happy cuz im actually making progress, hoping next post is something nice and not me crying in my room

shit be more toxic when i was getting better

what a shitty week

I dont feel like a human, infeel like a sex toy, a torso with tits and a hole for others to make fun of everytime It talks like a puppet, I dont feel respect from others, I dont feel human, i dont feel alive anymore, I dont even feel like having a genderfluid identity its not wirth it

i need that blond bitch killed

im not ok

lazy to even Ctrl+c Ctrl+v

//Some Eros cuz a comic and some songs give me the strength to draw him finally, literally it was just and edit with the song of "i want things to be beautiful" and some inspiration of white Diamond from SU

I need Eros's anorexic ass beaten up A comic finally giving me excuse to draw something

thats it hyperfixations... line up for me...

I need content of Glam i dont find shit, im dead, im dying rn, there is only shitty Span Dubs from 5 years ago im ending it all tonight

no bad toughts..yayay!! just bullying in school but talking and seeing mutuals makes me feel better

Day 3!! Plushia found a cute ugly sweater! It’s a little big, but sooooo comfy!! #plushmasbyabe

Nihil marshmallow

This account is only still active because my psychologist says it's important to see what I write when I'm in crisis, even though I feel that the existence of this account ruins my friendship with the mutuals who follow me on it, as always im sorry

Finally took a bath after 1 month I feel better to be honest + SS record

It's been a month since I last showered, it feels awful, and I keep telling myself I'll do it tomorrow. I'm just scrolling on my phone all day, feeling even worse. I'm not even laughing at anything, man, I'm just rotting away in this bed Where can I get the energy to shower?. Idk men there is even🪳

Terzo and Primo baptizing loyal followers why not

Guys, /ghosttwt doesn't love me anymore and never really did. Maybe I should draw porn and gore to get public approval and feel like an artist or someone alive, a loved one? Idfk

Solo lloro en vez de ponerme a trabajar

Tw:depressive thoughts + what it feels like to be a mostly Nihil artist lol

Self portrait

New commission info sheet! Comissions are open!

Vent: Im becoming my dad again, AND its feeling sooo bad, I have been pushing myself to be a better person for my mother and now that I just had a fight with her she just said: "there Is the real you back, you never changed" I did for months!! I really did...I feel so fucking bad man,

its you @feraldeer.bsky.social

My back hurts do bad

So good #papanihil

tw: vent

I feel like this all day tbh

2 coward 2 post my venting

Licklicklick #thebandghost

Eros masturbating in Nihil grave 🥰

Rooster ^,^

🐔🐣🐣🐣 #thebandghost

Spooky skeletons having lil party in the crypt! Plushia is in awe, but scared, so he’ll watch. #plushtober

opus popus baby im sorry my wallet cant take you home

Yipeeee :> #thebandghost

Eros venting art

Bald #thebandghost

I lost the password of the acc for some hours but im backkk

cutie

Time for Oktoberfest! Plushia can’t wait for the food and music! Plushia isn’t allowed to drink, especially after he snuck a swig of Pop pop’s drink. Never forget #plushtober

Terzomega waos #ghosttwt #thebandghost

overthinking again i wish this disappears pleas

Wanted to do #7 sheet by @/honestitisabe.bsky.social

Counting this as #AshesmyCoffincomic #17

im alive

There is a giant spider in my room, if I don't post I'm dead

thinking about Nihil and his loose anus all through school🗣uuuuhhh pleaas