Yeah so my headphones broke so I can't record properly isn't that fun Anybody wanna buy me new ones I'm too poor 🥺🥺🥺

In theory if I take in 1604 calories a day max I should be losing about 2 lbs/week That feels a lot more manageable than 0 calories a day but still not enough. Gotta find a good in-between somehow. - Ana

youtube channel where I play horror games and cut myself. Is that anything? i feel like that's something

Maybe if I fucking kill myself and write a note blaming her my mother will have the faintest understanding of why letting my known rapist and abuser live with us isn't good, actually, and that being her son makes it worse, in fact, that he did that to me

Still stuck in a storage room while my known rapist/abuser gets the biggest room in the house but it's better than the over half a year's time I had to spend sleeping on his floor before being made to clean out this room (which was so full of cat shit I had to scrape the ground clean) with zero help

Idk if the middle sisters will wanna go but they might be forced to

Having some crackers, grant me strength I ate two and already wanna kill myself for it

The dysphoria is actually gonna fucking kill me it's so so so bad today And like I wanna eat because I'm hungry but that's gonna make my mental state so much worse if I do and I cannot fucking handle that

This is what being my friend is like, you show me something cool and I call you pathetic as a compliment

Gonna record sway to my beat in cosmos and (ideally) lay all your love on me tomorrow Assuming my voice works If it doesn't I'll. Idk. Kill myself probably?

Gods above I need a bath I can fit in, I haven't comfortably fit in a bathtub since middle school, LET ME BE COMFY

I need to have crazy drugged up sex but the only people on my grindr are cis men and I don't wanna have sex with cis men I wanna have sex with literally anybody else

If ever I'm able to separate from this wretched family, I'm not staying in touch whatsoever, and this is just one of the countless examples of why

What color are we as individuals to you? Yes I will be upset if you don't give six answers one for each of us >:( - Geneva, your favorite ♡

Faggot, we ball

Can I suck you dry in public? Who cares if someone sees us, I wanna put on a show >:3 - Geneva

Crazy how we've been horned up like nothing else matters but Ana hasn't done anything about it. Will fix that tonight, I'm sure. - Geneva

Forgot about the very important fifth, being "intense manic obsession calling itself love that scares off almost everyone I actually give a damn about"

The four emotions I possess as of late: Paranoid delusions Unending frustration H O R N Y "I'm going to kill myself tonight" If someone could just put me down like a sick dog I'd really appreciate it

I had to hype myself up so much just for this little baby cut

I would not kill for you. It would mean nothing. I would refrain for you. Refuse to indulge in my violent nature for you. Spare the dying for you. I would work to better the world for you, if you would only have me.

Cutting arms is fucking terrifying how do you guys do it

Literally how I talk about my objects of obsession...

The monster dysphoria's back. Love getting mentally ill about not having claws and fangs and ungodly proportions and paper white skin

Feeling like dying when doing normal things and feeling normal when dying

Awesome how they frontlock me by just summoning all of our anxiety ever that's a great way to start off - Anastasia

the day bumbles didn't get any ice cream

I'm 14 but I'm also 21 so the pedos can have fun ruining my part of the brain but the normals can still fuck me and be legally fine it's wonderful honestly - Clara

A puppy would also be good but if anyone can get me a big sister to kiss I'd really love that

I need a big sister to kiss - Clara

It's true I saw someone try once and they caught flame like some kinda pathetic evil spirit

bangs head against walll raghhh

Cuts from earlier today. They have been hurting me since like 10 AM. Peak. - Ana

SNAIL!!!!!!!!!

First Snail of the new year. We are so fucking back.

I DON'T CARE WHO YOU ARE! 𝐂𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐫𝐨𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐞𝐬 𝐦𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫~

Had the tiniest little styro known to man earlier The cut itself was maybe as wide as my pinky nail

Significantly less paranoid rn and significantly higher levels of jealous lover mode like if anyone even looks at them I should kill that person

There's nothing beneath my bed there's nothing beneath my bed I know there's nothing beneath my bed but god is it hard to convince myself of that fact

I'm so dizzy

Feel like if I leave my room something will follow me back inside

Starting to feel intensely paranoid about everything. Maybe the therapist lady was right and I should go to the hospital. I'm terrified of what will become of me if I do, though.

Is this the end?

Black in my veins Force it out Wash it away Fix me

Endure.

Endure

Endure

Endure