I'm also scared that I make people I love feel bad because I feel bad

God I fucking hate being anxious af without having any reason to be, how tf does one turn off their fucking head?

Okay wait So police (only on Berlin I think) can now just enter people's home and install spy shit to hear what you say? And just do that when your either not there or asleep? Like straight up break in and sneak around?? Oh and german military just goes to Christmas markets ARMED???

Wish I could be in someone's arms rn. Someone I fully trust and feel safe and loved around. I have absolutely no energy left and only run on autopilot and have no idea how tf I didn't break down yet. Everyday so many people talk with me, text with me etc and I just need a break.

I can't wait to move out someday and break contact with 90% of my family.

We're the self destructive youth of a world that has fucked us over and gaslights us that it's our own fault that they've messed up, while ignoring that is was them, their greed that is really burning us down

There should be no first and second classes in trains.

ALG2 wurde abgelehnt, begründung: Ich hätte Unterlagen nicht nachgewiesen. (Es waren alles Unterlagen die ich entweder abgegeben habe, nicht nachweisen kann, oder von denen mir nie erzählt wurde) Joa, jetzt hoffen dad BAföG klappt....meh (Yay noch 3€ Bar und 2€ auf dem Konto :D)

I wish I could erase my memory

Graahhhh hate overthinking

Fucking hate capitalism *has literally no money again*

It's still free Palestine in case you forgot

I wish I could stop to invest in politics, but I can't. It's too important. It's too fucked up. The worst thing is, here in Germany we could do things against our current state. But we refuse to. Because we are too lazy. Too pessimistic. We think it wouldn't work, so we bend over for our state.

Das war btw eine Antwort darauf, nachdem er nach meiner biographie hören wollte, also ich von meiner Vergangenheit bis dahin erzählen sollte. Ich hab mich nicht zurück gehalten und alles gesagt. Von meinem Trauma, meine familiären Situation und meiner derzeitigen Beziehung.

"Herr Simon....wie kann es sein das sie immer noch da sind?" Genau das hat mir mein Paychiater letztes Jahr in der Klinik gesagt, seit ein paar Tagen denke ich über seine Aussage wieder nach. Und tbh ich hab bis heute immer noch keine wirkliche Antwort drauf, aber iwie funktioniert ja, oder?

Fuck patriotism

It's btw completely valid to use physical violence against fascists imo

It's so fucking insane how much our world normalised being a fascist, to just hate minorities (literally for existing??), but then again it's "too extreme" to stand for basic human rights??? It would be genuinely funny if it wasn't so terrifying

For some reason I really have the urge to drink again and I have absolutely no idea why (No, I'm not gonna do it btw)

I hate intrusive thoughts and following intrusive actions

Gooooood I hate Why tf do I OUT OF NOWHERE get curious and look up my exes insta? Just to see that that fucking bitch is getting successful with their art??? While I'm sitting here, haven't touched my drawing pad in MONTHS because I lack energy???? Fucking hell this world is unfair

Aight, I think im doing a bit better now

I'm just an irrational mess

I feel so weird since yesterday and idfk why. Just so anxious.

I miss my partners qwq

Had a pretty good day, but for some fucking reason my mood is going downhill again and idfk why

Istg as soon as I move out I'll go full vegetarian. (Before someone asks, I can't really do that rn at home because of my family, too complicatedto exolain why exactly)

It's pretty cool to have some motivation to sew again

Maybe unpopular opinion, but I think health care, food and shelter should be a basic human right and free.

Fuck this society, I wanna live in a anarcho-communistic community

I will never be afraid to show and say what I stand for. And no one will ever make me shut up.

Remember kids: Fascism, Nationalism, racism and ableism is bad But punching your local nazi is fine, based and cool :D

I really wanna know if anyone of my friends has contact with my ex gf and if yes, she ever told them about me and what

Btw, no, I don't wanna get money from anyone of you, even I'd its nice that that some already offered to help me out. I don't wanna be in debt by anyone, or just take the money.

God I'm about to burn down the fucking jobcenter, fucking do your shit ass job and finally give me the money I need to fucking live. They send so many letters with the most random questions that I don't even really know how to answer properly, with 1 week time to answer at best.

Fucking hell, why are some people so FUCKING stupid??? Like, tf you expect from me when asking me the same question 87times with the same answer everytime???? And then also whining about little shit like "my legs so hairy, it grew so much back since 10+ days" tho there's basically nothing at all

My body feels so weak and exhausted

I'm just....so tired....my neck hurts, my hip hurts, my eyes are so heavy but no matter how much I sleep, I don't seem to get enough rest while the circles under my eyes get darker and darker

God I fucking hate that romanticism of abuse, sexual abuse and being taken advantage of/taking advantage of some one. It literally make me so sick, especially as some one, who literally was taken advantage of and has being sexually and psychologically abused.

It's so wild when people say "yea it's the antifas fault when they get beaten up by the police, they only do their job!!!" Like....bro tf is your problem? Tf did the amtifa do to you...well besides fight fascism, corruption and police brutality???

AAAAAAAAAAAAA Hate this weather so fuvking much, I feel so disgusting and ugly because I'm sweating so much

Me when my ex gf be like:

God I fucking hate being broke

God I wanna go out, demonstrate, riot, be loud

Aight, welcome everybody to my more personal account, here some infos about meeee: -21yo -Antifascist -Anarchist -Non binary and Pansexual -A lot of trauma -Strong Depressive episodes -Very political