hi. the hell site is even more unusable than usual rn.

oh that's fun. this period decided to be one of those occasional Straight From Hell kinda ones. love being cold, sweaty, shaking and nauseous while cramps make me reconsider the whole not killing myself thing.

i worked 2 full days and one half day this week and i'm exhausted but i can't even really sleep in tomorrow because i got a blood test and a job coach appointment that i did not prepare for. and i wanna go swimming afterwards too 🥲

i get the well meaning advice to join a board game club to make friends a lot for someone who fucking hates board games. get that fucking dice away from me or so help me god.

popped a pimple in the corner of my mouth so now for the next week people gonna think i have a cold sore yay

forgot i actually deleted duolingo from my phone yesterday so i just reached for my phone to do my lesson lol. need a new app i guess.

if my devout catholic grandma was still alive easter monday brunch would have taken a turn i can tell you that much

my laptop had been screaming at me about updates for a few days, so yesterday i thought i'd let it do that before i went to bed. but it was taking a very long time and i was tired so i went to bed. anyway, now i have windows 11.

mum calls me downstairs for dinner. i answer i'll be there soon. my dad who doesn't hear me 'cause he's in the living room: i thought she'd gone out? my mum calling out again: sarah are you out?? GIRL DID YOU NOT LITERALLY JUST HEAR ME ANSWER YOU? WHO DID YOU THINK ANSWERED??🤨😭

education sector is so funny what do you mean even the administration has 2 weeks off for break

last year when i ran out of urban decay primer potion i bought milani's eyeshadow primer because the internet told me it was just as good if not better for a much cheaper price. anyway today i'm glad to have used up the last drop of that shit and we're back to udpp and i will never stray again.

i miss the early internet. people were like “you gotta see this dude. this cat sure is long.” and they were right. it was really long. it never shoulda gotten any more complicated than that.

chrome forced an update that turns off ublock which i noticed immediately because the first video i tried to watch was preceded by a long ad for m&m's. turned that shit back on right away which thankfully still works, apparently it has been deleted from the chrome store. fuck google.

cat who would rather starve than touch his wet food lately (dw he's fine, just picky and special)

posting a 2 and a half hours long video this late in the evening is insane but this week's background noise while doing my makeup is sorted.

my mom is apparently so far away from planet earth she just asked when i was gonna start my job experience placement. i started two weeks ago. not hurtful at all.

instagram keeps putting anti blake lively content into my algorithm and i find it sus as hell. i've read comments on like two posts to see if anyone was pushing back against those unhinged weirdos but it's just complete madness. like amber heard all over again.

i'm really gonna go wake up early, do makeup and dress cute, just to go to the therapy group tomorrow for a quick 5 minute goodbye and then leave again lmaoooo

he was so round today

i know people were disappointed about february not being vday themed this year but i kinda appreciate a birthday without hearts and roses. though it didn't rain today either.

first dan and phil ruin my personal finances, then they try to kill me with insta post. what did i do to deserve this?

I DID IT. i have officially informed my therapist that i will not continue with therapy. and i hate to be predictable but the response was that they weren't surprised so 🤷🏻‍♀️

anxiety off the charts because tomorrow i'm gonna have to tell the therapist that actually i'm not here to discuss therapy evaluation at all because ✨i quit✨

until 5 minutes ago my dad was apparently the last person in the world to have never heard apt. the song has been nr. 1 for 5 consecutive weeks in the dutch top 40 and lisening to music is his only hobby.

69 meet and greets later and the official "Terrible Influence Tour Meet and Greet Outfit Stats" are here 💜💙 Compiling all this info over the past 5 months has been a real labour of love and I thought what better way to display it than in a fun, photocard inspired template! ✨

left it to the last day to do my therapy evaluation so now i'm stressed about it 🎉💯👌

finale 📺💙 #phanart

here’s to the nights we felt alive here’s to the tears you knew you’d cry here’s to goodbye tomorrow’s gonna come too soon #thankyoutit #phanart

Catboys🐱🐾 #phanart

decided to be a good girl and go to psychomotor therapy tomorrow morning even if it's just because canceling a therapy for dnp (kinda) twice gets kinda ridiculous even for me (and i can't think of a good excuse lol)

this lipline pimple really pissing me the fuck off GO AWAY IT'S BEEN A WEEK

the pool increased the price of my membership again to €47 while they've only cut lane swimming timeslots this past year. when i started almost three years ago a membership was €38.

dnp give me cute aggression

no way babble passed dan with that pronunciation of 'mij'

i still need to unpack. and eat. my last meal was an airport whsmith chicken salad sandwich.

i'll catch up on all new stuff when i wake from my peaceful slumber that will not be rudely interrupted by an alarm for monday morning group therapy because i already told them i'm not coming yaaaaaaaay 🎉✨️💖

my mother: you're getting back so late. take a taxi. A TAXI??? I DIDN'T KNOW WE WON THE LOTTERY HOLY SHIT

byeeeee london and friends 💖

fixed. this always happens at least once so i bring nails i didn't use from the set, a nail file and glue everywhere i go to avoid looking stupid.

how symbolic one of my TIT press ons fell off i guess tour really is over (not really amsterdam in 11 days baby!!1)

rush this hot to go that did you know drama is like my favorite aespa song

passed the shard on the train. thought of dnp dinner dates.

Just boarded. The captain thinks he's funny, saying there's a little bit of wind in the UK.

guess who apparently turned off her 2 alarms and woke up an hour later 🫣

i have seemingly managed to cram all* my fluids into a baggy again *not really how are we still doing this it's 2025 there must be a better way

i'd almost forget in all my excitement and preparation for london but i do have a meeting about starting the job experience placement thingy first thing in the morning oops

Cancelling idols that basically "give you the ick" while making endless excuses to stay on the Hitler app is quite something is all, lol.

my issue is that for a high maintenance girlie like myself travel bottles are way too big for a short trip where you wanna bring a little bit of a lot of different products.

i had the wooooorst night of sleep in my life last night i better sleep like a baby these next two days or i'll be holding my funeral in london.

meanwhile, i might not be able to go to TIT amsterdam? i'm starting a ~workplace experience trial~ at a yet to be determined date, but possibly early february.