowkey wanna marry him. that was the best smoothie of my life.

time to bring this back 😂