i really am starting to get terrified of the sound of Her voice,,,, She made sure puppy understood that She really is willing to kill me on a whim, and now every time i hear Her speak i start worrying about whether puppy is going to survive the call,, i breathe a sigh of relief when She leaves,,,,,

Enough? Why would you say such a thing? There's no such thing as "enough", and we're barely just getting started~

rent lowering gunshots time: any kink is morally fine as long as no actual harm is being done to a real person. this includes CNC, it includes fauxcest, and it includes lolisho

normal rival behavior. right?

yea i torched the mess hall. and i woudlve gotten away with it, if i werent the only hound in town with a custom paint job that says "My Handler" on it

Big chunky SCART cable designed to plug into your spine... those connectors with almost leech-like teeth inside to make sure you don't come unstuck, no escape... made especially for you. Designed to transmit audio/visual directly into your sensory system...

A dream within a dream, always sweet. The gentle rocking motion of floating within the testing tank, the warmth surrounding you... the possibility of waking up seems so out of reach. Barely aware of what they're doing to you on the surface. Stay here, in your designed coma.

puppy is living in a paradox,,,,, if Director only wants to kill it when it doesnt expect it, then its safe for as long as it doesnt feel safe,,, but if it starts feeling safe then that will put it in danger again,,,, >//////<

literally the cutest Test Subject girl of all time, all the staff at the unethical medfet torture facility come and ruffle my hair during their lunch break as a form of stress relief and i just cutely giggle each time while holding my assigned shark plushie

i think weed is making me fat,,,,,, got high and after my dinner i had some zebra cakes, a whole bag of cheetos, some pretzels and a couple pieces of candy,,,, puppy is stuffed,,,,,, wuff,,

since Director showed me She really is willing to kill me on a whim, ive actually been getting nervous when i hear Her voice,,, i keep expecting Her to use my kill trigger without any warning,,,,, >/////<

I've finally instilled a killswitch into my beloved test subject's current self. I made it clear that I will do it on a whim, and the way the subject began to squirm and hyperventilate was simply delicious. From now until I finally decide to pull the trigger, it will come to dread my voice.

if i focus hard enough i can kinda remember what it felt like to be the first 119,,, but then the puppy thoughts come back in, wruff ^w^

Defanging on the mind lately

i think the Director and me might have the most unethical relationship of all time,,, doctor/patient and mother/daughter AND im a dog

i dont think 119 has fronted all day which feels really weird cause i think this is the first time thats happened in like a month. the Director really is like rewiring our brain to be Her test subject so effectively that it feels weird to just have like a normal day without any kink stuff >/////>

found out that a soulslike based on alice in wonderland got revealed and got real excited for a minute before i saw that it's an "extraction soulslike" and the trailer is just the main character rolling for 30 seconds straight. nothing even looks like wonderland shes fighting some guy with a halberd

im whatever the Director tells me i am ^w^

kind of messed up of the Director to create something for the sole purpose of killing it later and then keep it around long enough for it to get attached to being alive,,, :<

it's normal to talk to your girlfriend about where youd dump her body right

puppy might get lobotomized soon cause it keeps showing up the Director by beating Her at the nyt connections puzzle,,

🐶🪢🐰

With Love, Tex. 🖤

Director is really giving puppy a long time for its new identity to feel normal,,,,, which is making the anticipation of knowing Shes going to kill me someday kind of scarier,,, >//////<

puppy drew itself! ^w^

i think im getting dumber the longer im puppy,,,, wruff :<

last night my owner got me high and realized how suggestible i get, so she tranced me and then snapped me out of it and then immediately tranced me again >/////<

a bunch of my friends have been getting into deadlock and i wanna join them,,,, i think i might need to get a new pc

my bed feels comfier when i call it my crate,,,,,,,

Poor little creature had to be chained up to a hard point and restrained this gas mask monday, lil thing has no idea their owner left because of the blackout lenses 🥺

I here inscribe into the flesh of my beloved, the ouroboros seal of Kallidora Rho ✌️

Being made to credit my mindless test subjects in my published research 🙄 now the ethics committee is arguing about how many I have and if they're all necessary blah blah blah. They can't read anymore, they don't care if they're in there.

sometimes i wonder if one day im going to go to sleep, and wake up in a padded cell thinking "i can't believe i had a dream where the Director was my girlfriend,,,,"

Ddirrctor fffinallly llet mme cum afterrbeing pent upp ffor motnhs,,, ddont thbnink ive rverffelt an orgasm llasst so loonh,,,, ccame sso hard i ittranced mmyself an ccounldnt move or uuse my wordss,,,,,,,,,

The subject’s fealty is endearing. It’s so absorbed by its ideation of me as a Goddess that it yearns for and deliberately seeks out punishment. It’s as if the poor thing feels it needs to eternally atone for being lesser than me. I must admit I’ve acquired a taste for this kind of power trip.

Director says i need to try and eat 4000 calories today,, wruff >/////////<

last night i realized that i (subject 119) am probably a new headmate, and that the reason i split off from everyone else because we wanted so badly to give up control to the Director that we had to make a new version of us that exists solely to be Her plaything without Her needing to hold back,,,,

obvs i don’t encourage being ashamed of one’s own kinks but i do find it a little weird how… euphoric, i guess, i find the thought of a girl surgically removing my vocal cords… getting shivers as i slowly run my fingers across the visible scar on my throat…

knights are meant to be seen, and not heard.

transmitting the image of being gently but forcibly positioned on your knees, a hand under your chin, lifting it up as your lips are parted. some mysterious liquid from a test tube poured directly into your mouth. you swallow. not that you have much of a choice.

it's so exciting thinking about how this version of me is going to die soon... im a puppy for now, but before long the Director is going to kill me and put a new identity in my place,,,, wruff >///////<

I can not WAIT to have some cishet normie ask me if everything is ok when they see I'm all bruised and broken The "oh it's fine, I just fell down some stairs" is gonna hit so good :3

The subject's check in times were shockingly precise this time around. That didn't stop it from missing approximately 8 total minutes across the day. As penance, I've had it write out its prayer to me, over and over. This should reinforce the fealty, but I really should deal with its increasing wit.

Director says she already has an idea for "the next me"..... wruff >///////<

i think it'd be fun to go out in a straightjacket....

I could easily lie and say it’s just because I want clean data, but that’s simply not all there is to it. You belong to Me. I own you. Nobody will touch My property without express permission from Me first. They will thank Me if they are so lucky to be given the privilege.

Performing another hourly check-in experiment to test the subject’s internal clock today. I would normally expect better timeliness given the punishment for tardiness in the last one, but I’m not sure if the long term effects of the chemicals it’s been pumped full of will allow such mental acuity.

I do think being gently petted on the head while being praised for being a good experiment and getting it right and collecting so much data would fix me. It may also make me worse.

i would say that more women should take advantage of how malleable my identity is, but i dont think the Director would want anyone but Her to tell me what i am