Why am I still seeing gays that have anything referencing H*rry P*tter in their names, bios, etc like can we PLEASE LET IT GO

I cackled the other day posting this because there's gotta be SO many people following me that only know me from what I post and I swear like 80% of it is just me being sad or moping LMAO I swear I am so much fun outside of social media. 😵‍💫💀

Wild that my brain is like "yea don't forget that you're sad about THIS too, by the way, like yea the mom stuff is a lot but this is still here too!"

Back at work today and I find myself full of intrusive "I bet they know what it's like to lose their mom, too" thoughts at my older co-workers omg WILD.

Being a source of joy for everyone in my life can be so exhausting. What a day.

I don’t want to go to sleep. Tomorrow is it. The official goodbye.

It’s true, I am.

My sister returned a birthday gift I got my mom to me the other day. It was a box of soaps and stuff from Lush and Cameron was using some, which is fine + I want him to. Seeing it and smelling how nice it was… *sigh* Insane that life just goes on. It has to.

Big cuddles day; just wanna lay in bed and sleep the rest of the weekend away.

Next Thursday I get to say goodbye. I'll stop posting about this soon lol just want to get over the hump.

Coroner’s office today. Send hugs.

I'm NOT holding it against anyone at all & I understand that I CANNOT fairly expect everyone to read all my posts, but it's odd to me seeing friends that've been close to me for YEARS not comment, interact, or reach out at all while I see them consistently posting and commenting on other posts.

Met with my sister and uncle today and we told my grandmother (my mom’s mom) together. What a day. What a week! Only thing keeping me sane, it feels like, is video games, my friends, Cameron, and being at home.

One thing I’ve learned is that I’m just tired of telling people directly. I’m already so tired.

Being bombarded by intrusive thoughts about how I was a bad son & how I'll never be able to follow-up on things I said I'd do & I can never apologize while also being grounded enough to know that this ISN'T true & that she loved me so much & never felt resentment is such a wild rollercoaster.

Been a weird <24 hours. I’ve been trying to figure out if it’s healthy or not for me to post about it and I think I’ve decided that it’s part of life and it’s okay to allow others to be there for me AND it’s okay to talk about it. Anyway, my mom passed away yesterday. It fucking sucks.

Learned today that I grieve by JOKING in between periodic bawling. Who saw that one coming!

I need one of those vacations where I just backpack or camp in the wilderness by myself for a week. Societal deprivation, really.

Genuinely hurts so much omg the BUMP on my leg is the size of a wallet 😭😵‍💫

I JUST FELL DOWN MY STAIRS 😭 I’m okay, I’ll have a huge bruise on my hip, I’m sure. Slipped on a dog toy in the dark. 😵‍💫

I think I'm too nice because I have friends who will simply "nice" my achievements & then when they tell me good things that happen to them, I go WILD with my celebration response. I've felt this way for a long time & part of me wants to like, give the energy I get but I like giving big energy. 😔😵‍💫

Oh nice, you have multiple characters for Mythic+ in WoW! Cool! Oh... they're ALL DPS specs...? Oh... haha no yea that's really cool! Wow haha very ~spicy~ and out there! No yea that's awesome! Oh you complain a lot about tanks & healers...? But you don't... no haha I get it! So valid!

If you're trans... hell yea. I USE TRANS COLORED MODS/SKINS IN DEADLOCK I LOVE Y'ALL

Realized the other day that one of the things I hate about myself more than anything is that I convince myself that I don't need to care about taking care of myself.

Got an updated eye prescription for the first time in 5 years lmao

My brain constantly hyperfocusing on the same things all the time is so exhausting sometimes. Like yes, that’s a cool person or yes, that’s a good game or yes, that’s a good food. There is so much to be excited about and love and my brain just latches on to like 3 things at once, always. 😵‍💫

Proud “never taken the Lucky feat” D&D player here. 😌😏

It's a good day to take new booty pics.

Magic: The Gathering! Am I right, y'all?!

You wanna WHAT in my WHAT?!

🥦🥩

World bear day...? What is a bear? I'm a visual learner btw

Off to the Oddities and Curiosities convention with the babe! 😍

Tough day for me

Anyone else have like, pre-emptive arguments with people in their heads so they're ready for the real thing in case it happens or is it just me. 😵‍💫

Whoa, nice dick, brother!

I feel so corny but it just feels so right. Siri play "This is me" by Demi Lovato

This post is for me, you do not have to read it. I am so thankful for so many things but the friends I have in my life are really something special. Life sometimes feels like I'm constantly learning to drive and those close to me are constant navigators ready to help keep me stay on course.

What kind of store would you call a store that sells like, D&D stuff, warhammer figures and models, D&D models, MTG cards + more, dice sets, board games, etc etc Like what genre of store? Entertainment? It feels like that doesn't do it justice lol

Some of y’all have straight friends you let say “faggot” and that’s weird as fuck to me LMAO HUGE red flag, can absolutely miss me with that weird bullshit 🤢

Do you think that One Punch Man- So I stopped myself from finishing this post, actually. You're all welcome. Why do I think of things

Maphra's been releasing some incredible covers. 😵‍💫 Doomed and Circle With Me are incredible.

Why can't I date NPC's in World of Warcraft...?

I’m walking here!

Okay I have SEVEN MTG decks made right now with only like, 2 more cards on the way. I'm gonna coast on these for a bit and pay down some of the credit card debt I've accrued... LOL 😵‍💫

Lemme get isekai'd into an anthro furry world but I'm taken in by someone rich and get to live the rest of my life in love and taken care of but also lemme bring Cameron

Oh we're going ghost hunting? Yea lemme get my flashlight:

I feel like I’m going to be blind in my right eye in like, 10 years.

I’ve been so mentally and emotionally tired for like 6 months now and I don’t understand why. *sigh*