yeah this is tru and dumb and now i have therapy and i'm tired af from crying last night and melting down and feeling like i am going in circles with everything that has happened the last few years i really really hope that therapy is helpful and doesn't just turn me into a blob of sad

i am tired of being so alone i was less alone when i was by myself

quick hammy warmup #mzvart

so far today feels not as terrible, but we will see what happens as the day goes on. I slept till like noon, and probably took my meds like 45 min ago so lets see how this goes. I woke up feeling more positive and normal, which was a surprise, so i hope this doesn't fuck it up 🤞🙏

オグリキャップ…らくがき✏️ #ウマ娘

cute girl frotting moments #ayamiya #genshin

🩷Haman Karn🩷 #Gundam #ガンダム

Haman Karn #fanart #art #gundam

Bug girl Haman Karn #Gundam

yeah i need to do this 😤

Leina's Blood, Judau's Power #gundam #gundamzz #hamankarn

honestly i might be posting over here way more now because my brain is pretty fucked up from all the med changes people told me to do, and i am in like trauma land and feeling a ton of worthlessness and guilt over my sexuality so i haven't felt like doing much

my cat is absolutely livid that i closed the door so i could be alone in my shame and is now destroying a chair, which honestly is fair, i also feel like destroying a chair

Surely this is how besties hang out

not getting that pint of ice cream earlier was such a stupid move ;_; 🍨

idk what to do with myself. I don't feel like I'm healing and I feel like I'm backsliding in a lot of ways. I have an appointment for meds tomorrow and idk what to do other than do nothing and hope things get better

man i hate having a body

idk if its healthy having two fractures of myself and a bunch of orphan kids with too much metal in their blood be my support system but its got me through some hard shit lately the two others thanks for uhhhhh idk 30 some years of support. Gundam IBO? Sorry i doubted you so long but thanks

how it feels eating a whole rso syringe

is there a spits ver?

at least this made me laugh look how sick John the Baptist's cross was, he's so proud of his fuckin little tiny ass cross with a super long handle, why is he so smug about it 😭😭😭

I feel like there have been words stuck in my throat for as long as I can remember, and no matter how hard I try they will never come out. They will be stuck there forever.

brain broken 🥴 trying so hard to pull myself out of it but I just keep sinking back down and everything hurts

※Amuro♀️

Artist: kurose yuuki Media: gundam, gundam suisei no majo Source: https://www.pixiv.net/en/artworks/101864026

My wife made this for me because its been a difficult couple of days for me (thanks trauma 🙃) and she wanted to cheer me up, and I love her so much. It always makes me feel so good when she leans into my love of Gundam ^_^ <3

Still waiting for the Lina Inverse Logo to hit the corner of my DVD window 🎶

thinking about charma and so here are really old nishigar doodles LMAO #charsdailylife #nishigar #charma #art

I love trans guys fr

女の子の服変えたやつ(これとか↓)、なんか妙にウケるからロボにしか興味ないんじゃないの？！と思う

Vista's ready for a swim! 🩷 #OC #OriginalCharacter

Might have figured out something important about sleep. I have a long history of being woken up poorly, and put quickly into a heightened state, and I can't help but wonder if a part of me just does not want to sleep because we don't want to deal with waking up in a bad way and feeling scared

Secret Ending for collecting all the ice cream for Tako Luka

プール #初音ミク

thank you for your service, ribbons 🫡

sorry i got distracted what was the question

Artist: ichi27ichi Media: gundam, gundam suisei no majo Source: https://www.pixiv.net/en/artworks/109940339

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Further developments

I've always been very good at untangling things. Cables, rope, jewelry, anything that gets all tangled up sometimes. You follow the strands to their source and see where it all goes and intertwines with everything else, you carefully pull just right and slowly unravel it until its finally free

Still haven't gotten to actually see the first ep but yeah this checks out. *sigh* tried to talk to someone about this and got so traumatized I have barely attempted since, but it seems like a lot of media are delving into pluralistic themes these days so who knows, maybe I'll try again someday

double zeta ep 32 was like this to me [ #art #fanart #gundam #zz #fayuiry #brightnoa #judauashta #kamillebidan ]

I don't keep up with the news like I used to, which is good, because no one needs to know that much stuff, but wow I just looked and there's a headline about Graham Platner and people still calling for him to drop out and damn how is he still running??? Tents full dude, go fish oysters or whatever

July 6, 2026

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it's even hotter when i'm with you... #yuri #pmmm #madoka_magica #madohomu #魔法少女まどかマギカ #まどマギ

It feels like a million years ago where I kinda broke down over realizing I'm poly, and how I needed love so badly at the time but wasn't getting it, but it was 3 months ago and that is wild to me. I thought that realization was going to help a lot, but I don't really know what to even do with it.