Also all hail @nedraggett.bsky.social and @steve4s.bsky.social for having my back here, made me cry.

Fuckin hell they really turned the internet back on. Hello friends, currently heavily medicated and can't and don't want to talk much. a few emails 100% i got to to answer alive but not ok. Will get back to most of you as soon as all types of ideation settles down. Fuck Israel Fuck the US. 🇮🇷

I'm alive but just by dumb luck, i'm connected by sheer chance, will get diconnected soon probably, saw death 2 times in one day, it's hell now in this city, dont know if i will live another day. Don't know what type of person i'll be if i make it.

Pahlvai shut the fuck up you American puppet, at least shut your mouth when two foreign courtiers are bombing our country

lol

So, “people of Iran, stay indoors, it’s dangerous out there, there will be bombs falling all over” and at the same time “come out and take over the government, this will be your only chance”? Who writes these things for him?

Fuck the USA fuck Israel

Many missile hit a lot of places, the internet might go down, kno that our blood is on every trump supporter republican and zionist hands among you.

At least 8 explosions around us

They are hitiing everywhere around us fuck

It sounded like a missile hit something

I planned to do a underground no promo show in June (after 8-9 years of not playing in Iran), then the war broke out. Now the same people got in touch, this time we said we'll wait to see if there's going to be an attack soon, otherwise we're doing it.

I stand by this. racist, bigoted, mysogenist and violent, these are true traitors to ideals of freedom and equality, and traitors to their own country by calling for a american invasion. the worst of the worst. Don't let them monopolozie the voices of dissent, they are not the majority.

The pressure is bending my mind in the most unpleasant ways, too afraid to sleep

some Iranians posting the video from first night these murderers attacked iraq, horrifying images etched in my mind for more than 20 years. now I'm having nightmares every night of the same explosions, waking up checking if Tehran's the same. fuck the US fuck the IR for letting things get here.

Looks like most news outlets are saying there's a big chance of attack this weekend, the thought of what it might be like paralyzes my body.

these are two of the clowns who have biggest fucking fleet of ships, jets and various missiles at our throats. Nothing's gonna go wrong I'm sure

you wake up everyday, to half of news agencies saying there's immanent war and other half saying the talks are going well, meanwhile the two governments are shouting threats while giving hopes of peace, I just get tired by 2pm and want to call it a day and sleep, not joking, it's exhausting.

GRM atelier for windows YEEEESSSS

all good albums start from spreadsheets

oh the joys of coordinating 4 releases in one year, forgot how it was lol, probably endup releasining all 4 in one day for the heck of it

from the data I've listened to The Armed, Vainio, Brahms, Josquin the most last year. I'm still on that the armed album though, I wish I played in that band. damn

there's a point in making recent albums that I think I can't mae this one with this fucking laptop and 2-3 software i've used for a decade, I need this thing I need that thing why can't I go to ems lol and after a week I just decide to continue with max the free vcv and Ableton 10.1.

So they held a iranian version of maga rally called for milllitary intervention, lindsay graham gave a speech, none of these people live here, why should iranian fascists living abroad have any say on anything? Let alone a country they don't live in or plan to live in. Clowns.

people (family and friends mostly) are saying we should prepare for talks failing, things going to shit. you know pack a bag have food for the road that sort of shit, but I'm too numb like the 12 day war which we moved out of tehran the last 3 days. In my mind I'm under water & non of this is real

The most ridiculous cowardly people these days are iranian monarchists abroad asking trump to so strike iran. Just cowardice personified.

That's after 12 days of straight bombing by Israel and a massacre of your own people by the said ruling system. There's no mercy in anyone of these people's hearts for anyone living here, we're being held hostage by both sides

it's a very weird feeling that you're trapped in your country by an oppressive, illogical, corrupt ruling system, on the other side of it the worlds largest fleet of ships and planes owned by the world most violent army & corrupt ruling system, building up & heading towards you.

didn't know Wenders was one of "those" German fuckheads, what a shame.

Looks like the orange fuckface is going to decide when to attack or not in the coming 3 days, doesn't look good frankly.

after complaining for 2 months, a change? got a good connection that seems to be holding strong on my laptop only, cost me an arm and a leg but ain't complaining, also got 2027 releases on lock and got started on something good, thanks to Terre Thaemlitz & Markus Schmickler's music. Back on track!

It's #bandcampfriday for 11 more hours, and I got myself a little treat! Something by @capgrasman.bsky.social, drew mcdowall and 3 from @activedarkfilament.bsky.social to round out my collection.

when I say I get lucky and get connected I mean I've spent money on 200 paid servers + around 6000k free servers I've gathered through GitHub and whatnot daily, test all of them. one might connect like now, the numbers on the picture are the number free servers I tested today.

Out of sheer luck got connected to a vpn, everything i use stopped workig yesterday evening, this will probably will disconnect too, gmail works fine without vpn, so if anyone needs to reach me, just email.

Bunch of new music some exclusive coming this year, check the post out www.patreon.com/posts/2026-1...

finally got into patreon

Everyday i have to drag myself out of a mental paralysis unknown to me untill this year. Guess this is becoming the new baseline, getting very good at hiding it too. I'm tired of being out of options, but i guess it's not a good time for that. Mental paralysis it is.

dropbox has started working again, hoping for better and more access to theses apps and websites that are vital for everyone who freelances here.

2 albums on excellent labels and 2 mini-albums exclusive to Patreon. All of them made and ready to go.

if you ever thought how can I help this po0r fucker and get 4 of his albums for it. from the lastt month's payment my friend sent me it looks like I lost some money while I couldn't update.

Friends I haven't been able to access my Patreon with my current vpns, they won't let me in. I have to releases coming this year on Room40 & American Dreams Records, There will be a mini album Patreon exclusive roughly a month after each release.

looks things are decided, I feel paralyzed I don't know what to get ready for, just sitting here feeling dizzy.

This orange dumb fuck is gonna set fire to the whole region.

My mind goes from deep sadness from all the recent killings to extreme anxiety for the future and war.

I've lost two of the ways to bring my money to iran. hardly earned connection are now just gone. so tired of this, got to find another way with this half assed internet connection and threat of war. lovely living situation ( just venting )

back from the fucking dark again, the shit was out for 2 whole days!

everybody who you talk to has someone who was shot dead or wounded, the sadness is too much to bear.

this is the state of things, also the fastest in 17 days.

The cruelty and the violence the Iranians are facing is just unbearable, how the fuck you shoot your unarmed young country men like that? there's no compassion, aren't you living here? aren't your family going through the same thing? I don't care about politics here, how does a human do that?

I feel like a fucking pebble at the bottom of the ocean, drowned and unable to move. breathing brine forever.