Everything feels like a shit show in my life. Some of it isn’t in my control and some of it is a result of another shitty persons decision not to communicate or be empathetic. The person being my former abuser and manipulator who I was with for over a decade.

So apparently the state took out my entire rent money for arrears that I owe and I have no money for rent. I am working on getting the money but currently have 0 in my bank account. If anyone can help I would appreciate it. I’m still unemployed and it’s been a nightmare trying to find a job.

Got to talk to one of the women that started the support group I go to back in the 80s. Hearing a elder speak about her experiences puts a lot into perspective. She said we are fighters and we will continue to fight.

Got a free oversized Carhartt jacket, am I officially futch

I went on a date with someone on FEELD recently and she told me before she left her roommates friends came over to help with FFS recovery for the roommate. When my date showed me he my profile they were like oh I saw her today walking in Bushwick/I’ve seen her around. I guess I’m a fixture in TS BK

I’ll be unstoppable with FFS and bigger tits

As a Xellinial I think proper Gen X give themselves too much of a pat on the back. Their great music got to us and we drank 4loko to it and didn’t sell off t our politics

When I pick up or drop off my kid and see the cis dads I am like damn they look sad they should transition

just a lil treat

Bottom surgery by Chopstars: Chopnotslopped

Watching book of the dead and it’s hilarious cause the characters are suppose to be American teenagers but they are all clearly Italian with accents

As my FFS gets closer I think I’m getting more dysphoric about aspects of my face.

Got gendered correctly by a woman on the bus when she told me to wear a fucking mask.

The only thing that was great that came out of my abusive marriage was my daughter. The thing that’s sucks is I still have to interact with her. But I am now standing up to her and letting her know I am a bitch you don’t fuck with

Estrogenated

Cis people always insult trans femmes that they want to cut it off but it’s actually a flip flop or Uno reverse

Kneecap eats

Claim to fame is hanging out with Marisa from Screaming Females in Denton 2008 at a house show on their second tour joking around and her saying I feel like your a lesbian

I had a dream I had the same piercing that Alysa Lui has but it feel out cause my old ass didn’t know how it worked

There is an independent barcade (all the cabinets have bespoke games) one of them is a frogger style racing gsme called Grumpy Bumpy and one of my partners was like aww that’s you grumpy. I felt seen

The Eva discourse in the trans community is popping off. I don’t know how I feel about it but at this point like crack some more eggs

Shit is wild out there but the 99 cent store and the 24 hr laundromat on my corner are still open is crazier

Got the emergency phone alert. The purge has started

Kissed so many beautiful babes last night

Yellow M&M’s desire to transition to a Green M&M.

The one thing that annoys me about non NYCers criticizing Zohran and his post/rhetoric is that this is our job to pressure him to do something. We are the ones to criticize him, we voted for him.

Trying to risk assess and plan out counters for them in relation to FFS surgery. This is my coping mechanism from doom spiraling.

2009 movie: two girls kiss *men* “Niiice” 2026 movie: two girls kiss *men* “Stupid beta woke ass movie”

The funny thing about high school was I got called a faggot by all the jocks but I was the most masc alt cause I masked hard and knew about lot about music/was aloof as shit.

I need to new book to read. Any suggestions, I’ve already gone through 5 this year

Get you a girl who looks at you the way a nerdy transfemme looks at analog tech.

Kinda nervous about FFS in two months. Mainly telling my ex about it and her trying to use my daughter to guilt me about getting it done

It’s crazy how ice skating couples has a dude holding up a girl by her pussy. Wouldn’t a lesbians couple be better at it

Called cis male bartenders “dirty ass bartenders” at my local dive and they said whoa. Told the well I will give a t slur version. “You are barnnies”.

Never forget Paul Wall is the People’s Champ

Would you still love me if I turned heel in my wrestling arc?

Scissoring for eternity

I have friend from college I was still friends that was a hardcore/metal/subculture insta micro influencer I called out a month ago. He said shit about Black Metal that was not good and the three were an indigenous latine band and Liturgy and Agriculture. I asked him why do you hate trans femmes

Tranni Tatum

My daughter has a lunar new year fest right now and it coincides with after school pick up. Walking up to the school I ran / almost bumped into another trans mom walking out with her kids. We both locked eyes like deers in head lights. Total clock shock.

FFS date May 1st

Abigail and Natalie were big things when I transitioned and jumped into the white t girl scene. I had no idea who they were. I checked them out and I was like cool outfits but boooooring. It be cool if they were smoking a joint and doing a line on ket on screen and talking about Dragonball Z

I still don’t get the fine line tattoo trend

What’s insane is that in my life time a major city is occupied by a paramilitary force attacking the citizen of this country. Also when this occurs in other countries, politicians scream about how we need to support democracy and admonish authoritarian regimes

United Federation of Planets recruiter: "So, why do you want to join Starfleet?" My brain: "Don't say 'space pussy'; Don't say 'space pussy'; Don't say 'space pussy'..." My mouth: "Space cock, sir!"

The Chiodos second drummer

Saturdays is for the boys…to take their t shots

Age verification?

Saw a dude eating a banana wrapped in a tortilla. Mind blown