OUGH I LOVE MY PARTNER

I'm kind of stunned this morning. Face streaming was so fun and fulfilling last night, and along with all the symbolism it carries it feels like my whole life has changed kick ass everyone

Today's the daaaaay! Busted brain donothon day one! We'll be starting with a rundown of the event and some doodling at 12pm EST! Two hours away! Hope to see some of you there! twitch.tv/thescribblescribe #envtuber #vtuber #donothon #event #fundraiser

I'm face streaming tonight! I knew I wanted to do this awhile ago but we're finally making the leap I fucking love the twists and turns of life

Some updated emotes for @regolith.bsky.social of their updated design!! Same things but new dapper package B) B)

Ven and I are buying a house!!! it's crazy how much my mentality is changing these days for the better, the city has done a number on my brain, but soon we escape!

Sometimes being up late is more restful than sleeping

I'm learning to let myself be accepted, and finding so much joy and community kick ass guys

The DQMJ Nizzlock is well under way! super excited to BEAT THIS CHALLENGE AHHHHH It's gonna be SUPER tough, but if we're patient and smart about our synthesis I think we can do it

Beat rain wolrd a couple nights ago and OH MY GOD

realizing all these different 'efficient' things I've been doing were just anxiety responses that were pretty damn inefficient super nice to let em go

Five pebbles, five pebbles is god damn insane My mind is blown and I NEED TO KNOW MORE DAMNIT THIS GAME IS SO COOL WHAT'S GOING ON

this is it bois, I've peaked 169 followers on twitch

took a break last night, god it's hard to sleep when I don't stream

Man I just got through the memory crypts, and I gotta say no horror game has made my heart POUND like those freaky ass birds god DAMN

Good morning to all you bastards, why are yall so hot rainworld tonight!!! I'm super excited to get back into it

We always will get told to quiet down, not because it's inherently better or worse than living quietly, but simply because we're noticed If you're loud, live loud

Rainworld is a game about exploring a beautiful hell god I love it

I don't really know how to put it specifically in a concise way, but I'm finally following my heart in streaming. It feels absolutely amazing to stream now, and every stream is better than any stream before this understanding. Kinda just feels like I finally figured it out❤️

LOOK HOW GOOD MY PARTNER DID WITH NEW DESIGN PRAISE THEM THEY DESERVE IT

the future doesn't exist, only the present. A pretty common idea, but it's only when I applied it, when I stopped conceiving of the future as anything more than the imaginary land that it is, that my worry and doubt stopped existing as well.

I'm learning to be thorough with my gathering of understanding, each new lens granting a little bit more, like panning for gold in new ground. Normally I've only ever focused on my panning technique, so moving my perspective around like this has been incredible

Saw Hamilton, fucking amazing, realized that I was intentionally raised to believe I was like hamilton so I could be used, and that in reality I'm more his foil than anything it all gave my self confidence a crazy foundation

as things are finally getting settled I realize I've been carrying around a cumulative guilt for every stress in Ven and I's life FUCK that noise, guilt DROPPED

Give yourselves time guys, like an ice cub that won't melt till you get above 32 degrees, sometimes you won't see any fruits of your efforts until a certain moment, but all that effort is equally important regardless ❤️

this has been the longest two weeks in a long time, but ultimately fulfilling! I'll be back to streaming soon, probably just a smattering at first to make sure I'm taking care of myself thanks to all of this I finally fully recognize my potential and I'm excited to fulfill it

Maybe 100% confirmed streaming a spooky game with @ventiigram.bsky.social today

had a 10 day vacation and DAMN it felt like a month, very nice and very needed gonna be getting back into regular streams as I'm getting back into work routine, though they may be shorter/ more infrequent because Ven is COOKING something very exciting

regolithvt.itch.io/hearth-fight... IT'S FINALLY OUT LETS GOOOOOOOO If you're into ttrpgs for the narrative and the role playing you'd only be doing yourself a favor by checking this out, enjoy and live well everyone

It's surprisingly difficult to see you're going through something when you're in the middle of it. It just feels like every day life+you being deficient for some reason. Be kind to yourself, don't question what you need and be generous with yourself

ended up staying up even later than I did yesterdaybut the vi es of acceptance and community hanging out with @ventiigram.bsky.social and @princepentan.bsky.social leaves me more restored than sleep ever could

had some KICK ASS games last night, turns out mid Venge is CRAZY good, super fun too!!! Gonna see about maybe making it a video and I'm very excited kick ass everyone!!

We're back to streaming!!! tbh the break turned out pretty great timing so my brain and body are thanking me for it

taking the rest of this week off for Hearth, I decided it's time to get this game out there It's been a long road, and this initial release isn't even going to have art, but the thought of it makes me so emotional

Fucked around with mid dazzel last night, lots of potential but I think people misunderstand the power spikes of the hero, excited to develop a build

hii i'm very tight on cash and i'm going to be out of work for a week come the end of this month. if anyone would like to purchase a commission it'd be greatly appreciated ;; you can find examples of my art in my art feed ko-fi.com/cosmicaces/c...

nothing like work announcing some bullshit to entirely re-motivate you

it feels really nice getting another person into the game again. the biggest things always when teaching dota is to explain as little as possible and let them ask questions. it's SO easy to overload with information, so just waiting till they ask is so so important

Gonna be teaching dota tonight, so if you're curious about the game pop by! no matter how tored I get the more dota I stream the more I wanna stream dota. taking my usual two days off starting tomorrow but DAMN am I tempted

@harbingyr.bsky.social dota??

I realize I wanna cause problems for the enemy tram in dota. I hate playing defensively. I've been figuring out what role I wanna hone in on and with this I can be sure I don't wanna play p3, and if I'm in p5 I'm gonna be playing it like a p4. I wanna devour the enemy

STILL thinking about this thing my current dilemma is which facet to use, because the damage on mana drain is SO useful in lane, but the fist has crazy late game potential, especially with all the pushing power it adds

getting used to the orb weaver last night and I felt like a CHILD, losing track of my hero, missing blinks and abilities BUT It's still absolutely sick and I can't wait to be fully used to it

Chasing my fear and accepting my limitations is hard and very freeing

stuck thinkin about this thing send help

Getting back into dota 2 and damn it's been amazing, so much so I feel certain in becoming a full time dota streamer! it's been a long search but this is *the thing* I'll be updated everything over time and expect to see a whole bunch of dota related stuff, take care everyone!

TCG Playmat that I made for myself B) it's my current main vanguard in cardfight vanguard as an eevee... i have named him eevrold . he should have been a milf so instead he is an eevee and soon he will be in my paws

picked up dota last night, and damn, I feel like it's what I've been wanting to play this whole time

Pushing the fear is so worth it, damn