had a dream there was a canned cocktail called Shinjuku Gold that was pocari sweat, alcohol [beer], and nicotine

a blather round game with custom answers would go hard

in fairness I'm not even crashing out about something online today and I do that much less now that they gave me birth control I'm just sad

having depression is fun because you get smacked in the face with the reality of it in the "share something positive from this week" portion of the weekly meeting

i don't think I've seen an evangelion drag look and I'm begging someone to fucking do it

not my gay ass logging into a work meeting and seeing someone's camera pop up from another team and my first thought is just "daddy???" 😮‍💨😩

i keep reading AuDHD as Gold ADHD and I'm like there's ranks???

does anyone else who works from home still hide in the bathroom to escape responsibility

i wish my every day was Hairy Men 😉

hair growth from early 2024 - late 2024 - now

i swear to god a requirement to rent an Escalade is to be a horrible fucking driver

passing win: someone doesn't know you're trans so they give you the Homophobic Stare

was talking to someone a few weeks back who was like "yeah I've never had a panic attack" and I kinda thought having at least one panic attack was a universal experience

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>into bears >not into chubby/obese (their words) look i can somewhat get what they're looking for here but I'm also terribly confused

you know what day it is

columbusites only but every time I see that ketamine billboard off 5th and highland I get so confused for a second

"but you can cuddle for warmth!" the point here is what happens when you aren't cuddling anymore? if you both lie on your side there is a gap where the cold air gets in the bed

remind me tomorrow to illustrate why sharing a bed in the colder months sucks

i feel like i don't see anyone who looks like me celebrated or seen as attractive and don't even get me started on feeling like they are if they're cis lmao

i don't think people who have never struggled with their weight and feeling like they don't fit the traditionally attractive mold understand how much it fucking sucks and wrecks your self esteem

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bear in the bear costume

in falling for advertising news: watching maple leafs game, maple leafs have oreo logo on helmet, helmet is oreo box color i go buy oreos

drunk, tired, needing to pee, and a little sad far from home which is a bad combo

gearing up for trick-or-treating 👻🎃

one of those nights where a combo of internalized transphobia and discomfort with my weight is doing a number on my ability to have positive thoughts

realizing how "I need a 3 way NOW" could be easily misconstrued

vacation is going great so far it's 2am ohio time, it is hours past my bedtime, and im on some random ass LA highway DESPERATELY craving skyline chili so bad

saw some guy jogging this morning in just shorts and it's 45f outside your skin is a shade of red that should be mildly concerning put a fuckin shirt on

i say this jokingly but that cold fuckin saline they put in you when you get done donating plasma would probably fix me right now

also why does it feel so weird to call cats good boy? is it because they're constantly Not Doing That

the "did you fuck up a trans/nonbinary persons pronouns" flowchart is literally so simple to follow and yet people continually keep adding steps that aren't on there

either that or I'm VERY dehydrated and they put some sort of special sauce in the pipeline punch monster

may be a touch of anxiety too but everything feels like moving through molasses

i love eating food and then still feeling so hungry like I haven't ate in days to the point I genuinely cannot concentrate on work and process how to put together something

also seeing pre transition pics while opening my camera roll to find something else feels like being flashbanged fr

got home late and my cat ran to her bowl so fast she did a sick drift on the luxury vinyl plank

"your take is kinda dogshit and reductive" "but why" "uhhh vibes"

i hate when I have a problem with something and can't fully articulate why

as the lone Summer Loving Freak amongst most people I know I forgot how miserable it is to airdry my hair when it's not summer as I don't keep my heater super high (it's not on yet either) I'm so cold....

digimon fan who's never heard of a werewolf watching horror movies: oh my god he's turning into some sort of WereGarurumon

tells someone I'm only interested in people over 25 "i got everything a 25 year old got" this is how i know I'm not interested only 18 year olds say this shit

normal people don't think if they wear something hot out to a bar they're going to repulse people by forcing them to look at them