Chronic pain

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An impossible wish: To rest On someone My brain and body Go quiet around

The evil that men do lives after them

my mind cannot escape there's nothing left to flee to I cannot disconnect, I cannot leave, I cannot be anywhere but Here and here is unbearable I break again and my light is broken: there exists nothing but a chaotic night.

there's nothing more. i have to accept just this. but the hands I called for you with are burning - I wish I could sever every limb that could not and cannot work enough to reach you.

Haha oops

She died one year ago today

I feel sick, I hope I’m dying

When all you see of yourself are shapes & percentages When you wish you could see beauty in your reflection Or at least focus on other joys, Like sunlight and blossoms- I, I gaze at you with awe. Through you, I see kaleidoscopes of wonder Microcosm though it may be, The universe is in your eyes.

i am the problem you all swore i wasn't kept up by heartaches, the pressure is constant bleeding bones and broken veins blossomed grief and barren joy i hold no strength to aid causes apparent useless when rested, but hopeless when errant

Poetry from my journal entries. Please click the image for alt text of my handwriting is unreadable for you