when we were driving around the lot looking for a space i saw a couple on a bumper who was just one well placed line away from sucking each other's faces clean off and got me to thinking about how its silly that PDA is considered some kind of nuisance. More people should do that so i can take notes

if fate can have one trillion saberfaces i can keep fragmenting sendag into different aspects or whatever still kinda thinking about that Death Machine idea but the big sticking point is omega's human bits are all Pasty Amano Waif so i don't know how to reconcile with sendag being Not That

出かけてた、今日過ごしやすいね

thing that trips me up about trying to be Indulgent is how to not feel contrived i guess i do have a thing for the humour of that but i think about writing ot drawing or commissioning stuff and theres this threshold i think thats way too easy to cross where it ends up as Unga Sex Porn yanno

お昼もたべてのんびり

dumb idea i'm getting my balls clamped by work to draw anytime soon: sendag cuddling up with some because they're cold and the punchline is now that person is also cold so its awkward

Wrapped up in you 🐍 / commission

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vaguely ashamed to admit this is also why ive been thinking about sex pollen and similar kind of hentai nonsense to get through the will-they-or-wont-they bullshit but its also some 4d chess tomfoolery

really i just want gay shoujo romance stuff but everyone involved is dumb and everyone i follow in comm range are your usual coom connosseurs which just Ain't My Thing theres like 3 people i'd trust with them but the most obvious answer is also the most incriminating rrrrrrrrrrrr

ただいまである。

I think half of it is i keep drawing sendag as flustered blushy moeblob thing when at this point they're way more in the vein of someone trying to be as controlled and dignified as possible even through their flirting and teasing [since they operate on the assumption that its not reciprocated]

getting over my disdain for gdrives for refs and now thinking of putting together a nsfw one for exactly why you'd think but i think about that tumblr shitpost comparing widowmaker and tf2 sniper with like "if the character was designed to be sexy then they are not actually sexy" and I Feel A Way

on one hand i like the idea of matches' mannequin having barbie anatomy and when he's doing Lewd Things he just uses the snakes but i also like nipslips and the like too much so itd be lame to not commit fully either way still leaning to the former just for the "this aint right" flavour hmmmm

お布団潜るである。

ねーるよー

Sunday morning re-post! ...but it's about how drawing this artstyle gives me life. How it nourishes me, waters my crops, moisturizes my skin, hydrates my blood... 🥺 This is honestly the only kind of commission I'd legit be willing to do regularly on Vgen/Patreon for now... 🥲 #zweiart #zweinsfwart

used "romantic" as a descriptor in a skeb request i am beyond salvation

at least she's not having to deal with an obnoxious exosuit situation at the moment

おーはよー

I don't really get this meme

I feel a bit lame that my setting and a lot of ideas are similar frustrations of being Trapped in The System but are such that changing/breaking the system isnt really a warranted goal because my intention is there not to be any malice in it unlike the inspiration

thinking about one of the installations at the art institute gallery of a mosaic of polarized glass screens reflecting and magnifying everything except the thing looking at them

guys being dudes [adversarial] @sdmax300.bsky.social

おやすみである。

shout out to all my respectful gooners lmao

Sharing our virtues...

why am i still thinking about this like its a good idea

Finally, the second raffle prize is done, too - @melodygilman.bsky.social's lovely character Melody, absolutely slaying in her dancer outfit. Thank you for trusting me with your girl, she was so much fun to work on 🖤 #art

pocky day....

heehee

beautiful ☁️

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The fires of her passion were a worthy match for the weathered holy warrior.

The warlock and her sword husband recruited a paladin to balance out the party...

I guess if theres one thing "wish fulfillment" thing Sendag gets from me its the irresponsible side of the coin of always feeling out of place or unwanted or otherwise Weird i'm too scared ["responsible"] to let my wants endanger the delicate balances of everything around me so

thoughts plagued with how my mon found a pretty cheap hotel in nyc and thinking if i got my shit together for a minute i could probably manage it myself h

everyone always talks about friendslop games but no one ever talks about giving their friends sloppy 😔

車は危ないし今日はひきこもりだねー

Erm, maybe don't put a vibrating controller that close to your crotch like that #nsfw

thinking on it itd be really funny actually if once Moru resolves to travel across the rift over to xiv world or whatever so he goes with Brisant and once theyre plonked out on the other side Brisant just leaves him to his own devices not in a malicious way but like "aight have fun" kind of way

rolling around Morunin tagging along with Brisant and subsequently getting dragged along to his craftergather shenanigans after dealing with arkveld

Really wish i had it in me for a full hide-under-my-bed breakdown since time and again those directly closes to me like. dont ever take me seriously until things get to that point but i feel even that lessening its sway since any problems i'd have really are small in the scheme of things

i'm just overreacting again i've LITERALLY tried to kill myself over less i'll be fine everything's fine

i think the most embarassing part abput all of it is the barriers to justifying things i want are so steep it feels irresponsible craving the tiny fleeting corner of it. it feels like ruining my life for a chance that maybe i can sit next to someone who puts up with me for a few hours

goes without saying but i am thoroughly incapable of fantasizing anymore because of shit like this. maybe if i wasnt a stupid kid who didnt know better and did stupid kid things i could be normal but alas

look man if i have to be debilitatingly horny for a few more hours can there at least be some commitment and my doubts and fears and selfconsciousness can fucking chill also

i should also draw sendag enjoying themself one of these days