no girl that wasn't a mark of maturity that was a sign of an insecure attachment style

sometimes i'm like "aw man maybe this world isn't worth living in after all :(" n then i play a really good video game and Remember. doubly so if it's with friends

i miss having a pixie cut so bad. human bob is too long. but alas. anything for them (lightners live kris cosplay next spring)

hate it when you can feel the story in a show or something gearing up to hurt you bad. "when i get home and see my mother again..." STOP TALKING!! YOU ARE DOOMING YOURSELF!!

hello i haven't been posting because i have been playing oneshot. world's best fix-it fanfic for people who wish they could talk to kris deltarune

can't think too long about the deltarune arg reopening up or i will get actually jittery

discovered today that my local bookstore carries the summer hikaru died,, ughhh i forgot how good this series was omg,,,

wait a second. i need to settle on a name for myself so i can tell it to gaster in my deltarune file. what if the name on my nice og file isn't my real name :(

C'S GET DEGREES BABY LETS GO

UGH this SUCKS i'm gonna KILL- *remembers suicide jokes are not funny or helpful* you

for my birthday my sibling got me the cutest pair of deltarune earrings n for the most part they are so awesome and cool but kris's pointy hair keeps stabbing me and tbh i think it's what they would want

rewatching my favorite anime id: invaded and being violently reminded that this is why i got into psychology

hoho when i was 13 i wasn't sure if i would make it this far but now i'm programming video games and living life with enby swagger. AND still have devastating emotional issues ✨ follow ur dreams you CAN do both

i miss my tooth gap desperately does anyone know if i can get that back with braces

finally registered for classes

THE FIRST HERO. THE CAGE, WITH HUMAN SOUL AND PARTS! THE SECOND HERO. THE GIRL, WITH HOPE CROSSED ON HER HEART. THE THIRD HERO. THE PRINCE, ALONE IN DEEPEST DARK AND LAST, WAS THE GIRL. AT LAST, WAS THE GIRL.

thinking about sevenfour again. i think i need to be launched out a window

hoo boy has the entire world been way too loud and overwhelming for anyone else these last couple days. if i hear one (1) more sound i'm going to explode

being reallyreally deltabrained will have you hearing three descending notes and thinking omg..... it's just like don't forget........

you've heard of "can't draw favorite character without feeling embarrassed," now get ready for "local kris fan can't play the piano without thinking of them and feeling slightly sheepish"

dawg having bad mental health sucks so much you'll have a minor inconvenience happen to you and suddenly be on the floor thinking about how you're unworthy of love code debugging is going bad by the way

ugh debugging is so miserable. why can't i just beam a game from my mind into the computer

in the anywhere. straight up "losing it". and by "it", haha, well. let's justr say. My composure

what if. i tried out a new name. i love being transgender. used to go by naydra online btw just testing out a new one :)

beat the knight in two tries today gonna be acting hubristically for the next couple days

if you have ever made a cover of sevenfour you're instantly the coolest person ever

people say making video games is easy but i'm gonna be the one to go out and say i don't think it's that easy

i'm gonna- *remembers suicide jokes are unhelpful and not funny* -make a kickass game out of this

fun music exercise: learn to play a few songs of your choice. now shoehorn the freedom motif in there somewhere. idk what the benefits of this exercise are but it's really great for torturing your deltabrained friends when you're playing for them

sometimes i'll think "ugh being passionate about games is so embarassing why am i trying to translate grief into rpg mechanics" and then remember one of the most gorgeous pieces of art i've ever seen literally did that

suffering immensely recently. having fun times with my friends again and finally seeing hope. thinking about love and mortality and the same old identity crisis also my phone autocorrects faster to gaster and anything ending with s to snowgrave

THERES AN ENGINE SPECIFICALLY FIR MAKING UTDR FAN GAMES. THAT RUNS ON LUA. WHICH IS ALSO CONNECTED TO PULPSCRIPT FOR THE PLAYDATE. AW YEA EVERYTHING IS COMING UP PUTTING MY MONSTERSONA IN UNDERTALE ON THE PLAYDATE MAYBE. OR JUST A GAME ON ITCH OR SOMETHINF IDK

*watching jojo's bizarre adventure* y'know, this is just like undertale if you think about it

"haha yeah wouldn't it be so cool to do the weird route? i should just do it one of these days i'm sure i'd be fine!" *does half of the sword route* actually i need to be executed for my video game crimes

conquering my fear this halloween season by opening game making software (scary) and looking for tutorials online (scary) and typing in code that doesn't work (SCARY) and trying to fix said code (scariest) and playing more video game (cool and ok actually)

insecurities are so stupid i'll be like "oh no what if the people in the playdate dev forum don't like my scuba cat pfp what if they think i'm cringe" YOU ARE MAKING GAMES FOR THE PLAYDATE. KEITA TAKAHASHI, SCUBA CAT'S CREATOR MADE A GAME FOR THE PLAYDATE. IT IS OK

krusielle

*watching friend play katamari damacy* y'know this is just like undertale if you think about it

make video game

chat is it bad to make it your life's purpose to make baller ass video games if that's the only thing that truly sets your soul aglow

projecting my preferred pronouns onto kris but instead of misgendering them i'm using mg. aura farmer instead of mx. aura farmer

and if i said ace attorney yaoi drastically changed my life what then

i went from casual murder mystery enjoyer to deltarune crack theorist and kingdom hearts fan and u know what that actually tells me a lot about the way i like to think

make video game

okok my friends think i am unhinged for this so i need someone to tell me i'm not crazy,, theres this line. in #deltarune (i am serious) ch1. where toriel says "Your brother cannot carry you to school anymore." that's a chara parallel right. i'm not just chara-brained right. help

guess what choice i made. and why i haven't been posting

GUESS WHO'S MAKING CHOICES TONIGHT!!!!!!

ughhh thinking about kris and courage again. they actually in the text canonically seem to feel braver around their friends, susie in particular. in chapter 1 they tend to lag behind the others in cutscenes, but they don't hesitate to act for her sake. sickening. sickening. i love them aaaaagghhhhhh

I LOVE VIDEO GAMES RAHHH