started watching the summer hikaru died and its hitting in a very specific place that i didnt know i needed and hoooohhhhh

i hate this country so bad its a dystopian nightmare

jammin dogs

i think ive had mental illness that was treatment resistant for eleventeen thousand years and now that i finally found a treatment thats actually? working?? its like oh my God i can do things bro

drawing today probably and thanksgiving shopping going to get stuff for button mushrooms and stuffing and greeb beans

my new adhd meds make me so productive and happy and silly is this who ive always been its just been buried? jesus

my treasures #Mytreasures

been cleaning the garage all afternoon finally getting somewhere with it

sorry i took 10 months to realize i had worth after my devastating breakup does anyone still want me (this is a joke. sort of)

im gonna go ride my bike and get a raspberry coffee while i listrn to black moth super rainbow yay

anxiously attached navigating relationships w people who are avoidantly attached and Struggling… this is my life but its also my story and i hate it here. i hate that i knew in narratively writing my story what the problems were but couldnt see it irl

I've got a goal up for the rest of this month's expenses ! I've been off testosterone for months and I mentally can't handle it anymore. But once this goal is met, I can get back on it. And also feed my household, which is obviously even more important. ko-fi.com/neonbuck

strattera has me vacuuming and sorting my clothes into piles and ordering groceries and organizing my life

guys i think the med works this is actually crazy

am starting my new adhd med today lets see how this goes….

youtu.be/nc5im306DG0?... this shit i did was so fire i never animated anything quite like this again

got a new flannel at goodwill🍂‼️

unironically blasting can you feel the sunshine this morning

not to sound like the therapy guy but my abandoned inner child has been like. dominating whati want lately and how i act and i kept being really mean to myself and it wasnt working. but i’m not trying to not yell at this part of myself and just comfort it and let it exist and its working a bit

i dont go on twitter anymore cuz it was bad for my brain but i still have dreams about checking twitter and like. nightmare nightmare nightmare

this is all fun and games but you gotta go outside and breathe the fucking air to live, this shit ain't real, this is the fucking illusory realm, this is the realm of spectacle and unsuppressed urges man, this is 100% performance, none of this means jack shit, peel your fucking eyes away

mini commissions for jude on telegram and @hauntedfurret.bsky.social !! 🦌🌠 #furryart #pooltoy

eating chicken wings rn listening to peakness

seriously like i turned to my coworker and went “how am i supposed to be happy when theyre literally gay and supposed to be with each other” and she was like “i think you have a bit of a bslanted view of the narrative” AFFECTIONATELY, HOW THO???? ITS VERY ROMANTIC

watching wicked with straight ppl is weird cuz what do u mean ur cheering for elphaba kissing fiyero. theyre friends and hes gay and shes lesbian

sometimes am half a coyote but whatever is fronting right now is completely a coyote and very upset that i cant physically jump and run around like one to this song rn. also they need to introduce privs here and also drafts

thank u for listening to me btw i know im a lot and im a yapper and if ur someone who stays in touch with me just know i appreciate it very much ❤️

sometimes you gotta close a door to open a window

im gonna go see wicked 2 i love those lesbians

tw drug use drug mention /// do u ever just realize why uve struggled so hard w dependency to one thing was because u were like. basically led into thinking what u were doing was harmless when it was not and a bunch of ppl around u were not good influences

big dumb horse

perhaps an indication i was autistic and mentally ill should have been i always have to ask my plushies how they feel about things and i can feel their answers. like maybe its always just been a projection of my own emotions but POSIC is real

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tw weight loss mention /// kinda crazy that ive lost like 25 pounds since moving in august and starting to heal my body. there is Nothing wrong with any weight that u feel healthy at but for me i stopped feeling functional or healthy where i was before and its a lot better now

been rebuilding my playlists on yt music i quite like it there :3 music.youtube.com/playlist?lis...

music.youtube.com/watch?v=sfwp... oh i get it now

thinking about my lps popular designs

the other day when there was a rainbow this was playing on my ipad while i stared at it and now i cant stop listening to it its like magical music.youtube.com/watch?v=VfvK...

decided in your youth on the policy of truth

this is so sad bro No wonder i was so unhappy being w someone who was poly and (probably) a relationship anarchist. im a mono being

i got a new pipe today do yall wanna see it or do you want giant rocks to be thrown at me right now

yall i have so much hope

oh i’m sure

i am wearing my tail rn just around the house and my dog thinks its a toy and keeps trying to grab it and plsy with it help me HELP

ordered this today :3 also

this picture of me with a mosquito clearly biting my chest

ive made a lot of bad choices recently and the second i stopped making the horrible choice i feel a lot better and i hate that literally every piece of advice i got was right and my feelings were not but it is what it is