Getting some mixed messages this morning, calendars...

Update on my #ChronicIllnessJourney: I have ordered a genetic test and am waiting for it to be processed. I spent my own money, no insurance, no coupons #NotSponsored and I'm hopeful for some information and excited to share my unbiased experience. It's my last major idea. #Undiagnosed

Your healing will take time. Don't rush it or feel ashamed when the journey isn't quick.

Tonight's drink keeping me #sober I'm not usually a grape flavor fan, but am enjoying this. Work has been heavy this week and I know I can't have one drink responsibly. So I won't. #inrecovery #Soberish #notdrinkingtonight

I #relapsed Started drinking a little each night at home again for two weeks. I'm three days alcohol #soberish again. Haven't told my therapist yet. I'm breathing and my liver is working, so I'm still in #recovery and am choosing to continue

I live with #ptsd from several causes. But RN it's #WorkplaceTraumaticStress that I'm struggling with increasing symptoms. I work the telephonic #Frontlines of the #American #mentalhealth system

Night night sweet dreamies Your body whispers before it shouts. Listen early, rest often Pause. Breathe. You matter more than your to-do list.

Picked this up local for $5, with the original remote. Everything works, just dirty. I am PUMPED to get this thing looking good, maybe do a few mods. One of my #hyperfixations as #Neurodivergent person is #retrovideogames #retrogaming #nerd #nerdalert #tv #retrogamer #project

I'm hanging on #sober It hasn't been easy It hasn't felt worth it A #relapse could be a one-way ticket back to #addiction #Alcohol is like using a credit card for your #mentalhealth: paid in high interest from everything else in your life #sobriety #recovery #Soberish

Update: I'm #sober But the monster is under my bed, waiting to whisper in my ear. I'm aware he's after me now; last night caught me off guard #sobriety #soberish #recovery #addiction

I have not wanted to drink #alcohol this badly in a very, very long time. I feel like I'm trying to resist a magnet. It's hard, but I'm not gonna break. #sober #sobriety #soberish #recovery #onedayatatime #substanceuse #addiction

For Negan no brain, only floof #cat #cats #photography #Maine #beginner #smile #photo

Been doing more #photography! #dog #goldenretriever #beginner #Maine #candidphoto #photo #smile

In the course of being #undiagnosed with a #chronicillness, here are the providers I've seen: 2 PCPs from the same office PMHNP LCSW 2 ER doctors Rheumatologist Waiting for neurology I research 10hr/wk, via peer reviewed studies I'm exhausted 😵‍💫

Happy #Pride everybody! Especially celebrating my #bisexualpride! If I bother you, choose a different human radio. Have a genuine and respectful #question for someone who is #out? Sound off below! 👇🏻 #bisexual #proud #LGBTQIA #TransAlly #mentalhealth #AMA

#Maine #photography #moose #wildlife #nature Saw this little one earlier today AND managed to take a photo on a phone camera quickly! I've been trying to do more photography and this is my glimmer for today! #mentalhealth

My younger self would need to know the feelings of the adults around me are not more important than doing what I want (within reason). I walked on eggshells and people-pleased and still do too often out of a self preservation habit.

Today's #mentalhealth reminder: I can choose to #celebrate meeting my goals both great and small, either in public or private. Staying #alive is the accomplishment of sustaining #hope for a better #tomorrow. #suicideprevention #recovery

It has taken me 15 years of living with chronic #mentalillness to learn that despite my best efforts, there will be days I'm going to be #depressed and mostly in bed. For today, I accept it and put a little makeup on regardless #selfcare #selfacceptance

I am also a #nerd and into #pokemon as my lifelong hyperfocus. I #cosplay occasionally. Enjoy learning #chess and #French, and into #retrogaming. My life #dream is to find a way to use my #nerdy passions to support people and their #mentalhealth and #wellness

I am an openly #neurodivergent #spoonie with both #physical and #mental dynamic disabilities. One plus year in #recovery from #alcohol. Mental Health Worker 4+ years Specialities: suicide&crisis int, mood disorders, NSSIB, #LGBT+ #mentalhealth #support

Update: no positive blood tests for diagnosis. At least we're eliminating possibilities, I guess? Had more blood drawn today. My deductible is met. To be continued.

Growing old doesn't mean growing ugly; the two are not synonymous. It just means you are progressing in your time spent walking Earth before your return to her ❤️ #wisdom #selflove #quote #motivationalquotes #selfcare #inspiration #selfacceptance #positive #Pagan #MotherNature #MotherEarth

As of April 30th, I have been searching for a diagnosis that explains my #chronicillness for 15 months. I remain #undiagnosed. I just spent more than $700 in blood work after #insurance and will be paying for more blood tests today. I'm 31 and a #fulltime #mentalhealth worker. #AmericanHealthcare

#glimmer #hope #deepbreath There is nothing like the first few days of real #spring in #Maine when the peepers serenade begins at dusk, their choir surrounds you as you can't resist but to open most of windows crack.

#photography #Maine #spring #woodpecker #unretouched #outside #nature #naturephotography #beginnerphotography #birds

This cup of tea is for my #chronicillness pals, who like me, are having to take it easy today. Here's to hoping for just a rough day, and not starting a rough patch. #selfcare #mybesttoday #tea

Turkey burger with egg, swiss, portobello mushroom, spinach, and zucchini on an English muffin. Sauced with bourbon maple balsamic vinegar #foodphotography #photography #homecooked #healthy

Finding a new season of one of your favorite shows feels like God chose you to win the lottery that day. #funny #humor #oneliners #standupcomedy #joke #millennialhumor

If you had told me that eggs would be considered a "treat food" due to cost, I never would have believed you. Never ever. #food #inflation #birdflu #2025

Negan after some cat nip #cats #cat #catphotography #unflatteringcatpictues #silly #blep #catnip #stoned #high

It was time to change my face metal! #piercings #nosepiercings #septumpiercing

Love a fever-tree mixer as a way to have a fancy drink and treat myself after a hard week of work without booze #sober #soberish #inrecovery #lowcalorie #mocktail #harmreduction

#photography #Maine #Mainephotography #animals #birds #winter #amature #chickadee

I must be becoming an elder millennial as I now watch mattress commercials with genuine interest because I have back pain. But I can't afford one because my retirement account is a few binders of damaged pokemon cards and a tub of beanie babies. #funny #humor #millennial #standupcomedy

Tonight's #strugglemeal from me, your fellow #spoonie. Rice noodles, broth and add-ons. Try tofu, leafy greens, prepared meat, processed vegetables, eggs, seaweed snacks, anything really #Microwaveable #easymeal #onepot #vegan #glutenfree #leftovers

he’s so silly

I'm always a sucker for a man in a tux and bowtie. Can I hold your hand too, Uni?

Night night sweet dreamies If you see somebody that's hurting, don't look away. And if you are hurting, even though it might be hard, try to find that bravery within yourself to dive deep and go tell somebody. -Lady Gaga

Resistance is Futile #cats #photography #funny #silly #memes #comic

Just eating a #girldinner while at work tonight

Shout out to the cashier I met today who complimented me on my nose piercing arrangement and jewelery. It made my day for someone else to appreciate the details I picked for in my my body art #glimmers #mentalhealth #positivity #brightside #piercings

Got myself a wonderful ginger beer and raspberry #mocktail while out to eat #sobriety #soberish #food

Having CI flare of rn. I'm proud of my measly struggle meal: a usual go to can be several processed snacks aside a bowl of ice cream #strugglemeal #lowspoons #chronicillness #spoonie #progress #selfcare #mentalhealth #smallwins

If Negan needed a profile pic for a dating app, this would do nicely. Look at those seductive eyes. He's neutered, ladies! #cats #cat #photography #cute #funny

Fun fact: I keep and wear silly tshirts as a way to make people smile. I started after I found the people I was taking care of in a crisis unit used it as a way to connect with me and feel more comfortable. #mentalhealth #smile #cats #pun

Made myself a matcha latte as a way to have a fancy drink and treat myself on my weekend that is not booze. #sober #soberish #inrecovery #tea #fancydrink #selfcare

Back in my day, we used beanie babies as decoration for the top of the TV!

Sleepy boi. His name is Negan. He is not my cat, but belongs to a close friend. I enjoy photographing him often to catch different sides of his personality. #cats #sleep #photography

My date is 12.26.2023 of being soberish, just got myself a year coin! Here's to the next year of progress, not perfection. #sobriety #recovery #harmreduction