Ive been dead for a bit, but heres some shitpost art i made in like ten minutes of the WOW gang #wasteofwater #cesspitdnd

vent art

one of those nights i lay awake thinking if the fact i, mel, am not the original host n actually formed somewhere in between 2020 n 2022 (approximately) and didnt exactly realize until last year lol i think the old host integrated/fused (idr term)w a protector or smth

i still have stuff backed up but i really want to have some kind of indulgent meal so i have 10$/pwyw shitty toxicsona doodles on my ko-fi, very very limited time. i really just want to get taco bell or smth comforting. whatever doodle comms i get will be done today/tmrrw ko-fi.com/ironlighter

i know verbalizing these thoughts are bad but i genuinely havent wanted to Not exist in a long time but now i struggle with the feeling. i just want to die, i feel absolutely useless, i cant even sit by angel bc watching her makes me ugly sob, arent i just so selfish

i keep trying to leave front but my baby is hurting i cant leave. i keep getting told to take a step back but how can i when my baby is hurting

wow i really dont wanna be alive right now

angel is having seizures. she just went down to the vet i think.

bad. the moza from evil eugenes universe is the worst actually

vent art / cw gore

scheduling a crashout for later

More Gephiyek doodles and a what-if of them meeting Ghet! GO FOR THE RIGHT HOOK GHET #wasteofwater #cesspitdnd

man writing down "i've avoided doing xyz coping mechanism just for the comfort of others around me" really puts it into perspective for me lmfao yikes

I miss making vent art as a quick way to relieve stress but all the vent drawings i wanna make are 100% making everyone close to me in my life severely concerned for me. like yeah ill live sometimes writing it down helps but 😭 gonna need to put DISCLAIMER: im FINE

Happy 4th Anniversary! Collab with artists from the toxic cesspit, this year's theme was sunset bbq on the rooftops, check out the comments for the credits, thank you so much for participating! #phisart #toxicsona

today game of what random debuff was put onto mel: this round is randomly spitting up blood when you wake up!!!!!

heading home today ouuuuuuuu

suddenly i gaf abt that rn

i think there is some fuckin new alter but im on vacation so idgaf abt tht rn

i hate that certain design elements have been irreversibly ruined by an ex friend. genuinely so annoying

got sick again god please just kill me

passed out sitting up and then got sick upon being conscious again. i want my bf but bes sleeping and upstairs n i dont wanna bother him

funfact; i did. my body hurts. i think im still gonna be sick. fuck red wine fuck red wine fuck red wine

red wine is the devil actually i think red wine sucks i think i should implode

am i gonna throw up on my first night of my trip oh no

why is bro living like an ancient greek noble

drank too much wine and ate too much today ougghhhghghhghhhh

> everything currently fixed itself and is fine > turn to me, who is still dealing with constant fight or flight tendencies even though everything is perfectly fine.

server might be.. done?

COMMENT HERE IF YOURE INTERESTED IN AN 18+ CESSPIT RELATED SERVER; SO I CAN DM WHEN ITS DONE (PIC UNRELATED BUT ITS COPPER!!)

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currently prepping the 18+ server which will be owned by my sys member and by extension me; got rules set up and stuff, gonna continue working on it

Being a system is great because I have like 4 people holding me back from tweaking out at all times even though all 4 of those bitches also wanna tweak out.

yk wht im not done bc this is so frustrating n giving me deja vu. The fact a bunch of adults are unable to have a civil discussion about something like this without eventually shutting down convo of it to "drop it and move on" lacks the awareness of the actual fucking issue. +

I love when THE PEOPLE AT FAULT sweep issues under the rug and not apologize, feign some kind of understanding, and others do nothing to punish those those were actively being dicks asides a slap on the wrist. Shut down conversation, im sure silencing people again will go well this time.

i feel sick again i genuinely think these shots will kill me but no it doesnt matter bc im losing weight!!! it dont matter if every single thing i eat risks making me sick. even foods i thought were safe!!!

dnd on sunday was crazy good! Shervin got his anger back!! and while doing so, he trashed out a whole room to break a box with more boxes inside. One of these attempts is him picking up a cross from a grave and slamming it down! #wasteofwater #cesspitdnd

anyone have adult spaces for ppl who like toxicsonas and stuff or something or do i need to make my own space 🥲

genuinely its comedic how often shit hits the fan for me dude

steps out of social circle ive stuck with for months bc of paranoia. immediately walks back into the circle

Ghet did NOT get their emotions back this session, btw, those are currently trapped in a glowing cube at the center of the dungeon #wasteofwater #cesspitdnd

Yesterday we had another session for Waste of Water, and this time around the party was plopped into a dungeon to finally retrieve their emotions Yornch’s moment getting his emotions back made me CRY man I CAANN’TT, he said they’re his BEST FRIENDSSS #wasteofwater #cesspitdnd

i wish i was a billionaire so i could commissio n so much whipcrack art. i die evertime i see art of thrm

These shots are going to kill me I swear on it

shoutout to our dm and our dnd map maker for pulling together dnd tmrrw bc we were supposed to host pbw but we're so Sick we cant work on the dungeon map ouyghgghfhghhg

(on my deathbed) Whipcrack...... Eugene and Yornch..... the faggotsssss...................

i feel like actual assssss

shots made me super sick again woohoo

Made cards for my two DND Characters! #WasteofWater #PoweredbyWater #CesspitDND