I'm alive but can't be on this site anymore because of someone. I will keep my account active for the time being for messages but this has been a long time coming

I can only hold this knife to my throat for so long before it "slips"

I think I might kill myself

i love paramore

Joe Gatto looks like an old Dean Winchester

Android is so much better than apple ohmygod I missed this

I’m only gonna have close friends be able to contact me on my main phone now, the new android one, and have this one (iPhone) be for family and stuff I don’t wanna reply to right away. WhatsApp and bsky and phone number go on the new phone and everything else stays on old

Switching from Apple back to android after 10 years has me feeling old so I’m sorry to my friends if my phone number is broken for the next hour, I promise I’m alive and not trying to ignore you lol. I actually can’t tell if I transferred the E-Sim correctly cause none of my contacts transferred

I can’t do this I’m so fucking overwhelmed right now and losing my mind

Some of us didn't get a support system. We got a figure it the fck out system.

Woke up with so much fucking anxiety. Im frozen yet shaking and I can’t communicate it to anyone cause of overthinking and I just want to be held and cry

I love zelda games

3am panic attacks are keeping me awake

I hate this society with a burning passion

After trump inevitably dies now that we are cutting off his supply of infant blood, can we please elect a woman in her 40s to run the country? No more 75+ year old men. This has not ended well

Can’t sleep literally throwing up from anxiety

I hate myself I feel like a horrible person

I’m sad. I wanna cry

Having kind of a rough night again but I am not going through last night again. I think I’m just manic

Me Credit: the_flaming_sea on insta

“Case closed, proof of delivery provided” and its a png that says “Insert Photo” and has my address listed and “At UPS Pickup Location, Hobby Lobby” MF I DONT LIVE AT A HOBBY LOBBY

I’ve smoked everything from PCP to Crack but the one thing that genuinely makes me want to puke when smoking is Kool green cigs… literally the worst cigs in existence or maybe it’s just that I associate them with when I was binge drinking but I will take any other cigs that kool green 100s

I used to like some of fat nicks music until he started a podcast and proved he has the brain capacity of a dried raisin

Hey so now 2 of my UPS packages have been stolen by the delivery drivers in a month… 1st package was worth $400, 2nd one worth $250… I will be taking legal action

We need to stop fighting eachother and fight the people pinning us against eachother. The enemy isn’t your neighbor who has a different world view or political view, if they simply have those views because of different experiences. That’s called being able to have a discussion like an adult

Things that don’t exist that we made up to fight over: Gender Religion Borders Money AND A WHOLE LOT FUCKING MORE Live and let live, and if you don’t agree, fuck off and die

Kills you with gun

4am burger and milkshake cause I haven’t eaten and deserve it after tonight

I feel like I’m going fucking crazy laying here trying to sleep I need to get up and smoke and listen to music or watch something for awhile. I’m very not ok right now

I can’t sleep at all. My mind is fucking racing because more than half the conspiracy theories I thought was crazy 10 years ago are more true than I ever could imagine

I may be unstable but at least I’ll never be as unstable as that absolute loser who almost ruined my life last year if I had let them. If someone asked me to describe them in 3 words I’d use psychotic, loser, and cunt. Honorable mention to another 3 words I’d use, waste of oxygen

Just an FYI to everyone, there is nothing you could ever say or provide to ever make me trust another medical professional again. I’ve literally been sent to the emergency room because of the shit these people have said would heal me, and then kicked out because I don’t have insurance. Fuck you

It’s also the fact that there is no consistency to what is taught around the world as far as treatment for mental health conditions. Some places not only are relying on outdated data, but some newer studies and publications from other places directly contradict others. Why would I trust any of that

Conspiracy theory I actually am starting to believe is that not all, but a lot of the medication used especially on young children, but also adults that are seeking help for mental health conditions, those medications are silencing natural reactions to a society humans are not meant for

I should not be on max doses of SSRI’s Antipsychotic’s, plus lithium, and have all that switched around every few months just hoping something will click. This shit has been killing me. I’m 24 and have coughed up blood multiple times, gained and lost 30+ pounds in a month multiple times,

Yeah ok I’m absolutely dropping my medication and drs/psychiatrists after recent discoveries, and revelations. I never once trusted any of this shit before, and got talked into seeking professional help by friends

Ive restarted my caffeine addiction

a gym, but for stoners

Sealing the blunt with my tears

This album was my highschool soundtrack open.spotify.com/album/5ddpf5...

Holy shit I miss playing drums and guitar. I neeeeed to get my electric guitar and pedal board back from my brother and I neeeeed to save up for another good electric drum kit