I thought being a gang member would be only defense against the oppression (them)

I feel too lonely, too out of this world.

Looking back I'm not sure what built my intensive emotional intelligence at all or my fusions of dialect

I either wish I was dead or never had the same circumstances my trauma will literally post-exist how is this even fair for anyone? It doesn't make much sense at all...

All of sadist words now dissolve what he says means almost nothing, ignorant and wrongly opinionated, he must've been the golden child while I was the two time scapegoat or something. What a fucked world, I can't wait to do an apartheid away from these people and move away.

why does this family hate me before but love me now? Does this make sense?

"go above and beyond" in college, i'll try...

Visit in about 1 hours

i cant tolerate ambiguity

I want to be a completely different novelty for myself...

Cant even live a normal life jeez!

"i can see what your doing..."

im not finna date any mentally ill any druggies or anybody else.

i have an energetic coping mechanism that looks like factory depositing ive been doing it for years.

if sadist touched me hed be bleeding out his noggin

I really really love the fact they mistook me for stupid, i loved it, i was simply trying to develop my conformist-comfort lingo for them...

i was talking at 9 months lol

I can choose the @wookietron9000.bsky.social and not compromise myself for anyone else/any job, or i can move far away and stay away from my family keeping it radial from now on since they have nothing good for themselves (sis seems like she cant and wont manage anything)

i used to have a huge passion for hiphop now i just go through it you know...

i manipulate so hard and then they go "you crazy for that!" and then contradict myself by saying i dont manipulate...

metacognition, compassion skills for reappraisal when the brain is overstimulated or overwhelmed it works well to keep the task going, i use a combine of DBT skills in order to flourish all of my strange bipolar feelings for the day.

ill stop bragging so much about stuff its not who i am...

Ok guys, ill just try to work as hard as possible both in college and get some sort of job somewhere else, any job i just need something fun to do because my sister admits "he doesnt value anything" to my caseworker and that felt oddly right and oddly humiliating because my priorities arent the same

i cant wait til this trick ass bitch, weird energy vampire motherfucker gets his due for what he did, hes abnormal & remorseless and something should take him out.

im happy right now? i have a source of happiness which is like my core and thats about it, i dont need the slews of life to make things hard which is why i remove them.

i find it very difficult to identify with most people, its such a lonely life, its just how i treated my own upbringing, how i treated myself and how i

my sensitivity is putting me on bedrest everyday

i wanna see how much better i can manage my pain

i feel zero remorse they dont deserve it

apparently im unforgettable to the players, WHAT DOES IT BENEFIT?

she said i was making her feel bad, this crappy old lady.

and now my good news as if it has never been, just as i need it.

i asked the question just to see it in your face i already know the answer never mattered. youtu.be/exGzZkiScbc?...

still wanting to pick a profession i dont know...

They took my happiness and then took 3 years of my teenhood? Im most definitely not coming back. They're plotting more, you know my brothers & sisters.

After learning about psychology i separated "dumb" peers into the "special needs" category maybe based off mannerisms or personality, i really couldn't deal with those freakshows.

I have a huge difference from my adults even the most coldest im simply a worser monster.

Im not athiest like some bitches around here.

im really hearing these bitches go "ugh" over and over, i have mental health too

Smear campaign as a way to watch me? Are you serious? We have got to get the fuck out here because that is abnormal.

i need to be cold but i dont need to feel frigid

i wonder do they think its scientifically possible to be someone like me? to go through things i went through, its societally blasphemous and laughable.

i need to fix my overly childish manner its rupturing my life and emotions.

aye no one is hiding anything...

its sad to see some people aren't in reality enough. Not in clear reality, not in tangible reality, either dustied or delusional its very sad, those lenses may never clear.

think i got issues, hell to the fucking naw, there are so many reasons you are not perfect, you legitimately aren't any better so please notice & focus on it, instead of just going around and thinking something stupid.

People keep threatening me, how bad is a self-focused work enivironment? terrible, huh?

Psychiatrist can make accurate diagnosis but youtube allows you to relate to it, thats good for delusional bullshit, good times finding yourself and what not...

goal tangible