sometimes i totally understand machine herald rebuilding himself because i too would like to rip out my lungs to replace them with healthy organ that isn't full of mold

I found my true calling. I just played a dnd one-shot as an opossum named Rat who believes he is a cat. It was so chaotic. I had so much fun.

Stopped into the little ceramic studio in my new town and they were very nice. Membership is pretty expensive, so I'll have to really crunch numbers to see if it's something that I can afford.

will i ever draw machine herald's mask consistently? no probably not

They like each other. #machineherald ##jaycegiopara #vikjayce Sorry reposting because I had to fix something.

I'll be walking with my Star Wars group for NAMIWalks on May 16th in SF. We are promoting awareness and raising money for mental health services. It is a cause very near and dear to me, as mental health is something that has been ever present for my entire life. www.namiwalks.org/participants...

Me: I'm tired of cosplaying Rey, I've worn her for 10 years now. It's time to retire her Also me: ...what if i make her goggles and head wrap so i don't have to wear the wig anymore I guess I am just tired of wearing that damn wig

A couple recent paintings I've done. #jackrabbit #owl #watercolor #mixedmedia

I have a new tattoo. I've been writing "fear is the mind killer" on my arm for the past few months and it's become somewhat of a mantra. This tattoo was part of a gift/trade with an amazing artist.

So I tried starting s2 of Daredevil: Born Again and I'm halfway through episode one. I don't know if I can keep going. It just doesn't have the feel of the original show anymore and I'm honestly having a hard time following what's happening.

In an effort to not post about how bleak my life is right now, I'm going to try to just go back to posting about fandom stuff and art. I want to focus on things that make me happy again. I NEED to focus on things that make me happy again.

New place has a family of owls. I forsee myself sitting outside and watching them as the sun sets every night.

life is falling apart, feel like I'm unravelling... considering intensive outpatient therapy again but it's group therapy and i get incredibly anxious in groups. i wish there were intensive individual therapy options, but that. Doesn't exist. i'll probably delete this later

Guess who had to replace their tire in the middle of moving today! This guy! I swear I'm cursed with the worst luck as well, because the mechanics also broke a sensor in my car as they were replacing the tire, so what should have been a quick fix took two and a half hours.

I'm just so. Tired. Of opening another thing and looking behind another piece of furniture and finding more mold. Always more mold. It was in my portfolio. I'm tired of crying.

It has been very emotionally taxing going through all of our belongings and finding mold on almost everything. Some things we can save, some things we can't. We've had to throw away some things that are irreplaceable, like family heirlooms and some of my own art. Devastating everywhere we look.

Watching 1984 Dune, I am enamored with the background characters. This guy stole the scene for me. #dune

Here we go again. The mold is back with a vengeance. The floors, walls, all of our furniture, some of our clothes and shoes. Our apartment isn't safe to live in anymore and it's affecting our health and Cricket's health.

Finally have a day to work on my mandalorian armor and I am too tired to actually do it. Uggghhh ughhhhhhh uuuuhggghhhh.

okay okay I'm doing it I'm going to get a stupid allergy test finally

Parade yesterday. Very fun.

Life may be wackadoodle but at least I saw some deer today

I've hit a wall with portfolio progress. My motivation to work on paintings isn't there, even though I'm still excited about the process. I think I might take a little break from it, because I just got my mandalorian armor. I can work a little on that and return to my portfolio in a couple weeks.

This year is apparently the year of experimental art as I'm building my portfolio. I've already done embroidery on my paintings, so adding beads was a logical next step. I am now excited to start incorporating some cyanotype printing into my paintings as well. I think it will be very interesting.

Me: I've always wanted a rock tumbler. My boss: I have one, I can bring it to work! Me: :O And that's why I sent an email to everyone not to be alarmed at the weird rumbling noise in the storage room. It's just the rock tumbler. I hope they don't mind that it'll be going for a month hahaha.

Last year, I wanted to apply for more art shows, but that didn't happen because my life got turned upside down. I'm making up for it this year. I've already been accepted into a show and I'm waiting to hear back from 3 others.

Yesterday was my friend Joe's birthday. He would have been 46. I'm the same age as him when he was killed. I think about him often. Every time I dance, every time I listen to blues music, every time I see someone wearing flip flops and jeans, every time I eat oreos. I miss him.

Went for a little hike yesterday. We saw lots of birds, animals, and plants.

I am now the proud owner of a pottery wheel. It was given to me for free. I'm excited to set up a little ceramic studio on my patio.

My friends just sent me a bunch of pictures of rocks and asked me to identify them. Hahahaha... sometimes I wonder what my life would have been like if I pursued geology instead of psychology and art. I'd probably be living on the side of a mountain in the middle of nowhere doing lots of math.

I can't believe I forgot to share this. I pulled this out of the kiln a couple weeks ago. I'm very happy with it, but I still might add some gold luster to the horns and infinity symbol. #jackalope #ceramics #sculpture

something something vikjayce stripping gears innuendo

I'm super happy with the glaze on my toothbrush holder. I did some experimenting and it turned out really cool. #skull #ceramics

Finally finished my sponge holder after months! #ceramics #guardian #legendofzelda #breathofthewild #tearsofthekingdom

idk if I'll ever get around to writing it, but i have a vikjayce cyberpunk au simmering Jayce has reluctantly gone corpo and Viktor is a disgraced ripperdoc-activist/anarchist combo. They were friends but now they hate each other's guts but maybe they still love each other deep down???? ehehehehe

Little update of sorts while also vagueposting. Life has been life, ya feel? Mental health has been not great and I want to make art because I know it'll make me feel better, but I can't find the energy to make art because I'm still sick, so my mental health keeps getting worse. Vicious cycle

Tough post to make, but we had an unexpected trip to the ER followed by having to replace our mattress and bedframe due to mold. I don't expect to meet the goal because I know everyone is having a hard time, but anything to help a queer couple out is appreciated! 🧡

I forgot to share these last month, but here are a couple things I made for the apartment. Just a little korok friend and a mushroom toothbrush holder for my partner. #ceramics #korok #legendofzelda #mushroom

random fandom thought... as an asexual person, I identify with some characters cos I see potential asexual traits. The fandom for one of my favorite characters in particular would HATE me for headcannoning them as asexual because of some behind the scenes things to do with the character. It's sad.

i've been playing cyberpunk 2077 and johnny silverhand is my favorite no one is surprised

Happy New Year! Despite everything I endured last year, I still made art. This isn’t everything, just highlights. This year, I will continue making art. #artsummary

Happy New Year @petitjackalope.bsky.social ! I bring you two tired scientists on a couch. How many all-nighters did they pull? Will Vik have a stiff neck? IS JAYCE DROOLING??? who knows. I had a ton of fun making it, hope you like it <3 @jayvikexchange.bsky.social #jayvik #viktorarcane #jaycetalis

Leave out some sweetmilk tonight, it's Viktor's birthday. #AnniViksary #machineherald

arcane herald running his thumb across jayce's forehead like SIMBAAAAA

Hi hello new followers. I'm assuming you're here for #vikjayce stuff! Be warned, I post sporadically. But uh, this explains my tastes. You can make your own: codepen.io/kybersex/ful...

Sometimes I get to make really cool things for work. #ceramics #jackalope

I made a repoussé flower for my partner's mom. I'm obsessed with this art form.

Woke up this morning missing dancing something fierce. Want some deep lore about me? I was a professional ballroom dancer when I was in college.

My partner got me some bones! I'm so excited to clean these up and add them to my collection!

Listening to Muse and driving for a couple hours and thinking about the Stillwater AU that everyone is into right now. I think... I think I may have an idea for my own version. It will probably be another year before it's complete, but still.