about to become a bigger bitch actually. i have had enough

i’m seeing MARINA live in February 🥹😭🥹😭🥹

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OFF I GO!!!

in the uber to the coach terminal now!!! rice pudding and stewed peaches and a tuna ongiri for the trip today!!!

didn’t try to pretty up the onigiri, just threw it in the bento box but i also made rice pudding and stewed peaches for the first time ever (and the onigiri is a first too) ^_^

also seems like the new supplements i’ve been taking have been causing me to have the absolute shits so PLS pray for me and for a poopless and tuna stink free bus ride!!!!

made effort to make a home cooked meal for my five hour bus ride tomorrow but then remembered that tuna onigiri is not a great option to bring on a shared bus space 🫩

EDS is such a debilitating condition but it also means that my hair bonnet leaves a visible indent on my forehead that takes hours to fade

thank fuck for ibuprofen

stress really is so detrimental to my health like the flare ups that come w dysregulation is ridiculous. the inflammation and fatigue is unbearable. get this cortisol out of my BODY 😭

spending the next week on a trip so having rot time w my best friend and then i get back into medical appointments.. good news tho: possibly found an OT that is very knowledgeable about the conditions i have and will be help me apply for NDIS!!!! gonna be booking in w them as soon as i can

shout out to the two content creators mentioned that are on bluesky @vinny.vinesauce.com and @boyjr.bsky.social thanks for keeping me (considerably) sane this year

Just booked a bus ticket to stay w my best friend over the next week I’m so excited 🥰🥹

I need craft dates with friends. I want community picnics. I need local DIY or “trash” swaps. That would save me. One day, when I’m not fighting for my life against never ending pain and fatigue, I hope to have the energy to participate or initiate these kinds of activities. One day….

It’s really interesting adjusting to a diet with meat again, it feels so strange incorporating back into my meals after not eating it for 10yrs. It feels weird having to look after my body in ways that go against what my brain believes to be the “good/right” option.

$0 since the $90. Anxious and tired as hell. Payday tomorrow. Owe my sib $250 for the 2wks of groceries we just placed. $205 electric bill is due + $57 internet bill is overdue, with another net bill on the way soon. Not coping on the amount of food I’ve had access to the last two weeks. Exhausted.

cooked something new last night and it turned out great, as simple as it was! soaked tvp and then stir fried that along w some frozen veg, then added a packet of lee kum kees shanghai noodle sauce and ate w brown rice. has given me a little bit more confidence to experiment/explore :)

if anyone can help with that, i'd be really grateful ❤️ i may need help with paying the upfront amount for an anaesthesiologist for my surgery, but rn my doctor is trying to find a way around it so that i don't have to pay upfront. idk what i did to deserve his help 🥹 paypal.me/thelongestroad

taught myself how to make mini paper stars 🌟

hi hello 🌸 I have over 2GBs of nsfw content available for a $35AUD donation!! Msg me if you want access 💚 (p*yp*l, beem and ko-fi available)

It’s all too much I don’t know how I’m supposed to keep going like this. I’m already not coping and things are about to become harder. I’m so scared.

Really really suffering mentally and physically because of the financial stress. I’m so sorry for begging for help again, but I have no choice. I appreciate everyone who reshares these so so much. Thank you.

just had to call the cops to do a welfare check on a child and holy fuck the dispatcher was a condescending CUNT. ACAB!!!!

you ignoring the line on my forehead from my bonnet being too tight last night ✨

currently booked two months in advance w three different doctors, hoping one of them will actually take my chronic illnesses seriously and want to help me. current doctor is nice, but seems like she has super outdated knowledge about menstrual health-

I’m up $90!!! Just got my electricity bill for Nov and it’ll be $206, so still need all the help I can get 💚

Need all the help I can get right now. I appreciate each and every person that donates or shares 💚 www.paypal.me/svdavies96

am starting to feel the effects of not eating an actual meal in over a week. don’t have enough groceries to last til sunday when i get paid, and my bank acc is overdrawn. my sibling/hm is off work and having their income withheld by workcover and struggling to eat too. i’m tired of begging for help

the side eye bc i’m not allowing her to get into the trash

sleeping on top of three blankets on the floor again bc so i can rest/nap in an air conditioned room because it’s been 31+ degrees in my bedroom for days now 🥲 a simple blow up mattress would be so nice rn. thiiiis 🤏🏼 close to bringing my whole ass mattress out here….

god it would be so ideal to have a day bed in my living room so both me and my housemate can actually rest under the ac in the warmer months

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just ate beef for the first time in over ten years… i’m really proud of myself but also so sad that i have to start eating meat again. it’s so conflicting

white puritan bible bashers at my door leave me ALONE

it’s 38 outside and my aircon is not keeping up w cooling my tiny apartment today 😭

super cool slow mo footage of a lighting strike i just filmed 🥹 flash warning!!!!

I like mine, it’s got wabi-sabi

Over this. My quality of life is that of a 60-something yr old and I’m not even 30. I am house bound and bed bound most of the time, just from the fatigue. My inflammation levels are so high, I am now dealing w arthritis. I don’t want to do this anymore.

my cat literally chasing me around the house bc i have tuna for myself and i’m not sharing

just got absolutely decimated holy shit

If anyone knows anyone on the central coast who can set a trap: please let me know I have already contacted rescues, I’m looking for a concrete lead on someone just setting a trap. I will even pay for a new trap to be bought. Someone else can monitor and foster

Please, I am so so desperate. This is has been the worst night of my life because someone decided to be a freak instead of helping during the worst time of my life, and my poor mothers cat has now been alone for over a week Please, just a trap placed in Kanwal, that all I need

WorkCover is withholding my housemates/siblings wages which means they can’t pay rent or pay for their skin check appt tomorrow 🙃

It’s going to be even hotter Thursday and I need to bus to the doctors that day for my GP to fill out a Centrelink form. End me 😭

If anyone knows anyone in NSW, ACT or VIC who wants two cats please let me know, I need to rehome my mothers cats, can bring them to you Any questions please ask, it would help a lot to have this one thing sorted 🙏

Unfortunately Phoebes forever home has fallen through. This is devastating at a time when every bit of relief means the world and every problem is absolutely crushing Please help me find Phoebe a forever home 🙏 she has a good foster for now but she deserves a home after all she’s been through

thank you to the two lovely individuals that donated i appreciate you so so much