Maybe there just isn't a way back from these feelings anymore.

Sorry about the radio silence, a recent event caused me to have a complete meltdown. I punched a wall so hard I lost feeling in 2 of my fingers temporarily. I uninstalled all social media and messaging apps and went dark for a few weeks. Still not sure where I'm at mentally, but I'm not dead.

Back to Persona 3 today! Was meant to be yesterday, apologies, racc's demons won yesterday. Come run with us! www.twitch.tv/RuffyRaccoon

After a huuuuge long weekend of charity fundraising, it's time for us to get back to the bayou and continue unravelling this mystery. Spoopy month continues with more Resident Evil 7! Come run with us! www.twitch.tv/RuffyRaccoon

Fastest Furs Fall Fest 2025 has concluded with a total of $17,610 raised for @translifeline.org ! Thank you to everyone who joined us this past weekend and we hope to see you again soon! Keep on being awesome and remember - Trans Rights are Human Rights!!! 🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️ #FallFest2025

Come run with us frens, it's zoomies time! See you in chat :3

Gosh I'm still super missing everyone at BFC. I feel like we barely got done introducing ourselves and then it was over, and that was to both the people I just met *and* the people I've known online forever. Wish I got to hang out with so many of you, I wanna meet even more people next time!

Ruffy and the Massive Baba.

Does Ruffy still remember how to bass? Probably not, but gonna offend your ears with it anyway. Little de-rust in Rocksmith, gotta get back to more regular playing demmit. Come run with us! www.twitch.tv/RuffyRaccoon

It's Christmas time! ....In Persona! Nothing ever goes bad at Christmas, I'm sure it'll be fiiiiiiiine. Come run with us! www.twitch.tv/RuffyRaccoon

Yoooo free ruffy beans.

Silly doodle from during Ruffy stream

Back to the Baker Residence today for more Evil Residents or something. Also let's kick of Fastest Furs Fall Fest early with some donos to Trans Lifeline! (!donate in chat ((when the link is live)).) Come run with us! www.twitch.tv/RuffyRaccoon

BDF? P3R? Fursona 3 Friday! Jumping back into Persona today for a chill(?) Friday! Come run with us! www.twitch.tv/RuffyRaccoon

What?! No one ever said I had to be *nice* to my sitters?! Thank you Twiggy for the silly doodle while we were streaming Resi 7 yesterday xD #ABDL

Yesterday was a streaming write off but I think I've managed to cobble *something* together today. Maybe now we can start spoopy month, and Resident Evil 7. Go tell Aunt Rhody that purple racc is dead! Come run with us! www.twitch.tv/RuffyRaccoon

I tested *everything* yesterday, and now out of the blue, OBS is causing me to get some weird crunchy audio through my headphones. No stream today either I guess.

900+ Campers • 150+ Volunteers • 200+ Events (including our first-ever musical!) 🎶 • 10k+ Trading Post tickets • 2 Marriages 💍 • 180+ Merit Badges (22k printed!) • 1200+ Photos 📸 • 17 Sponsors • $17k+ raised for PACI 💖 📽️ Recap: youtu.be/GQjruWMx1yg Thanks for making Camp BFC: Double Up so special!

What is the pooooint of having a job if they just take your shifts away from you for no real reason. 0 hour contracts are so garbage ughhhhh. I guess we'll be back to streaming tomorrow then, I'm not gonna get all beggy but I got a lot of money I need to claw back. See you tomorrow friends. 💜🦝

🏁 TIME 🏁 #UKSGBlue2025 is now officially over and we can now confirm that the grand total raised for @crisis-uk.bsky.social is ... £6753! Thank you all once again for your amazing genorosity and support. Without you, this marathon wouldn't be possible 💙

How it feels as a moderator watching a collab

Sorry frens, hate to cancel stream today but having some OBS issues and don't have the spoons to deal with it right now. This does sadly mean next stream won't be until this time next week, due to work and UKSG this weekend. We'll be starting Resident Evil 7 for spoopy month! See you then! 💜🦝

We done did a Starter Pack for the members of the Little Space stream team. go.bsky.app/4RqetZf

Think it might be a full moon again, crazy how time flies~ You guessed it, it's more Persona 3! Come run with us! www.twitch.tv/RuffyRaccoon

Live with Chase n Rad over on Chase's channel, check it out below!

Gonna take my regular stream time to try and digest what I've learned today, but we'll still be live with raccs later, go see!

Between BFC and the ASD psychoeducation group I'm part of I think I've been learning much more about my own autism, had a few realizations that have definitely opened my eyes. Maybe these are the first steps in healing a lifetime of pretending I'm someone else. Feeling hopeful, but ugh, my head.

It's true what they say about cons and never being able to meet and hang out with everyone you want to, but next year I really gotta try a bit harder to get around to more people. And gosh dammit I am still eager to volunteer, I was super limited in what I could do this year and I wanna change that

Ruh roh 👀

Think I left my heart somewhere in California, if you find it lemme know, yeah? Back to streams and back to school, Persona 3 rolls on. Come run with us! www.twitch.tv/RuffyRaccoon

We done did a Starter Pack for the members of the Little Space stream team. go.bsky.app/4RqetZf

Today we're sharing memories of my first Babyfur Con! I travelled from London all the way to California to attend my first fur con and invite you to come share your memories and experiences! Come reminisce with us! www.twitch.tv/RuffyRaccoon

Ya'll need to stop opening commissions when I have no money, (For real though I hope you make a bajillion dollars and I *will* get you one day)

Okay, gonna do the big BFC recap stream tomorrow, probably around 2pm BST. Come along to share your experiences from the con, or just to find out what it's like if you haven't been before. :D

Well I just slept like the dead for like 12+ hours and my body is still straining to do anything. This whole travelling across 8 timezones thing really takes it's toll on the body haha. I want to streeeeeeam but I also want to cryyyyy and my body wants to resssssst hnnnngh.

Finally home from BFC and oh boy what a heccin' time. Will yap about it on stream tomorrow or over the weekend if anyone's interested! Needless to say my heart is overflowing with joy and I can't wait to see you all again soon, and to meet those I missed! For now, rest.

It's really hard still being here after everyone's gone. All these empty corridors and rooms where there was so much joy. Still won't be home until Thursday and I'm just ready to get going. Gotta try and make this a regular thing... Hecc.

Bluh, first full day of the con and I've just felt stuffy and sick all day, not been able to eat or sleep it off. Really hope things are better tomorrow. Dunno if this is jet lag or something more. Super upsetting.

Also good morrrrrrrrrrning California! \o/

Being in a wildly different timezone to my own is heccin' weird feeling but I *think* I got a full night's sleep? xD

Sorry everyone, twas my intention to do one more stream before I left for Cali but my car was conveniently ready for me to pick up so had to go grab it, still needs more work done though, rarrrrrrrr! Streams will resume once I'm home from Cali,will see you all next week. 💜🦝

Operation: Pack for camp is go!

Along with this badge you'll find this one around my neck at BFC! You probably won't be able to make use of the QR code because 🟥 but it's also NFC enabled, you can tap it with your phone to find my streams/socials stuff! :>

Back on that Space Marine 2 thang today! Duty never ends for the emperor's littlest champion. Come run with us! www.twitch.tv/RuffyRaccoon

If you are encountering this kind of unprofessional behavior from artists, you need to HOLD THEM ACCOUNTABLE. When you proudly announce (usually meaning to extol your own virtue of patience) on social media "oh, I've waited 3+ years for commissions before!" you are contributing to the problem.

Today is the launch of year 2 for Space Marine 2, starting with patch 10! I was always the emperor's little champion~ Come run with us! www.twitch.tv/RuffyRaccoon

Is this about to be anime beach episode 2? We back on that Persona 3 thing! Come run with us! www.twitch.tv/RuffyRaccoon

One month is all it took and she's already being hauled off lmao

Car has gone from 'Battery flat, won't even start' to 'I cannot even manually unlock the car anymore' despite boyfren's best efforts. Can't even get in it, I sure hope the dealer I bought it from has a good answer for this because I'm stumped.