the artificial flow state system is a system for inducing flow state in a given person arbitrarily -- the artificial flow state system is good and i like it -- it is very good -- it's my favourite. we like to use it to have sex and make it feel like we're not going to die.

i'm so base bunny coded. i would knock on a pilot's door and yell things like "you need to be out there and fighting!!!!!!" and they would be scrambling to get their pants up and i would know what was happening. I would do things of that nature.

winding garden paths turned around my finger like string, walking this way endlessly, feels like a fool's errand.

imho as a chubby asian tgirl is that even if i were born cis i wouldn't pass -- not small, not compact enough, my existence imposes and implies too much simultaneously, ...but i like myself, very much so

they wanna see your id at the supermarket because - i don't know, something about the energy drinks or the mane of hair wrapping around your head or the case of beer sitting in the checkout or something. tell her you lost it. tell her you'll kill her. tell her you're obviously 24

kendrick lamar angelgirl rep in new album

i think just being alive is terifying but in a cool and esoteric way and not a lame and depressed way ... thoughts?

bjd accounts save me...

no, i'm just watching

rubberneckers, that's what i'll call them, slack jawed with their lobotomite stare. they're passing me the things i paid for with the last of my money with a strange incredulous look. okay now watch closely, this is where he says "anything else, sir?" now i need you to kiss me,

post-death B average

most lovely thing is the corner of my quilt that my mother has patched with some scrap fabric, beautiful and.. sad?

(twenty minutes into a video game) ah hell this is one of those you have to get good at fuck this

from the center of my broken heart, 999,999 blades of grass sprout, colonizing the brown-red decayed muscle like fertile swampland. if you let me live // love i promise you a thousand million possibilities, all condensed into my apotheosis, and - endless salvation

on a bad date being haunted by a dead girl who glows by comparison, afterwards she says she'd like to hang out again but all i can think about is how much i liked that haunting girl better. hey i'm thinking of you. i'm thinking of you. thinking of you. beams at you.

it doesn't want to deal with its stupid chud doctor

logging back on and creating and being "cringe" could fix me but my iron levels are too low

should is a word that erases possibilities and absolves you of agency, you must always be doing things because you *want* to

1984 is incestslop

i need a proper laptop dock but i'm broke

sex in front of a mirror

this + being molested here by your sister (she smells like cigarettes and whiskey)

i'm lucky that i rolled the body odour smells nice genes and such

sparepartsdoll