morning friends in my phone! i have a super long day ahead of me, but ill just over caffeinate and hope for the best. how are you? any plans today??

another night has come another binge has been done

time is dragging today

good morning friends in my phone. how are you today?? any big plans? i have work and then orientation. then lots of catching up on school work. smh

the voices are so loud. i really need to quit eating so the guilt doesn’t scream so much

i don’t understand. i hate myself. i hate my body. but i keep fucking eating. i know how to lose the fat; i just don’t ????

at this rate i’ll just lock tf in on new years. i have training either next week or the week after and that involved a ton of food. thanksgiving is in the mix. christmas dinner. i give up. never getting out of this binge/eat normal phase

field trip with A today. kind of excited.

good morning friends in my phone!

i binged.. again.. when will it end?

yalllll... i ended up with a 94 on it

fighting for my life on this toilet (trying to poop and can’t) this is a rare occurrence for sure. im scheduled and go like clockwork

did some of the dishes

printing my agenda for next year since its too early to do dishes

how are you??

good morning friends in my phone! im up before my alarm, and idk why. took night meds last night (like im supposed to, I just never do!) and i slept really good but im awake early and that just doesn’t make since to me.

I literally need to stop being a dramatic pig and actually get back on my shit again. This is pathetic, I’m pathetic. I know myself, I know I can be better than this. I’ve done it before I can do it again.

still do actually

i binged 2 hours ago and am still in pain. why do i do these things?

i feel weird

good morning friends in my phone! work, cleaning, and studying today. liquid fasting today to help reset this hunger / lack of control. i did so well for like 2 weeks and then threw it out of the window. i had weird/bad dreams all night. how are you?? any plans today??

ive been eating soooo normally lately but i wouldn’t call it recovery . Its just eating.. and i hate it

started one out of the many end of semester assignments i have to do

im losing my mind so badly. so many things happening. so much going on.

got wine drunk last night. had a good night. woke with a migraine / small hangover / still drunk at like midnight so i took some meds and laid back down. its now 6 and i had wakeup *** and coffee is going. today mayhaps will be a good day

good morning friends in my phone. i hope you all have a great day.

i have to quit late night eating again. i did so good for a week or so then got back to it the last two days. must stop.

i got the job back!!!!

here half an hour early, waiting in my car. im so nervous omg

good morning friends in my phone! i slept in a little this morning but that’s okay. i get up earlier than needed most days. i work today and then have that final interview. prayers/good vibes pls. i binged last night - feeling it today. major regrets. how are you?? any plans today?

and dawn???? where are my mooooooties

where the hell is dolly???

good morning friends in my phone! how are you??? im off today so lots of school work and cleaning ahead.

if this woman don’t get her kids under control….

im losing my mind

re-applied to my old job. fingers crossed they work with me and i can get this job back. as much as i don’t want to go back to two jobs, i don’t have a choice.

thinking of starting A on adhd meds and im so nervous. ive put it off for over a year now (since i got the diagnosis) but like, its definitely time to do something for her. idk why im so nervous but i am

good morning friends! i took nightime cold meds and crashed. i only woke up once and for a short period of time. i am sleepy still and could sleep longer but idk if i will i dont feel horrible, but im fosho sick. going to have to keep meds in me and see if i can push through. how are you!?

body aches

i now have enough to get gas for the rest of the week. yall are amazingggg.

this actually helped tons. im waiting to take more meds until i can take night meds in like an hour or two. but the shower and rub helped. i can breathe for the moment

thank you alex!!! im beyond appreciative of this. getting gas tomorrow now so i can hopefully make it the rest of the week to work and getting A to school.

fuck poverty all my homies hate poverty

after dinner is done cooking im going to take a hot shower with v1ck$ shower steamer and see if i can get my nose to release. then putting some of the ointment kind on the bottom of my feet and on my chest. taking all of the cold meds. hopefully whatever I have passes soon!

can’t let anyone know. must play pretend.

i haven’t been able to get warm at all today. i think it’s partly because im sick though.