portrait of my pal Calvin @calvinorion.bsky.social #art #digitalart

The council has bestowed upon @chichiai.bsky.social the greatest blessing we can offer any individual

Had a bit of a scare accidentally overdosing on my meds but I locked in I got water and the beauty of the outdoors has aided me

First dnd stream went well I didn’t think my community fucked with me being a nerdy DM

It’s genuinely so beautiful

Never kill your self.

This is me. I am the eepy kitty. Be nice to me

“I NEED YOU. YOU CAN KEEP ME ON THIS EARTH. BE VIGILANT. I LOVE YOU.”

Flying out to MAGFest now. Got patted down for the first time. Very fun

Taking long ass showers but I don’t do anything but hit this pose under the hot water

I fucking cry now 🤍🤍 Thank you guys sm

Thank god God for letting me live to see this on a random 3am morning. I love being here

Great I slept too much and now I must sort through my dreams to determine fact and fantasy

I FUCKING LOVE DISCO ELYSIUM

ILL BE PLAYING WITH MYSELF ON DEC 28TH SPECIAL HOLIDAY SPECIAL STREAM

So geargous ( how do I spell the fancy word for pretty)

So pretty up here

It's been six years since I got out of the army and everyday has been a struggle to get over it. The failed plans, mourning the future I thought l'd have and can never achieve now. But today was the first day waking up and it not being so bad. 1/2

Mental health has not been great. Upped my psychotic meds and really trying to fix the way I talk to myself and think. In the mean time please share your favorite albums with me I need to listen to more music

I was waiting for a cigarette

I step out for 5 minutes and my mustache and nose freezes

Happy thanksgiving it has hit -30 here :))))

I was able to make it to Friday and talk with my doctor. We went over time by about an hour. Meds tonight should help me get out of crisis mode. I will probably need therapy for the rest of my life. However I’m alive and trying to thrive. Thank you for the kind words

Would really appreciate kind words and thoughts and prayers. I’m really banking on Friday to get meds for anxiety and hallucinations and start getting therapy but I’m concerned I won’t make it to then. It’s a struggle right now.

I am *totally* confident in my body but if I could transform into jinx from arcane body type I’d do it. No I will not unpack that at all.

Some point soon I need to get really high and stream a volition maxed disco elysium run. Thoughts?

God gave me mental illness in an attempt to nerf me. Well fuck you man I’m gonna be the best at getting therapy and then I’m gonna be everyone’s pride and joy

Need to write more one shots and start work on a new dnd campaign after I finish curse of Strahd with my goofy group. Need to get better and make it a good streamed thing. I miss streaming dnd

Shower rack was the best thing ever invented

ITS TIME FOR LEA- I MEAN SUN HAVEN LIVE NOW W/ CALVIN twitch.tv/panmoran

I need to get better at scheduling time out to play games with friends. Not even to stream, just need court mandated fun time with the moots

Big thanks to any the new followers I am but a silly guy I hope I can live up to expectations

ALSO HEY MY FOLLOWERS Apparently starter packs are harder to use so here is a list as well of everyone I think could really jumpstart your feed full of #Vtuber and creators I really enjoy and personally endorse! bsky.app/profile/did:...

In 10 years if I have kids I’ll tell them this was weezer

Veterans Day is not a super great day for me. Slot of mixed emotions toward myself and the system. Unrelated Here’s a cat with a beer

Not being able to sleep is really getting to me

Hopefully I can start planning streams and making schedules. Its really difficult to get excited for myself and think I’m good/funny enough to be worth peoples time

Going to the club and someone said I look like I’m an off duty cop. Gonna blow up

Kronk says hi

Finally had an emotional breakthrough and it feels like a cog in my brain was missing all this time. I have a lot more clarity and now more motivation to get better mental health

Had a panic attack at a party and the baddies caught me standing in the corner like this for hours

Gave my DnD players an elephant encounter and they befriended it and immediately they managed to trample an npc to death

My new phone scares me. But now I can text people with inflatable text so that’s cool I guess

IM OVER HERE TODAY GO GO GO

SUPRISE! we doing risk of rain 2 with @calvinorion.bsky.social ! www.twitch.tv/belleumbra #EnVtuber #vtuberuprising #Vsky

Its peak Live on twitch

I keep trying to take pictures of how pretty Alaska is but I keep falling into slush puddles

The goth women got me arbys do you think they love me

Body is killing me I need to curl up in the snow and bleed out

My back and knees are trying to kill me. I’m worried I’ll need surgery in the future like my dad did. Stupid genetics and stupid previous jobs killing my body