Oh shit just saw the news about James Van Der Beek 😔😔

Date went well, the guy is very cute and handsome, no red flags so far 😅 similar taste and interests and he was actually nice enough to pay for dinner and the drinks 🙌 he asked if he can see me again so will see how things go

Been asked on a date tomorrow holy fuck 😂 I really like the guy but it's a mere week after the breakup so maybe I should wait? Or is there no harm in seeing if we have chemistry and get on in person and can always take it slow after?

Doesn't give me the basic respect to respond to my messages (after I checked with them first if they wanted to hear my thoughts and they said of course), but stalks my insta and views my stories even after I removed them as a follower 👍🏻 make it make sense.

Speed chess championship final's happening atm in London, Magnus being interviewed after a game, and he goes "maybe the audience can cheer for my moves too, not only his" 😂 I love him

Queen of Chess documentary on Netflix about Judit Polgar here we go ❤️👑

Stumbled upon Corey Taylor's acoustic London gig from years ago so I watched it all tonight and fuck he's so hot (and raw and a brat but also sweet and gentle??) and he sounds so good singing ballads and covers, my teenage crush might be resurfacing

Why do I miss someone who was a complete dick with me wtf is wrong with me 😭

Guy with half naked pics and photos of his Mercedes on his dating profile messaged me with "you look good 😈 xxx" Tempted to reply back with "your car looks good" 😅

I've been seeing different versions and recreations of the fold in the cheese scene from Schitt's Creek on insta lately, and it will never stop being funny. Peak comedy.

I have no words-

Not Catherine O'Hara pleeeease not her??? 😭😭😭😭

The awkward moment when you start texting and making plans with your ex more than with your current partner.... 😬

Isn't it cute that "HR" as in #HeatedRivalry can also stand for Hollander+Rozanov

Watched Wicked for Good with a friend last night and I was told that Hannah Waddingham also auditioned for the role of Madame Morrible? No offense to Michelle Yeoh but we've been ROBBED big time. That character doesn't suit Yeoh at all but omg can you imagine Hannah being a cunty queen, slay so hard

Ok but fr I am obsessed with the idea of Ed with bangs

My best friend got engaged over the weekend, I am sooo excited and happy for them 🥹🥹 she deserves it so much after all the bad luck she used to have with dickhead boyfriends

Best of both worlds.

HOLD ON *the* song from Heated Rivalry is finally on Spotify and no one told me????

You are loved You are love

Looks like I'll need to break up with bartender so that's great 🙃 Never before had a relationship go from amazing to shit this quickly but it's like they've stopped putting in any effort since we made it official, the things they've promised before hasn't happened, the dynamics are all off,

Today's mood is very much Ed in the gravy basket and during This woman's work, except I'm not sure I deserve my mermaid who's trying to save me 🙃🙃

Can you tell I like to travel 🙈

We binge watched both seasons of OFMD over the past 2 days and bartender loved it and seemed very invested. It was also great to see my gay pirates again from start to finish and then be able to chat with someone about the cons and fan campaigns and DJ's xmas story 🥰

THEY JUST SAID THEY LOVE ME AND WE'RE OFFICIALLY TOGETHER I MIGHT DIE ASDFHHJKL

I'm picking up bartender from work and they offered me a drink so I was like why not... asked them if they're closed or still have customers in cos I'm in comfy clothes, not dressed nicely and they go "you're the most beautiful human to me. You don't need to be dressed nicely" I might have choked🫠

As I was brushing my teeth last night, bartender grabbed my guitar, walked up to me and went "your electric toothbrush is in G, listen" and started playing the same note 🥲 absolute dork, I cannot deal with how cute they are.

Bartender got off work around 11.45pm last night so they got to mine at a minute to midnight, they ran to kiss me while the fireworks were going off and we kept kissing on the street until the new year arrived 🥹 How did my love life get better than any romantic fiction I could ever come up with 🥲

Cannot get over the amount of chemistry/sexual tension with bartender 😫 it's literally torture, I've only ever felt this intensely once before and I don't understand how it's even possible. They barely need to touch my arm and I'm done 🫠

Back in England 🙌 Rather grateful for the 5 degree weather after freezing my ass off in -4 last night 🥲

Early morning, heading to the airport after about 2-3 hrs of sleep. Bartender is already awake for some reason... "can't sleep, I'll get more sleep when you're on the plane" 🥹 they don't need to stay awake with me until I board the plane? I mean I love being able to talk to them but ?? Sleep omg pls

Finally seeing bartender again tomorrow 🥹🥰 Finished the year/my visit back home strong with 2 gigs, time spent with friends, lots of mulled wine and even more food. Now I can't wait to get back and celebrate the new year with them 🥺

Got my guitar out after months of not playing and I was quickly reminded of how difficult it is to play with long nails 😅 oops Maybe bartender being a musician will be motivation enough for me to start practicing/learning again because they're so damn good I'm very jealous

#HeatedRivalry Uhhh the parents' reaction?? Why can't they just be happy their son is in love??

Oh my lord that sheep movie with Rhys is going straight on my watchlist how cute??? 😫😫

Watched I Swear, what an incredible film ❤️ important storytelling, loved the performances, and omg the mother figure 💕💕

#Pluribus I love that Carol and Manousos are the same level of stubborn 😂

Survived the big xmas family gathering today, only small amounts of sexism and judgmental comments so better than the average. Been texting with bartender all day which significantly improved my mood. Can't wait to see them again. 🥹

Made my parents aware that I'm STILL working today so would appreciate if they could keep the xmas prep noise to a minimum... So far they've been: Cutting the fucking tree with an electric saw, shouting, hoovering, asking me to help bring the xmas decor downstairs WHILE I'm trying to have lunch...

Bartender just casually referred to me as their partner ...... Permission to freak out?? I didn't know we were partners? Omgomgomg

For someone who's supposed to be into arts and crafts, wrapping gifts sure stresses me tf out 😮‍💨

Chris Rea?? 😢😢

Please tell me the new Knives Out movie gets interesting at some point because it starts off boring af?

Bartender is doing a 12.5 hr shift today on 3 hours of sleep because they stayed up talking to me past 4am 😭 I asked them why they didn't tell me to leave them alone so they could sleep... "I wanted to talk to you" Insane behaviour

The other day bartender half seriously told me they were planning what "our house" would look like, we'd have an art studio for me and a music studio for them, a fireplace, big garden etc.... And now they just went "I want loads of guitars in our house btw, hope that's okay" 😂 ?? 🥲

HOW GOOD is the new Heated Rivalry ep omfg *internal screaming*

"All the brains in the world and you can't navigate a fucking pronoun" I love her so much 😂😂 #Pluribus

Didn't think that Carol could get any more attractive but then she started rambling and revealed that she plays chess?! 💍😍 #Pluribus