have an exchange fic due in a month and my brain is just fucking white noise whenever i open the file ughhhhhhhhhh

i don't normally think of my music tastes being particularly chinese, usually, but it is v funny to me that my ranking of rescene's title songs exactly matches their popularity on bili lmao

Animal Crossing New Horizons (2020) #acnh

ALERT ALERT NEW JIM LILL VIDEO ALERT ALERT www.youtube.com/watch?v=K-vI...

realizing the 'do you need to play a game to be a fan' discourse is literally just the green/blue activity i used to do with students

john park's cover of love attack is so gooood y'all? (also v cute how hyped rescene was haha) youtu.be/y1SL3LBCGWg

literally kh1 riku and sora but in real life

so small he only need 1 popcorn

real talk minami's vocals are so crazy clean www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gt9G..., i get why the company CEO put so much effort into locking her in, and why the other girls agreed to join the company after meeting her

in reading some kfans discussing rescene/woni's popularity, was surprised to learn woni didn't become a trainee until she was 18. (they were hypothesizing whether part of why woni's personality seems like such a breath of fresh air compared to other idols is she had a full, normal childhood)

湘北メイド喫茶 [ #SLAMDUNK ]

rescene's cn fandom nickname is 咖 (ka1) which like, didn't make sense to me bc nothing about them seemed connected (咖 is functionally like romaji—used pretty much just to sound out foreign words like curry 咖喱 and coffee 咖啡), but apparently it's bc rescene sounds like 瑞幸 = luckin (cn coffee brand 💀)

so since i've been watching rescene content i keep getting recommended a bunch of their other guestings (of which they've recently had a CRAZY amount) and for real, i totally get why PD wanted to start a ytube channel with woni bc she's really SO charming, even in other content

there's a post on twt basically complaining why it is kpop girl groups don't seem to have the longevity of boy groups and like. i kinda of wish topics like this didn't devolve into name calling and personal attacks of either group of stans

i do not actually care abt the whole lngshot and jay park situation, but found out cn-netizens call them 龙虾 which is SUCH an unfortunate nickname lol (long2 xia1, lit. “lobster”, but bc it’s a homophone for “deaf & blind”, commonly used in cn websphere to describe ppl who can’t recognize talent)

i’ve fallen into a rescene hole and i can’t get out

decided to branch out from my usual unsweetened iced tea so got the double strawberry daydream refresher and 1) it is Very Pink, 2) it is not very good (too sweet, too artificial strawberry)

accepted a job offer to be an underpaid educator once again whoop whoop

the irony of trs having what is shaping up to be one of their most successful ever comebacks despite having an MV so basic it is literally in bw and, so far, NO variety shows (not even web variety) and a singular radio show

anyway just gonna continue enjoying jyun looking especially “nonbinary uni gsa president” this cb & do my best to ignore everything else

was reminded of this again today. saw a fan proudly announcing they were happy to be subservient & stream for the sake of their idol and other fans should be too and just, sigh. again, i need people to love themselves more

tried out my fancy new “real” figure skates today for the first time and, y’all, somehow just 30min of my normal drills had me sweating more than 1.5hr+ on my old rec skates

seeing the conversation coming up again about whether fans should feel "obligated" to be positive about whatever their favorite band releases and like. y'all please love yourselves more and listen to music you actually enjoy

bit the bullet and finally scheduled a skate fitting appointment at the fancy figure skating shop an hour away rip to probably at least $300 lol sigh

guys the tag is “bottoming from the top”

figured out how to sort of sing in that piercing peking opera style and am now making it a problem for everyone else at home lol

was frustrated with myself bc backwards slalom is still evading me (i can go like, 4-5 curves before i find myself off course), and then suddenly realized i can pretty comfortably skate backwards now, something i couldn’t do even two weeks ago. good to have some perspective sometimes

so went to bowling alley for the first time since it got bought out by another chain, and had the manager come up to us mid-game to ask us about our experience and then found they emailed me after to ask the same thing again???????

A looooooooong procession of geese 🥲🥹😃 wildlife moments of zen.

i know this is 100% late stage parasocialism but suddenly feeling sad abt how jd used to be one of the members who tried the hardest to stay in contact w everyone (iirc, ksh even mentioned j-walk reached out to help him during his first financial controversy)

missing jekki but also missing idol jiwon hours www.youtube.com/watch?v=iTt9...

watching circa 2016-2018 jekki content and ofc they're still as funny and charming as when i first got into them back then, but also everything feels so bittersweet?

saw a post today that i think finally crystallized my issues with kpop streaming culture—it establishes a paradigm where the only person who dreams and goals matter is the idol, and other fans are just machines to make those goals happen

Lunes. Buenos días

amazing how hours of skating will leave me a little sore but mostly OK, but *getting out of bed* is enough to hurt my back bad enough I struggle to get into and out of chairs for the rest of the day

saw someone unironically say "you don't need to listen to music to write it" in response to the "reading more will improve your writing" take, so I guess it's time to # log off

lol after spending $$$ on a new tatung rice cooker, the old one appears to have magically revived itself??? ended up still working out bc now that we have 2, we are discovering how great it is for cooking things other than rice

I know I said something similar back when I was trying to swim regularly, but I sincerely do not get everyone who says "ugh, the normies are right, exercising DOES make me feel better" bc literally the only thing sustaining me through skating is the skating itself is fun

forgot to respond to a ping for staff in the jekki server and literally no one else responded.... am I the only active staff left dkgiiqkowaksntb

been on a sechskies music kick again and god ksh's voice is really crazzzy. it's too bad about uh, everything else lol

i've been helping my mom around the garden these last few days and i do not know how it has happened, but i have managed to cut my hand EVERY SINGLE TIME despite wearing thick leather gardening gloves

yz+hxm are starting an ent company together which means now TWO old man yaoi ships i follow have gotten business married

debating whether to get the partially symbiote infected or fully symbiote infected shoes 🤔

went roller skating and this should perhaps have been obvious, but eight large vinyl wheels will, in fact, add a *significant* amount of weight to your feet. definitely felt like way more of a workout than ice skating

Every now and then I remember the 1700s Japanese illustration of hammerhead sharks and it cures my depression.

yoooooooooo this line up for 寻宝2?

thinking a lot recently abt how purity culture in fandom parrots a lot of the rhetoric used by mainland cn censorship bodies—that fiction directly affects reality and portrayal is tantamount to support, and therefore the only solution is to wholly eliminate any problematic elements from media

mostly have right over left crossovers down but still scared of left over right bc public skate always goes counter clockwise so I don't rly practice it 😔

seeing ppl complain abt fans using the "wrong platform" to stream, throw me off a clifffffff

brains are so weird man. like, i know why it happens but it's so strange how i perceive my eyelashes to be more in-the-way of my vision after i curl them even though are objectively more out of the way of my pupils