i want to kill myself so badly

genuinely why the fuck am i forced to live in this deformed body

whats the point

i hate my body so much. i think id rather take painlessly dying rn than live another day.

got itself 1 more flatheads bcuz,,,,, bcuz,,,, it deserve sumfing nice. sumfing nice while it suffer wif having a r*** stick. nicehck eb2s,,, genuinely will pawbably be the best earphones it ever has

it almost definitely seems like some kind of cope that “allies” want to make the distinction between trans women and cis women by straw men. bc it’s inherently bad faith to assume I’m using infertile cis women as some kind of shield when that isn’t the case. that isn’t the only example of where the

chiitan liking my post lets gooooo 🩷

lk why do i wanna pull my hair out over ppl trying to be transphobic in a “ally” way in yt conments??? the fucking straw men they all make is just, how do they think any actual trans woman says or thinks like that?? like genuinely ppl need a logic class in high school. mega thread in the morning

watching xqc trying to make music makes it so apparent when someone doesn’t like, consciously listen to music and has no idea what music theory is. this is why learning an instrument before producing is incredibly useful. and like learning in a way where you can improvise.

for how much it hurts that T basically ruined my voicw forever, i have no motivation to voice train. which means the vfs surgeon here probably will say i cant have surgery. no option

i wanna blow my fucking face off. smooth off. i need ffs

is there petition to ban AI from pinterest???

u know what it not gonna even gatekeep the guy, free promo. moonglow quartet by zuriel

“hrt does nothing” if ur too depressed to do anything besides take hrt then the only noticeable change is boobs. there are so so many other things u can change that “hrt does nothing” is not a claim to be taken seriously. u can only be doomer if u have actually fucking tried.

sorry just saw the fucking iron cross shit in its pfp eww. gonna remove that with paint net

theres a sample pack that’s genuinely the best for jazz and it’s rightfully expensive cuz of how good it is

dual delay is fucking peak wtf

need to lay on gf and fall asleep in her arms and have its nose in her pits

BACK

i just get hurt over and over.

feelings are very complicated. there isn’t just one way to love someone. just because you don’t have the same feelings you thought was true love for someone else doesn’t mean only that feeling means true love. i made a mistake. i put way too much on my own shoulders.

summer sucks so much that pup made a fucking christmas song

i have only felt that way once in my life.

i dont know if i can ever trust a human again. i am so beyond broken. all i want is the spark, a spark that’s real and not me coping. but i dont think i might ever feel that way for someone again.

you should be put in jail if your 808 takes over the entire song/beat

the hippocratic oath is bullshit

i hope she gets in a fucking car accident

bitch doctor. this cunt knows my situation and that im suicidal.

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i dont have much more strength to continue. even in the case that i can escape to my wife, it still feels so bleak. i feel like im putting so much pressure on her. i feel so horrible for putting her into my situation. my trash life.

congrats if your dysphoria doesn’t stop you from living. congrats if you’re not trapped. fucking awesome. thank you for the judgement instead of helping.

god i hate blaire white imagine being trans and then you actively hurt other trans people

me

i love being forgotten. i love that people only consider me when it’s for their own gain. and when i say people, i mean my fucking family.

if being lesbian is wrong then why are girls so cute?

work is stealing my big sis away from me 🥺🥺🥺

world map got pretty lucky with 2 usa spots obv moving and unlimited time

i love doing estrogen

Mmmm gock 😵‍💫

sam gellaitry

mmmmmgngnmgmf dyke road

usa only cuz im a noob although i might likely be able to do an NA map. 5k-ing is more fun than just randomly plonking in world map.

am a stinky mutt >.<

“oh look it’s the emotional female” >the dude who said this was literally trash talking me and I was on his team, in a casual mode… every new day I hate men more

femme fishing at backwater bayou >.<

need to makeout intensely

so much pressure with tweeting because of having 1.5k followers on twitter i just wanna be myself here

she is my rock my owner my wife my big sis I love her 🩷 I would do anything for her

wife wife wife wife wife wife wife wife